so yes the Kushner thing long ago i realised her genius of getting a 'thing' without giving it a word as I'm not sure one exists
IN her superb parable the detainees were cruelly treated and they had to grin and bear it but just occasionally the tyrannist may have let her guard down and a chink of pleasure had from beating the 'system' even if momentarily and only in a small symbolic away
read the book its not fun... but genius
But add something like that ...via glorious 2020 and 21 where one can indeed find great 'advantage' - among many such hose 2 glorious years i wish would come back tomorrow - vagabonds especially get a bigger break ! but not paying rent to a criminal damaging thief... who defrauds the eco grant system too..
(this region is FULL of her dopplegangers - even if the ones not quite as lethal..)
But that is or sounds like 'drama' which i never ever have in my life i am a genius at never ever rising to any tyranny as i dont believe it is as long ago i realised there will ALWAYS be some Kushner-principle - as i called it a few years ago, thing....
it is in fact far more poignantly subtly nuanced an affair if one is being Illusionistaed - that doesnt quite work as a word...
Gibbering liars in breaches
of contract, even if seriously projecting pious Chretienness...
thing is i always expect it .... so even before the illusionista behaviour begins i just see what small 'advantage' can be wrong out of the situation - never ever illegal never stealing anything thats crass...nope the art of some other small advantage knowing they are by default actually all suffering BPD... not my problem and are incurable ...
as they have lived here (countrywide - just as bad lasterregion ) too long and are so stupid they think you dont have friends you may gossip to or even a fairly wide-ranging readership i would never for a second hint at, and anyway thats not art its just Trumpian confected melodrama that makes no difference to anyone ... but far more important, as that would take away from the pure pirouetting around them ... enjoying ones small 'advantage' Kushner style..
they are like little souvenirs also of course i photograph them all... those little hidden fingers up before one is illusionistad...
almost a hobby
but it needs a word.
As does a new discovery...
discovering there really is NO hope whatsoever the Bovarian cancer riddled service economy is likely forever - so boring and rather surprising as they all of course endlessly sell via van sticker new 'adventure' and 'experience' so they wont ever change owt ...
i realised the real coup de grace
(as i never DO meet ANYone who reads proper novels or anyone who doesnt bluehair get all standy uppy static mad if you use the word 'literature' thats so so offensive it is actually MORE offensive than if one were to ask not even politely, "that Aardvark jizzm you sell as detox or hydration or facecream at 50 quid a spoonful..or plenishy wombwrap at i am quite sure the price of a new secondhand pram in Gaza the only one those delightful Jen's missed when out turkeyshhotin' ....could you prove they are better than your polluted shitty little streamwaters, or respectively a good thick pully, even of polyester if one's pauper ....?" when of course theyll never talk to you again unless its in a setting where theyre behind a judges screen making up falsies....)
Anyway yes ehh last good really absorbing one was the Berlin one 6 mths ago....
i forget, its in here then..
and in my ascetic so sparsely kept written notebooks very organised ("get more books by Mr X ") i cant be bothered to get out
So yes...if throughout life, or maybe it only takes a few years... of reading fairly regularly somehwhat involved novels... where you are tossed and turned around a tad and may find the
(oh yes its the END theyre all at it now every stupid young graduate of media studies has caught onto the gorgeous word liminal which means ONLY one thing - surfing the dangerzone up there way up high where theres no oxygen and one fals move your dead.... not an aviation term merely a way to live term.... but in reality: it's dangerous saying anything real in YUK for at least 15 years so liminal means just that ... balancing ones surf board right at the edge of where one may indeed remain alive... and there, only there in the world of 'thought' is indeed lifeas one false move and they want you dead especially in Source type regions which my lasterregion became too a decade back or even more... theyre VERY infectious .... anyway you now here liminal all over their service economy marketspeak... its the end....)
so, sticking with a Kushner...definitely the Scarlet and Black...or it could even be Swallows and AMazons or even a sci fi except Mister Pratchett thats when kiddultism started for sure
the feeling only people who read proper slightly tough-in-the-middle books know of ariving at about the last third you know your getting fully into the grove of it and certain secrets you enjoy as they are revealed and nothing will stop you getting to the end even yourself...
is a really splendid satisfying quite serene state to be in...
but you can only know it if you have done the WORK...and developed such bookreading as your habit...
Thing is ..its more than allegory ..infact its a blueprint
of exactly the very best way to manifest by lived experience and harness exactly that energy ..as blueprint guide of how to feel every day now
for the last 1/3 of life
even when you are fit and healthy enough to be at the beginning of the second or earlier
and it works
i only recently discovered
and it needs a word after all how not to at all in any way be neurotic and no matter what know theres a next page where its all quite interesting is..
all you want
bet you ten coffees you dont have that...
I do...always