New words 2 and 3

 

so yes the Kushner thing long ago i realised her genius of getting a 'thing' without giving it a word as I'm not sure one exists

IN her superb parable the detainees were cruelly treated and they had to grin and bear it but just occasionally the tyrannist may have let her guard down and a chink of pleasure had from beating the 'system' even if momentarily and only in a small symbolic away

read the book its not fun... but genius

But add something like that ...via glorious 2020 and 21  where one can indeed find great 'advantage'   - among many such hose 2 glorious years i wish would come back tomorrow  - vagabonds especially get a bigger break ! but not paying rent to  a criminal damaging thief...  who defrauds the eco grant system too..

(this region is FULL of her dopplegangers  - even if the ones not quite as lethal..) 

But that is or sounds like 'drama' which i never ever have in my life i am a genius at never ever rising to any tyranny as i dont believe it is as long ago i realised there will ALWAYS be some Kushner-principle  - as i called it a few years ago, thing.... 

it is in fact far more poignantly subtly nuanced an affair if one is being Illusionistaed - that doesnt quite work as a word...

Gibbering liars in  breaches 

of contract, even if seriously projecting pious Chretienness...

thing is i always expect it .... so even before the illusionista behaviour begins i just see what small 'advantage' can be wrong out of the situation - never ever illegal never stealing anything thats crass...nope the art of some other small advantage knowing they are by default actually all suffering BPD... not my problem and are incurable ...

as they have lived here (countrywide  - just as bad lasterregion ) too long  and are so stupid they think you dont have friends you may gossip to or even a fairly wide-ranging  readership i would never for a second hint at, and anyway thats not art its just Trumpian confected melodrama that makes no difference to anyone ... but far more important, as that would take away from the pure pirouetting  around them ... enjoying ones small 'advantage'  Kushner style..

they are like little souvenirs also of course i photograph them all... those little hidden fingers up before one is illusionistad...

almost a hobby

but it needs a word.

As does a new discovery...

discovering there really is NO hope whatsoever the Bovarian cancer riddled service economy is likely forever  - so boring and rather surprising as they all of course endlessly sell via van sticker new 'adventure' and 'experience' so they wont ever change owt ...

i realised the real coup de grace

(as i never DO meet ANYone who reads proper novels or anyone who doesnt bluehair get all standy uppy static mad if you use the word 'literature' thats so so offensive it is actually MORE offensive than if one were to ask not even politely, "that Aardvark jizzm you sell as detox or hydration  or facecream at 50 quid a spoonful..or plenishy wombwrap at i am quite sure the price of a  new secondhand pram in Gaza the only one those delightful Jen's missed when out turkeyshhotin' ....could you prove they are better than your polluted shitty little streamwaters,  or  respectively a good thick pully, even of polyester if one's  pauper ....?" when of course theyll never talk to you again unless its in a setting where theyre behind a judges screen making up falsies....)

Anyway yes  ehh last good really absorbing one was the Berlin one 6 mths ago....

i forget, its in here then..

and in my ascetic so sparsely kept written notebooks very organised ("get more books by Mr X ") i cant be bothered to get out 

So yes...if throughout life, or maybe it only takes a few years... of reading fairly regularly somehwhat involved novels... where you are tossed and turned around a tad and may find the 

(oh yes its the END theyre all at it now every stupid young graduate of media studies has caught onto the gorgeous word liminal which means ONLY one thing - surfing the dangerzone up there way up high where theres no oxygen and one fals move your dead.... not an aviation term merely a way to live term.... but in reality: it's dangerous saying anything real in YUK for at least 15 years so liminal means just that ... balancing ones surf board right at the edge of where one may indeed remain alive...  and there, only there in the world of 'thought'  is indeed lifeas one false move and they want you dead especially in Source type regions which my lasterregion became too a decade back or even more... theyre VERY infectious .... anyway you now here liminal all over their service economy marketspeak... its the end....)

so, sticking with a Kushner...definitely the Scarlet and Black...or it could even be Swallows and AMazons or even a sci fi except Mister Pratchett thats when kiddultism started for sure

the feeling only people who read proper slightly tough-in-the-middle books  know of ariving at about the last third you know your getting fully into the grove of it and certain secrets you enjoy as they are revealed and nothing will stop you getting to the end even yourself...

is a really splendid satisfying quite serene state to be in...

but you can only know it if you have done the WORK...and developed such bookreading as your habit...

Thing is ..its more than allegory ..infact its a blueprint

of exactly the very best way to  manifest by lived experience and harness exactly that energy ..as blueprint guide of how to feel every day now

for the last 1/3 of life

even when you are fit and healthy enough to be at the beginning of the second or earlier

and it works

i only recently discovered

and it needs a word after all how not to at all in any way be neurotic and no matter what know theres a next page where its all quite interesting is..

all you want

bet you ten coffees you dont have that... 

I do...always

or how to say ten times more than

 as even Mister Frank knew than Mister Coogler's silly "whoop whoop the largest amount of nominations ever" rubbish forgettable film in one artful  old  image

BUt the one work of art that's going to be impossible to translate into anything is ... thisterregion

Now some previous regions - Hatesville, was infact full of more hate-energy having to take a shower under the little bridge over Hatecreek, that first summer from June the 6th 2023

 dodging the turds and sensed hate all around but not quite sure just how hateful

(until their local top cowboy came by one day and from under his compulsory dog-walking cowboy hat and painted on ruggedness [cmon thats almost Hemmingway and i have an advantage as a non drfinking person with perfect memory and no need to ever get divereted into cheaper skirt keep every image in my ordinary head for years infact decades...as i trained myself to be a pure ascetic .... my my he was rude and i am so super stealth  only one person knew i was there   but his anti 'road trip' or freedom comment was quite scary....)

anyway the Hateregion with the lovely whirlybirds as soundtrack from HMS deathsquad training site up the road\....  the region was more diverse -  one particular possibly safe stream 15 km away IF going to get gas bottles at Trago the only place that doesnt truly extort via their service economy 

and other few needs dotted around ohh yes the preacher's place.... free bread now and again

already in quite well listened to subnstack " prey tell me preacehrman [i had often politely complimented on] with quite a good bookshop within your waste of cash huge temple ..... what do you think of marriage ..." first thing he blurts out is his somewhat biggotted attitude to lawful bloke on bloke..... when i had actually asked him about "marriage" in the main, not the maybe 1 or 2%  on the fringe ....funny that another one who paints on rugged man of the people  swaggery chumminess and can't even answer a simple question without immediately making a political statement rather than answering from the head heart or just about the utilitarian majority facts of a utilitarian legal framework that the whole tax and legal system is still based upon no matter what the Greens may think...

 

Anyway where was i ...some days are perfect, afternoon nap and two lovely first thing ion the mornings not intending to type owt as typin uses SO much more battery so no time to ever think just see what happens..

But the way the 'region' works here is even to me rather a lifetime unwitting vagabond  is a true work of art

certain atches or just daytime parkups if very bad weather are now so artfully on my map  - one here angled that way no wombwrapknitter can see in.. or just move 100 yards down that road and its so interesting the stressed out dogwalkers...  but i have seen and chronicled enough for a lifetime so it's just about quiet and hermitude - and then there are a range of freegrub locations but one has to really be canny and work through the most patronising nuttery in one or two....

and then Mrs free NAnas....and the splendid refreshing banter that happens art hers is free fuel - free remedy to all the rest of the headfuckery...

And even several locations where i go and chat with the only ones who are tolerable the pretty-oldies egging em on to set up twatters " old bag's jokes about the Big orange"  and they know i am right as at least they MEAN what they say nowt to lose any more if  they forget to put on their other face just to go out shoppin for ...

(foraged mushrooms at 4.50 a small bot dont forget that one... its like going back 16 years.... one thing you cannot ever do is expect someone servicing you via foraging workshops is for her to not wish you dead, or ortherwise PR destroyed for life,  for suggesting "maybe as you are rich dont forage too much  now.... bless, as nature is already rather depleted luv and you can afford Waitrose

... for the rest of life "   

Anyway yes my region - its perfect a day here a half day there .. a range of walks of various gradients...

ohh yes i havent forgot was up at The Bridge of Lurchery.... 

and the 'new word' even if i realise there are three needed and missing from this rather badly bred mongrel language

so yes various times - rarely but randomly pondering maybe i should...

but then as soon as the time has passed when it would be a wasted walk even around the corner as an 'event' half over....

a true sense of well authentic knowing onesself and knowing there's no goodness or real fun or simple old saudade once-faced nights out anywhere in any part of Southern England #

which does need a new word the Krauts would have one its not a negative thing its a lovely bodily positive thing especially the following 5.30am awaking with full sleep and not a hint of any soporific in fact thats a point there are in some places in the SW so many 'militant' homos i bet the rohypsters are not far away ...

a totally clear head always is so so lovely always ... no AA will tell you that or doctor or lanyardist

i noticed him months ago i bet few others ever have

too busy noticing each other

  

anyway i have zero interest in the society around and about, as been there done it and wouldnt want the tshirt if it was given away free..it's so so predictably the same as all the same performative-boho everywhere, just the capitol of it

 Now the these days  fairdinkum fairly mentally stable blogger.com is ok - only cos for a few years they haven't bothered 'refreshing' it's look thank god which is always a harbinger of doom, as their refreshing is just even more retarded junior new employees fiddling and not realising that there are splendid habits that are required grappling with the thing as it was always useless but better the devil you know and get used to (Green Party policy on being less lonely - as i see in this region by the wanness and sloped shoulders just cos of a bit of rain,  and two per woodburner denies is human nature that devil you know and tolerate thing,  and rather one should stuff Tolle down the neck of  potential twinwoodburnerflame until it either dies of being unable to digest it as its not even got any fibre innit, or  if lives to rightly throw it all up, be arrested for some or other crime upon the neurotix... so in other words we are right back to the witchy ducking stool...at least that version of tyranny was done in public...)

But my ohh my one used to be able to select into a post any number of videos to embed all at one click but no the last 'refresh' they forgot some of us may find that VERY time saving ...and its one by one taking SO much time...

Otherwise plain SIMPLE and just plain its ok i never bothered in 15 years figuring any button or whistle infact hadn't used the most useless one of all the emoji until a few months ago and won't be again as they ruined everything.. but the one thing errata two i also never bothered figuring was how to make a photo smaller in the page - your end, and perhaps arrange them lest Maositly all plain in a fine regimented line down a page, because having first tried that 15 years ago i realised it was such a pain in the bum really fiddly...and it hasn't changed i see.. 

And rahh rahh i never had the time to look to see if the datetimestamp on a photo also carried through into the user end errata user abuser cheapskate voyeur end ...but at last have: if one hovers the pointer on the image before CLICKING TO ENLARGE it does show the filename in bottom left hand corner...

as i say its still fiddly to make any collage effect or nicely arrange them and dont borther making some comment as i never read them which was the big change 3 years ago i know whats what and know nobody in the formerly sanish MArches and nobody at all can be sane in the  SW which is only Home Counties hideaway ..infact more than anything i had no idea ALL their daughters did arts degrees and ended up hiding away here  - which makes sense as if there were just one who was consistently good and also human and the public may like her for authentic openness all artists in the past TRIED to be or most did... 

she would do very well infact would shine out like a neutron star among all the dark matter which all the rest are - also unable to remeber the fine old addage of reduce reuse recycle .. the first word having an implicit meaning 'unless you really are adding to the human condition, stop wasting the planets resourcees and that means paint too'  whist of course their online PR is always in line one  " i am a n eco goddess.."

Indeed as are all PRs ... without exception...strange in such a shit hole nobody cares about any actual pollution for real...

 

But that's long known....  when one suspected that what the economists call " UK is a service industry" land (i think its about 80% ) meant merely some marketeer marketing some entirely unnecessary service (i had no idea nailbars which makes them sound utilitarian when in fact they are .. the most vile act of going backwards to Victorian times ever with chinky cooleyforced  labour is forced to sit in front of some porky smug Victorian dowager which is the look they all have on their faces even if not the default porky in stature) to bored people they may hook one in a hundred swings of the rod...

BUt its just so fascinating to have discovered The Source's 'circular economy' is really a total tyranny that even Mao would be proud and cool about having created  - of 100% smug you better have one of these special birthings or your will come out ...in fact  it will end up coming out of the wrong hole, all brown..

 and  oops they carry some weird font over 

due some embedded code you cant escape just draggin' a pic  retard is a kind word for these children

ehh...  yes thats before i find the series of pics showing the latest in special 'womb snug' knitwear...

price not shown of course we know what that means...

all of which is bad enough

but the true con (and i say this as a serious operator 20ish  years ago in the " fuckin' get with the program HAy-on-Wye you conning the world you are plastic bag free - a con...as they hadnt even gone to talk to the MAIN retailer the evil Coop where 90+% of Hay's plastic bags were dished out before going on the telluy stood next to Esti and dad the latter being given a nice lesson having just been to ask again at said COOP if theyve even had a text asking for a meeting "est you see before you Britain and why i had a deal with your mum we wouldn't stay once you could giggle ... look how she is smiling its always a she  - they use your sex as a con  - they steal it in fact...... if a smiley one is on the telly here, live.. camera rolling next to use B list celeb ... it means 'of course i am speaking the truth..we saved you all and your lovely environment '... she will then have a link to on her personal FAkebook for all to see in perpetuity "...

 

anyway this one although AT last i had the space as i live in the moment and only want to thrill myself in a zen state of awaiting new bad lines for future writings to arise in my head and be noted down and lost as i have too many i needed a slave assisting years ago keeping a spereadsheet as someone does know...  this one is important as although technically after the fabulous odyssey ended on Boxing day i mustn't forget it the final thrilling discovery i am serious infact i need nothing to happen for a while so i can make it worthwhile you having been nosey so long 

10 jan 2026

i saw what it was ALL about...up in the hills that day...and can't release the accompanying audio /video until i have made a decision.

Some things have to be held back as one thong for sure there are NO loyal people whatsoever in the SW the nett result of a service economy everyone simply obsessed with serving each other in the arms race to serve ion even weirder workshops at even higher prices...

(you only get to use THIS village hall if you are A rated ....within the circle  which is nobody DARE for a second critique any other service hatch as they are scared their servery may get downgraded and....  well its a beautiful definition of a circle thats unvirtuous  - and total - a total eclipse of any light infact .. a true black hole - gravitationally pulling all sanity into the other side of the universe as far away from them as possible ... so they may be beyond any rating even...as Houellebecq  - i can speed tgype without even checking the spelling despite having partial word blindness in my 20s they all bleat about as 'dyslexia' nowadays by default and their stupid parents dont say 'well wait til you NEED to depend on writing or readin to get out of gaol or torment your blogreaders just for fun  you may actually MAKE yourself figure the words and the brain WILL rewire as thats what they do me having fuckin failed to even fit a fuse in yours which would have been providing you with ferrits they sort out  out all kids as kids learn they MUST learn how to handle them propper or the consequences are fairly painful.... [ ours never bit any of the 1000s of kids Pied Pipered or even scratched em....  sadly  though not their mums either when i whispered in their ears i wished to suck that ones blood they ignored as ferrets arent needs dogs they are their own supreme animal above mere human moanin and neurosis and the OBSESSION of 99% of southerners to control

their dogs to make them look sweet and in control when controlling dogs i know as a REAL shepherd on big muvvafucker proper hills all my teens is bad for them..makes em go a bit nuts  .. errata OVERcontrol its really tragic the amount of little bits of film i have of seemingly saneish looking single people stoppin when they think no pone can see them and speaking and gesturing to their p[or mutt as if its got a phd in astronautics and will not only understand every complex word and gesture but think mission control must be listened to verbatin in silence too.... and thats before we get onto the attire - i can now FREELY discuss as i have a lovely ally and shetoo laughs about all the rest around here, even  though if anyone said to her did you SEE what some chap rote about the dogs and their designer coats i'm quite sure she would forget our series of great chats about her totally unique doggie -naturally oddcoloured-  that she herself says is a bit of an old retard ....

..and i couldnt spell 'iff' until about 15 years ago ]  kindof got in Atomise  e acute it has SOME acuted words but not all....

anyway look i tried its such a fag to try and repostion resize ..

ohh yes i forgot my sequitur..

THE great con..FAirtrade - it pushed into The MArches 20ish years ago where everything was a con especially that that came from Totnes - define con, within a few years it is no more and they dont even admit that!

think of the money used to print the above leaflets even if all 'eco' people merely became either wanting Charles Eisensteins youtubeish clicks; or his chix are groomed down the line to be grant applicators for "essential furtherence of our lovely plenishy message and 'connect' with as many lovely fellow humans as we can" when there is no 'fair' traded every shop in the SW is daylight robbery if you arent middle class and owning mummy's L'Oreals... and since when have the four or five major supermarkets been fair or celebrated by ANY 'green' org...

sop is too kind a word 

so ..

funtime real energy

soon

ohh yes i do have a some years long collection errata 10 years or more

it mattered

whats so interesting is this vuuduu that did start in The Uk even if they never credit California where of course Mister Manson's gang only got arsey as their industrial vuuduu sales figures were rather down that month  ...started it all 

i really would have thought Israeli women were somehow more down to earth but its infact actually compulsory to be flogging  lovely midfulness things to take your mind off...

whats goin on down the road and their presentations really are something...

i enjoy looking at them certainly funnier than Ricky Gervaise or Stewart Lee..

But anyway i could have been anything iof i had wanted and tography is so common but as a yokel actual real shepherd not flogging fake fleeces feecing the tourists i had a photographers eye in my teens ...

nearly went to college to do it

biut events dear girl events thing is the REAL photo opportunities in the SW 

i mean real... photo journalising or social history

And a jolly good 

...well its not new 

REAL artsist of days gone very yore tried to say something with their art, real...

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Marriage_A-la-Mode_(Hogarth)

and Monsewer CArtier Bressers changed the world... by bringing real life to life ion countries where passion is to be 

(ohh if i die i must do FAbienne Jungman before i do.... the night it all...was revealed.... just why we needed THEM bloody foreigners - never mind what Nige steals from our 17 year olds.... being taught as only Les Grens can.....how to get straight to the point, ne pas absinthe required... nor any other drugs....  just round  on a dark rainy night just around the corner from there) 

Anyway i have hundreds... of super sunny lovely light daylight photos in fact thousands...

this one fair dinkum on  a genuinely pretty bit of THEIR famous PAth....

 

And ... infact one cannot prove but at least 50% of those wandering around it over a  year...looking into their stupid screen ... this one for many many minutes infact longer 

to me a sadder and more poignant picture than the famous gun to the head of the Vietnamese... having his brains blown out

same nett effetct

must find at least a few dozen soon

oh yes several weeks the NUtzi trust leave this proudly next to the sea...  they brag of looking after 

(better collage soon)

oh yes dfamnit wrong one i had shutter set to rapid must find the one with hiom looking at me as if he is being  tied up and kidnapped his face was classic..

" please...call PAlestine Red Crescent or SOMEone..." 

and loads of arty farties 

and ... 

but what truly thrills me is infact their words...

their baying

their barefacedness

hidden behind a knitted womb snuggle...

Huxley if he were here pondering his first rough draft of Brave New World  would get all unravelled over the actual real lived* version thats gone and beaten him to it...served out all and everywhere 

daily...

for free

if you pay attention that is..and think

no need even  to go to the library to get it out

*though there are a couple of extra dimensions viz the amount of time they will speak with you about DOing 'community' or eco saviour projects causes or cares...

and then never ever ever follow through or even answer the email they ASKED you to send ... which proves the modernday  soma worked, even better than the first edition

and jobs

the art of the JOB - when one is only surrounded by them neurotix

2022

all saved over a  decade very methodically

long known as Turnerworthy iof i can ever get some arty farty assistance that isnt addicted to crap little books where she can pretend she still is a child

now theres the merely instructive, and then the absurdist in that it's quite extraordinary the amount of performance naggists who nag about things going wrong at daddy's house amnd yet they never even get to cleaning out the gutters ...for years 

but JOBS like stealthy van life require true methodical forward planning especially in the wetter regions - every photon whether its a wave function 

or bit of stuff, of 'light' matters ...

and there's no point talking to anyone thats read the internet either or been anywhere near Glastonbury where nowadays all they ever speak of is " wow its all quantum waves"  when even the fairly ok top current expert will tell you nobody knows really anything though i do wish they wouldnt be so arsey about Naturalism vs theism 

naturalism the philosophical belief that everything arises from natural properties and causes, and supernatural or spiritual explanations are excluded or discounted.

as i know it's all unknowable.... there are 'coincidences' if one MAKES time and space to notice them but... who knows why its unknowable especially when every Southern would-be shamaniac tries to mine the ineffable for any excuse not to help with jobs that needf days and days of splendid trudgery... to get the wood drying perfectly for days before ap[plication of the only thing that will make it lasy, illegal creosote - where one has to think for onesself: if one uses the badstuff CAREFULLY not a drop spattered maybe thats best natural bang for buck over time as the crap stuff they sell to all the neurotic  women who must go and control the operation as they can never listen to careful discussion about not buying crappy constuff from the supermarket...are certainly wasting resources 

which is very very meditative too 

but back to the latest magic mushroom fuelled " wow its probable wave function ... but only if you peek does it become real.."  every single so called under 50 year old thinker now waffles...i stopped spending my spare cash on beer age 25 and started buying all the science books for a decade and nothing much has changed except all that '"wow its all a  quantum wave" is yet another excuse for never bothering to do real long hard slog work  of saving the wood from rotting later jobs will show in PAstyshaire  - centre of  shamaniac quantum waffle to have something to say at their awful gatherings of the rugged... just how bad it became whether into waves or quantumly entangled particles ...

never mind the FACT that anyone who understands humans and science will know that its all a fad.. what is known now will be different in a few decades ...nope .. no longer can any even take that one in as neuroticism sadly makes people too week to be ... sceptically on their own rotten fence

astonishing how daddy didnt dig out his own cdrainage ditches either over so many years of moaning ... about how nobody else is as good a builder as him

which is what drink does to anyone of course

anyway drunks are merely to be pitied especially when daughters cant keep them under control even age 65 ...and you just plod on yourself doing it your way

however when they are ALL so mean you have to take every little extra advantage of the 'space' and plugs ...

tbc

they can't 'listen' ("it wasnt done properly the last time i dont care how much of a lovely friendly lot  your former SOV mates were...  i'm here as they are sadly children..")

ahh yes their cheerleaders we shall return to one day

days and days of doin' it proper  to save THEM medium term cash, and all you ever get is " what y'er doin' ... thats takin a long time.." 

later

but why did the ONLY one great piece of art i bought end up me letting the artist down even if to the tune of only twenty quid..?

that matters!" 

another time soon

but also the true gloriousness of abundant splendid manifested loveliness of 2020

time to even fix all the very cheap pens

ahhhahhh....now 

no Southerner would get the following: if you live in VERY VERY rural 10% of the population density

people do generally know who each other person is ...and where the kids ARE..little ones

my old base nobody ever had to put up a sign saying you too you fat mad bitch

which is what it did say

2022

 as she knew... as she commuted back and forth to her 'care' job - ohh loads of mindfulness massages for her paid old friends too no doubt ....

still in her head as she forgets the two pretty younguns often slinking out into the shared space

and continued to ignore,  as future bits of film will show which sounds so mean and dull...

the audios around who she is chatting with yeomen friends...arent

ohh yes and a 'hero', too, just a year before....

And didn't we all know it ....