The psychology of simplest living, via my stories of many years truly simplest living. Real ones - not earnest or pious.
Ten years a landloper. Time to tell those tales, too.
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hmmm.... i need to know what she meant by " they are divided" ...i know it hurt her i could see by the non-direct drill, furrow ploughed brow .... have they ganged up against her ? ..of course viperly snakey as the great thing about The Source over Pastyshire is there they are so lost and druggie and mean they seek quite violent confrontation i mean even in quiet aside places i ONLY seek...nope anythin to be in your face
Here they are entirely cowardly...
mummy's L'Oreal shares plus a childhood at Beadales or whichever deathcamp the Ruperts go to so as to emulate THE worst vile man ever their Welsh god Howard Marks yet they havent got the guts to rip the insulation they cant live without out of their 150 grand adventure- mobile and pack it full of drugs and pay their OWN way ..and the price ...
so yes i do feel sorry for the ashen faced Colour Supplement women of this region and yes ok most actually did grow up unlike 99% of Former Sovs and evolve out of the absurd objectifying habit of makeup... so is ok really
but its obvious the Ruperts as being so cowardly ( seen in body language, only sauntering in cowboy hats n fancy pants under cctv ...)
really have not made any of them happy...
especially in any real bein a man-way....
its so obvious!
maybe they should use the false cheek reddener real evolved people grew out if decades ago...
anyway where was i...
2nd best atch.
here we come
region!
territory!
neither here or there
even if yestermorn out if boredom i applied to be a trustee ...there
.... i just still do hope she knew that the MODERN secular actually a-bit-'great'-britolin culture of the 70s into 80s defined it as less is more, 'secularly' meanin' nowt to do with sky faeries or cauldrons
( in fact a little researching certain words and changes the last few months really does show up how the dumbing downers of cheap photocopied academe that became 99% of ' hits' drowned everything else with such conformist centre ground and thus always failed thinking is all you have on your menu of nothing)
ascetic doesnt kean being neurotic Jap ( the wonderful Kaori of Japland revealed in 2021 in our many great chats how utterly cruel her peeps especially neighbours were if she even mentioned irradiated fish fingers in public when twas entirely acceptable neigh the height of their modernity to turn little schoolgirls into wanking material ... on every high st for every sad drunk older wanker Jap )
and 'minimalist', or so called jesus not wasting his ' daddy's ' garden' resources and demanding a jolly good stoning rather than such a waste of good firewood could have warmed up the cockles of someone not lost to that deathcult and indeed cross seeing all those showoff profligate woodwasting attention grabbers moaning a long death when a short sharp stoning would have been far more efficient and less wood wasteful ...
ascetic has no self pity or attention grabbing martyrdom innit
ascetic is knowing 99% of human stuff is unnecessary and wastes ones energy tending cleaning or stealing to get your fair "share" by even going to work for Monsanto in Youessay for thirty years at that
and not needing cauldrons or ' ceremony' you have time to look after habitat, protect it fight for it to remain
rather than live on the hamster wheel so as to afford the ever more fancier cauldron ...
it expensive van ...my my the compulsory 30 grand flash things round here.... ( thats just thr small ones)
bigjobs 100s of k
i wouldnt want one if you paid me...as what a dullest ever way to define yourself...
me i dont ' live' ' in' mine i always am in the conservatory upfront .in the light
and...ascetic means just the occasional treat...but only if earned and the planets align with the most hurtful and painful force of growing up: i shall waste a cupful of guel treating myself to best upper atch..
to at last read her....
humble pie
baby food for her own quite soon....
as only humility nourishes them fully... and a bit if self backwhipping as long as you mean it
And even if only one really any good... rfound 'n about
There is Art with a human face....and actual FEELING...
and gratitude a two way event and thing
who can look you in the eye...
worth every penny of his many millions
for real Art...
that makes you weep the good weepin'
and even earned the right to do his 'air same age as err...
as if he is still as alive and better than
he was at his well known seminal first edition
Feeling real stuff cant be painted on has to be painted IN
and i bet he would say, rather than sailin' on by...as if shes still in her big shitty city
.... "thanks for the expert oldschool paint product tip ... very graceful of you to think and care...."
My my what a funny place.
Even if that would be the height of scalin' the interface
Up n over their absurdest "divide"
ever spied
...if....
And i shall.
That's how top 'o Their shufflin World i am
(next in the sequence why The Corporations win...with their ALWAYS shoddy goods
even Anker...
rhymes with what a one of "them"
grown ups leave the receipt behind...
no matter what the Right Charlie did to their hot and cold bonkers
mind
I don't ever blame them.
There was always one simple solution )
But really next in the sequence
Inspired by the truly dire Pak who should go back to Enlightenment school
Even does a Phoebe on wirelss 4
Thinks it's big to be all "fucking"
Well she has an actual Big Sister..
earned the right to be in the ministerial motor
As there is gibbin' and then there's really really life-turning
on a dime
just one time
A two way Bridge agreed and
Pilger bought them together.....
As they both found their way to him apart
Fifteen years looking for that Bridge..
Never even close.
And then....
Now, of course one isn't allowed to tell pregnant women they dont even deserve to be so as they haven't a single hope of not repeatin' .. dad 'n alcosick mum
Nor young woman chucked down the mountain into their never ending swamp
and her rageful teenage car keyin' dirty little habit
(at least some stepdads got poetic justice, served by their actual victim - the best way)
Even if in a ten minute graceful lecture.
That could not POSSIBLY work...
It was impossible....
And even if the bare essentials already impossible to notice, i have saved her full reply three weeks now ... until when i feel even mountaintop of all than her Alpine sanctuary ..
And am ready to enjoy every single pause and word. Not Now... The future dawn. Earned...
Even wasting another hour once again stating in writing " have at least half of her great real literature collection for free...." And the usual so bad manners -can't people read? i find makeup quite vile. Just the smell of it wandering her stupid Track of conbooks is quite horrible. And i am not the only one whom realised what an offense it is... a fine womantoo... realised how right i was.
We smiled.
I do not understand - maybe it's the free springwater I am sure some Rupert steals to sell in fancy little Hidden Huts...?
But i doubt it.
I do know it's fait accompli - no so called Jordan Mate infact i am so positively news energy filled up withy abundance i will give him his é....while we're at it the Master of all the indigeonosity con (god Just as Hope Booth was thirty years earlier the queen of Red indian expensive books[first editions even at even more £ pow pow ] for S Ken richbabes ,... neither seller not customer clearly benefited from any campfire wisdom nor calming smoke of freshly foraged juniper branches wafting through the empty pioneering plains .. sunset or dawn as their pallor really did say they didnt get out much, in the daytime at any rate... as my my the my my these fat conartist blokes such as Martínare so behind the curve...just reeling in poor little lost former sovs who discovered the West wasn't quite as good as their telly told em - and that's the Serbian version which said t'was really a madhouse...
oops you see there you go you copy his stupid little acute 'i' out of wikki and he takes over the whole font until he gets stopped.. just as he did to her poor head
Anyway why do i feel so absurdly even better than ever for weeks... like 18 but only ever 18 except i know everything now i ever needed to know also...which is only conceivably possible well past 50...
And act as better than ever - i mean utra multi-tasking and even a full hermitcrab "reset" today...to even purer Oracle Girl pure...simplicity.
Film tomor....
And SO unhermitty i even went back and spoke with her...
God that's not really me. To be so absurdly calm in the face of the rudest woman ever met - even ruder than The Hay English rug one who previously held the record... (gosh there are such twintown parallels its daft)
who's drugs i saw last visit there mnerely to photoshoot and meet Olivia the Pole even if i knew she couldn't exist, werent working...
And tell her "i shall be putting in an order..".. and even more personally straight from the heart, even if lie, just for fun.. " and i hope my beloved child will be actually making the order for her beloved dad.." just to see her face... she did remember me... how curious.
But i feel only sorry for her. So drawn and clearly sleepless.... quite ill.
Funny that how despite being in their simply perfect "community" of artisanal farties ... and bad art (except for one) yet every other word on their posters is abundant clarity and fullsome flourishment(of course i have pics but they take so much more time to sort and sometimes bleep) , so many of them are drawn and really very ashen faced
(z** wasn't - maybe as she told the truth )
Which reminds me....
MAKE A NOTE
The ultimate bad tripa decade back to return to ones place of being raised by old man Ralph and driving up that road once again, for years every inch of the 6km knew as every inch the 13 year old had cycled up steepish hills puffing back and forth the local shittiest comp in the world...... three years
And of course a memory comes by as driving past Zoe's... as the real puffing was to catch up with her and her sister one and two years older than me as i saw them begin their 2km to my school or me to theirs in fact... down their drive, from my spying place from their perfect ye olde filmset of a Cider With Rosie farmstead... so i would happen to coincide with them as they joined the road in and.... always such a coincidence we would meet almost every day...
and simply life changed forever...
And rural folks even when they know they have their little 'fan'' whether unwanted or not... just to have spent one hay harvest the oldstyle way lugging small bales from Mister Henderson's with...
Zoe (extremely prim for a comp girl and farmgirl in fact as prim as they get on her situp and beg..) jeering from her big rick how puny i was...
In that one long hot summer that year or the one after i met them and had nothing to say of course shaking with paralysis as only 13 year olds in the presence of a pure countrygirl goddess can ... when
You just had to be there.
And not even thought of for many a year... but passing ...there she is at the end of her drive....
So of course one gets invited to supper...
I mean... fourty years was it?!... ten years ago.... nope i'm not that old but 30 quite a few..
Single... no children... even rich- the old farm hers (and by then to my shock the gentrifiers had even got to The Vale of Clwyd so worth a bomb)...and no Mister Farmer to be her Gabriel Oak ..i mean is this a dream...
...And we have to spend half the evening her arguing whether fucking Monsanto, her employer - highup scientist, too.... had maybe not saved the world, nature, and all of humanity... as she could only preach
Life cannot be as perverse as that. Nor sick.
forget her even if i can't forget *** ...why do i feel so simply every second was worth it... (especially seeing SO many shuffle around these towns like the weight of the whole ridiculous 7th day temple on their backs...and such pained expressions)
...maybe afterall in the second year of our Lord '21, did in fact meet her...
my my we spoke so much....
and she alone said " the greatest guru i am addicted to is the Indian topdog who said fuck it all its all a load of bollocks i am hiding in my cave and gave nothing to say" ..
Maria ultimate conwoman.. i liked... daw through on day one of many of my first ever whatsappery just bored and curious
Fluent in the uktra con bullshit and seven languages too....
and my favourite peeps of all...
A Romanian
with a fancy coiture handbag crammed with false passports ....
on splendid highrate Frog disability benefits, too
.... so who blocked whom? i cant recall theyyre so predictable ...and there's always a way around that little hurdle ... someone schooled me in....
so all i know is i had no idea how perfect it could be to be nowhere as certainly for 100% certain one wishes to be in none of their Sourcetowns...
(even if i would like to help her get un"divided"... attention)
So what you do is, as The Toppermost Ends of The Earth
is in fact not a Sourcetown - its merely a watering stop for the endless lost shopaholics
And my my just spending half an hour in the twilight hurts
Dumpsville really quite windy and rude-bus strewn lanes to get there from anywhere
You see them parading at 5pmish nowhere to go but streetwalk in things designed for S Ken High st..
Truly is a 'grotesque'.
And Divinest Comedy..
BUt there you go, got the facelift, got the designer 'throw'
got the designer doggie...
generally you end up nobody to walk the catwalk with
But the Lower Sourcetown the real one...
Now, i report only fact. And most folk dont like that in theme parks.
And they especially dont like to hear "my my you settled in the most boring place i have ever had the Miss Fortune to inhabit on the planet. And ive inhabited a whole range of places many REAL rural too.. ...and even spent enough time in your Doppelganger S Ken.."
So generally one just smiles like a spastic reading De Botton and scratching your head wondering if he 'lives' all his very subtly bossy 'lived' philosophy ?
And even more smiley sharing the latest bad book with some potential girlfriend who laps it up as thats ALL they do.. this is their thing: anything but here. I had no idea really how the Towny simply only exists on this 'thing' thing especially when they colonise places with nothing..
All is only their 'thing' be it silly Buddhist hats or silly sheepskin half jackets ..or ...all of it is 100% cliche the word i rarely write as its not worth the effort copying and pasting in an acute e from some webpage as this cute old thing wont speak other lingos...
and i care about literacy as its all i have..
apart from a fab arse from so much walking as has been confirmed in writing many a time the last year and even is in the annals of film for posteriority...
but back and forth copying and pasting in an acute 'e' is too much
And anyway the definition of philosophy
pootime thistermorn came to me
as a younger middle age man i would think
copyright me
life..its about realising many of the official cliches actually are largely true
But then especially when you are the luckiest person alive to have survived the true fires of Herculese or whatever (all is in the last little substack on Ralph the next 10 years, the full, unbowdlerised version..oops one even more final best fun ever stab in the back to come soon....)
and also survived not that lonely very often an even duller ditchwater decade especially dull around her
shitfilled ditch
i mean i had to laugh ..
almost the same colour
But a GREAT writer and even greater film director and proof we're all racist Jew haters as Yentil way better than Brucie's rather dour Killin' ...
even if equally as gorgeous noses.... even if variants
of ANYthing but stuck up lill' English ones
And even more genius for laughin' at her own Miss Interpretation of the law and..the line
The "Streisand legal fight" refers to Barbra Streisand's 2003 lawsuit against a photographer, Kenneth Adelman, for including an aerial photograph of her Malibu home on his website. The lawsuit is famous because her attempt to suppress the photo backfired, leading to the "Streisand effect," where attempts to hide information inadvertently draw more attention to it. The lawsuit was dismissed, Streisand had to pay legal fees, and the photo received hundreds of thousands of views that would have otherwise been missed.
misses as AI is so thick its daft the best second act... she realised she had been such a moody twat....was indeed wrong...]
so opened up all her Fakebook photos of err backgarden for ALL to see....nicer pix... taken with her own hand
beware i know my Streisand effect too.... and exactly where the 'line' is
Anyway ... a silly lost one doesnt know THE job means even if caught being silly... not here of course
And a workman blocks out maybe even a week for a job even at 'mates rates' - having figured some amortisation of mutual benefit as i dont fuck the benefit system OR rip off tourists..
But then...nope... i wished indeed to stay one hundred percent pure
so the last gibbin (as when 'booked' one doesnt look for other work of course ... none of em seem to ever know... the definition of their 'narcissism' every other word they accuse...)
Indeed i am more than happy for as what a wonderful week just figuring the truth of the territory ramblin meanderin and lopein...
And meetin one i like.. even if ...ed
They never come back.
That is called 'justice' but does need to be rit more Saint Exuppryish one day...soon
And as i can turn on VERY shortlived battery little lappiedog and no plan to write anything and just head down and splurge on autopilot cold fingers and remember loops unfinished, missed bits and everything and even the faeries 'elp 'casionally...
i shall get there one day
But you silly Wattses or even Exuperries... (overrated - his flying the Andes book as i have been in that same lonely position knowing that funny noise coming from the engine means you will die alone nobody cares or will even find your body... is in fact rather confected indeed it is the slow burn of lonely death thats far more subtly poetical )
But all that matters is " wanna know how awful this region is but i am so happy as i stumbled across the real source.... "
And in fact make IT - nowhere else, the centre of stealthy vanlife.. the Worst of ALL Places
The Uttermost Hell hole...
" so there i was... looking for the laundrette i had been told of - just like the silly man 3 years ago came along in his van ohh my the yoof ' hey know any good little villages in Pastyland to just park around nice scenery quiet roads and just a few chilled peeps..?'
And THE information as rural person or reluctant vehicle owner is all that matters... they no longer know even the vanblokes
" ehh there's this real cool little place dead quiet and just a few chilled peeps nearby... Gweek"
Jesus would have wept
Six moonths on following his tri[padvisor..
how...ever
I had no idea where to find ..it
The orrid thing that sadly defines
as if cliche
oh yes cliches more important though i have forgotten my first version twill come back..
adult middle age: no you then see through the cliches as being UNtrue... but only a few trips to hell-n-back tunes up your xray vision...
just simple
fact
And only one did indeed add that lovely extra phase to my life...so
My "gratitude" is indeed only "abundant"
And real
(unlike their wording by default, of something they have never learned to..LIVE as you dont ever 'learn' anything... you merely get stabbed in the heart.... thats life. And if the little drops of blood as you retreat seem to patternate any next step its mad of course until you know in fact it was the uncliched best of all possible many worlds...)
So... live, mainly now, in the very very worst REAL Source..
ohh yes i do tell tales sometimes:
I was wandering around that one and saw a sign.. above a PUBLIC space .. about shoes and workshops...
In a public place
And i wandered in bit of a loose end and was sim-pl so immediately complimentary
" god forty years i have had it on my todo list find a place that handmakes sandals being even then they were so badly made a REAL walker walking in only hers all Pathy summer will find they dont last... ...and me i find at LAST you...when its too late no point me too old all the babes run a mile .... or apparently to the other side of the planet... here you are.... wow.."
and a few minutes later in a PUBLIC place having nice chats with WORKSHOP attendees one even from my last safe stomping ground Knighton - a human connection of sorts..
As she heard...
" i am so in admiration of you... do you mind if i stand here quietly for five minutes and just quietly watch you....all...in the promulgated public space you wish us to watch you in... or buy things "
You really do know when you've found the real source ... of the rudest people ever to have been extant
" i would rather it's only two.."
with such a pixie smile and pixie costume and the pixie look they all harvest ..in public....
This REAL Source, the worst of them all..(Uppermost being mere fake even as a rural getaway and silly ) ..will be main winter basecamp
Because NO HOPE whatsoever of ever meeting anyone just ok and a bit philosop0hical not only is the answer to loneliness...
But you also see something more interesting:
Just how FAUX-lonely at the Uppermosts faux place pretend...
All the 'friend friend gossip gossip' just masks the total loneliness seen and lived there...
I have never seen such a sadly lonely place
BUt the other remedy to the true deep loneliness that has you at times walking along the cliff edges for months thinking: it's rational...to...
is to know that the hurt of real lonely lonely the deep deep void that you know can only be filled up by jumping into one is in fact authentic real...
Is SOMEthing..a real 'emotion' or state of being..
when those who flock to The Source or their slightly poorer cousin down Pastyshire... despite their 3000 FAkebook friends or fancy Queen of the workshops... are just as lonely
BUT
All their busy beeing all the Farmers marketing or Fleemark fleecing ... and PR... distracts from the REAL feeling of it... that deep ache that you feel you will die of....
And as the saying goes; if you have nothing to die for [or of] then you are a real; zombie just like them.... and we all know zombieism cannot be .. cured
even by homeopathy
The fully lonely so that their guts ache are FAR better off than this lot.. they are alive even if every second hurts at least its a real human emotion or state......someone needs to tell them!
but i cannot SEO or waste time on which silly hashtag all she seemed to do all day... hashtags are sadly ( a beyond-cliche fact) only for those who dont actually believe in their own words, alone..are worth reading
well that may be true but that's the prob the so narrow understandin' of original greatest ever arthouse...was in fact lead by an Iti babe ...
And in the land where they have a preference for watchin' it up the bum (which surely must be smellier than my humble moments at the poopan anyone ever even thought of that deviation is as dodgy as ...well another day..oh yes Phoebe Waller Bridge who thinks its clever to write in her awful scripts 10 instances of "anal sex" and even get to say it on the BBC in her awful priest-addicted crap Fleabag not very ehh .. woman in charge when a man of the frock really is who it's all about if you ask me ) its not surprising that i can't find her so overwhelmed by the less good so called directors...
and to prove just how stupid the interweb is i couldnt even remember which one i took the trouble to no-battery go and copyright fief...
for 16 pathetic views...
not that i bother hashtaggin or search optimising owt.. thats for cheats
As long as you don't go and get stuck in the doom loop of Alan Watts' material - it being so interesting how a certain kind of person has turned him into a refound God.. just as Alan blessim wanted, when he was alive, then, i do hope there is some eternal "divine" to use his fave grooming word, purgatory, as English blokes from London putting on kaftans in the 70s (just like the gunrunner sweet heroic figure of Mister Marchant's book.... dont worry I am soon to Mrs Winn's rescue as she is a mere Janie come lately to the big con he did on everyone - even if it was purest comedy all summer ruining their walking holidays which never are as they are SO intense measuring their 'steps' and their incessant schedule... which is not walking, only landlopeing is... . )
yes the Wattses i saw so early on loitering around the quite good De Bonno bookshelves even in the 80s - at least he asked one to think for oneself, them thinking: how do we get his kind of Messiahship? and.. the girls...
So basically every lined old hag who once had a market stall in S Ken selling very rip off old vintage things goes and rediscovers a corpse... in his kaftans or other Messianic robes telling them all dont worry you dont live in time or even a time when you can't afford the facelift as you werent vicious enough to go and get the Monsanto job, too...
(like... the best laugh on me, Zoe, soon...)
And he gets a 100k clicks each load of nonsense put up from way beyond his grave...
about how you never ever have to care or do anything except bask in Alan's rather maniacal smile .. the whole gig, to shag S Ken Marketeers..
shame i hope there is an afterlife so he can see just how many he could now be a shaggin... had he not gone and died too early
(how hilarious ive never looked him up he died in 'druid heights' hahh hahh... a note to me to remember to uncloak that page soon... and how young he died, of being himself... a lined and rather unhealthy silly man... but so many 'disciples' nowadays its daft...you couldnt make it up...half of them of course live in the SW )
Which is the actual 'history' of the faux 'counterculture' in the only region i am interested in - Marchant monetised (only recently this is not ancient history, this explains all of her Hatesville, too which merely is a 'symptom' of the poison spread from elsewhere.. basically Wattses pad... via whatsisname Lord thingumy 9 wives..ohh yes Longleat Jeremy ... yet another user of women ) , as there was a real one too... where nobody ever was used nor disrespected for attempting to think....
Anyway lets try not to butterfly about even if that's the only language they all understand as of course it avoids ever ever following through with any cause - the ones they put on their dull FAkebooks for 15 years...
Philosophy hurts if one tries to ponder it fully... as does 'loneliness'.
And there's the rub. Solutions are needed to rub upon that hurt... none ever provide. So i shall, soon...
As the real unbowdlerised version of this load of codswallop is far more interesting- even i have had to take time to let it settle and enjoy it...
Anyway all they ever do is complain except about what one should complain about such as in VERY narrow windy lanes in this pestilent dump even the busdrivers don't know despite being flashed repeatedly in a " look i am turning off MY mainbeams you could too if you knew about real rural driving like we've known about for a century since motors became a thing" that when its raining in dark windy lanes well before thisterdawn, and the smaller fry must reverse .. the larger fry should turn off main beam - sidelights only so the small one can see in his wingmirrors the verges... he may crash into ..
their complaints their mind-body...
And the real complaints about the richer one up the road with flashier more green numberplated South Eastern cash paid motor.. they never mutter out loud
But for now... (new final solution to the socket problem... i hope the 'time bank' one is reading this and thinks she mattered, as my ohh my how wonderful to have had yet another gibber around as fake friend who couldnt get over herself as they all read the wrong crap.... which should merely say merely 'mean what you say' and shake hands on even if you are such a sad manhater that ...well they all nag... its like they think they are unique with their absolute inability to man-manage somebody who they need, as they didnt learn to do stuff any old idiot can learn: what products are a con - basically anything sold to the 'retail' 'diy customer, and what is real woodwork... as real country folk have known for 50 years... Ralph taught me so well, even back then: "beware all boxes that have to tell you what goodies are inside."
Anyway all that matters in the happiest place I have ever existed in this very sad Aisle ...
Is i was wrong: quarter of a decade ago ... thinking. " wow this is great but a bit tough... my new region having to hide as my ohh my her wrath.... so lets have a territory... 10km away for water.. 5km the other way if popping to free bread for poo pan emptying and washing.... 5km down to the junky filled coast of Pothleven - so says the born 'n bred lass only became a junky in her 40s.... " cheaper and easier to get coke here than a drinkable beer.." not my words hers...
for my washing line... and the first nose at the path to paradise of Europeans... even if even they in a hurry and may only loiter a day...
But i thought territorial integrity
by necessary dint of Hatesville insanity
was tiring, even if then i realised wow it expands the mind for real...
But that was then
Now its second nature and is so wonderful it's daft
But what of that recent gibber...
(the definition being the JOB gets done no matter what their feelings... and anyway its almost default almost every woman you meet cheating the state.. the first thing they state is always " i woz abused..." and if you had a brother who was the most abused person on the planet by his aupair and even moreso being carted off and shoved under under Yoko's wing fuck me you understand how they all make stuff up... as they cant look at their reflection
wow fuck me...Sebastian..hiding
now there's a much better quality recording of a genius who could actually write real songs and sing as the greatest bird above all ever almost..... real ones never mind sing propper like a real singer with real heart...
but what a syncredent is that as tis iz time in the sunshine....soon
.... even if every absurd Anglo-yank vantuber cant talk about happiness being always every morning without fail at 0530 pulling your trousers down youve had on in bed ... great thing about winter is nature provides a privacy curtain from about sept of a mister windscreen... squat on drivers seat with a pan under bumhole and ones constitution is always perfect as is ones aim...THE one thing only that matters is the one small "leftover" bit, as a far better communicator than me the perfect communicator, once, age 7ish once said to me " dad the look at my leftovers they make such an interesting shape on the toilet paper"
i mean where did she get that word from true proof of god bin the real ' nature ' of life in fact The Sublime...
if you move the pan too quickly one drop of leftover ends up on the seat . but you hear it ....so can wipe thattoo otherwise talk about simplest quiet operation.... every 4 or 5 days go into a field empty it...
and the repaired lid is perfect for amazingly despite a loose fit not emanating any smells I'm aware of...
in fact none if them can talk about their piss n poo its quite extraordinarily american...
whom 30 years ago in their universities ONLY coined the made up term ' gender' because the middle aged women professors even of biology couldnt utter the word ,' sex' in public ..this is a fact.
but there is one even better mindfulness course taboo to crack..... share the pan
in a silly society the 100k click tubers never even refer to their poo... quite extraordinary when thats ALL the casual observer ever thinks of
anyway the even bigger taboo. loneliness.
2 years ago nearly i made a 5 min video waffle i think is good... for the younger viewer who are definitely lost to it...as my first mentoree .. seni adopted younger man the wonderful Kyle told me 2010....
and real loneliness hurts...
but thistermorn just when yesteraft i know theres NOTHING more to cover .. nothing done all and even a lovely humble walker in her lovely humble tatty backpack and scuffed humble boots
i know one only encounters the nice safe ones, as torture sent from the faeries to make you lonely for the just one sane one left .. the one last ...saudade.... was ger laughter real that dont natter her countenance was fine .... ( saudade the greatest compliment possible in any language ....and i know a bit of many of them.. in her case nope you cant " just maybe get it back ..[ that true authentically GOOD thing lost]" as is the true version a portuguese will tell you face to face that isnt on...line ...5.)
anyway ... pootime... and in fact prepoo time hmmm actually i have at last unwanted a truly wise Hesse type insight on loneliness .. that in fact may help !!.
in the epoch where suicide is increasing the last few years .. saving every single younger English from their toxically mad parents and even worse the unchildBORNE sexless unswayinghipswayers who colonised ' educating' them for cash, only and as its cleaner than cleanin the local bogs for cash...especially in thisterregion
( the one wise SisterBabs saying " ohh god yet another childless woman... being a manic wreckingball [dripping battery acid from trying to ruin even my day and missing her actual target] ..... " and that is in the ultra shamanic nice ecogoddess, Roseland.... i didnt say that)
anyway i got the better version on loneliness that cleverly by reverse psych may actually work ..
and real lonesomeness is merely the bastard of just the tinniest little underclass phone to fingerjab now in the morning until i can charge lapper up of my time literally several hrs a day charging it very old .... doesnt hold overnight ..
and the end of loneliness means bot caring that even the one who you wrote down your url for .. safely in London ... meaning one doesnt want to be thought writing opinions at Their Source... theyre viscious ..
anyway the one you may like to have as browser your fingerjab writing is so awful she'll runaway from thistoo...
SO Western remote Horrorfordshire and East Powys they litter the byways with dropped workgloves they are so uncentred and bless em out of their 'comfort zone' even if spent all mummy's Monsanto shares on their humble little palace he's pretending he wants to type a personality dominate and do up.... as avoidance strategy - doubtless her catalogue habit... be it the latest papoose or labour saving tool thats crap as if had been labour saving some fine oldschool chap would have invented it fifty years ago...
But here the left behind by the neurotic busy bees is of course so much more befitting of the Monsanto/L'Oreal share certificates exchanged for their life in the... (i have no idea what )
never mind the biggest conjob of all can afford heating
oops that's important ...gosh i wouldnt direct ANYone even ones worse enemy to her wikki
Righty ho so someone said they are "divided" not me i couldnt give a toss about a load of misery gutses in expensive Supplementary lifestyle attire...except, why..?
And i know why.
More important if it's all so divided - and i trust the one who says a negative sounding 'truth' rather than the endless other side whom as one say " ohh my we live in SUCH a functional lovely community.." yea pull the other one... never mind adults who are honest even if maudlin on her meander ...are interesting. Children have their place: it called childhood.
Anyway 'why' only for her even if too late for us... AS it's quite standard. I am thick. Totally uneducated.... and learned to even see through myself in hindsight; ten times more self contained and assured than, them... from very young: It dont work...
But inspired, damn the bleeping...why bother, at least one person i do trust speaks the truth
free substack audio following the above
No we are not "divided". part 1 of 2. 16 nov unbleeped
...and wandering today with more guest appearances
Ralph, the next decade will be.... even more fun than the last. (and more on "divides" inspired by Z** though that's the thing: why? your Nigel, Boris and especially YOUR brexit)
the above: Tripadvisor (i have never looked at but assume as everything else was taken over by ignorant bimbos) advisory: the above may well be long but i know it's 5 star and far more importantly as my mean little "community" in perfect Hatesville-Gweek lingo where theyll say that word like chatbots on drugs all other circuits friewd except "community" on loop, to get ANYold fool to pay up for some scheme or vomit session.... (and insert any little 'destination' place recommended by The Guardian, even the Torygraph got on the Presteigne rusty bandwagon, instead if hard drugs in front of the kids aint your thing, quite.... yet....) .. yes tripadvisor info: as everyone is suffering this non existent malaise everywhere it seems, except me i would advise it all 5ish hrs plus today another 3 nearly as great vaccination against further ruining the only trip there is, this life now.... and all for free yipee
a few bits more to add in to this later one day i always remember i "care" as she said....
more the fool me
except i shall live longer as its the key to it all....
( i do hope she looked at landlope.com ... only as she said its " divided" here and i love truth even if ' twas also a reminder of two long waffles in the system on precisely this Miss Nomer... never mind any misery anyone has if they can beat my hilltop waffle this afternoon i would like to know ... especially her troubles....Z** . i have none except winter one has to be so self disciplined - habit! ... the one spoon in my whole life lives THERE...always..no excuses even that the first pack of new rechargeable AAA batteries purch for a decade are... broken... don't work . so even light must be carefully rationed with discipline and habit...)
Anyway ehh...
ohh and help from the faeries!
( she doesnt believe in her own ' faith' or should i say any smallest variation....sadly thats called zealotry or even fundamentalism or in reality just bigotry... not her fault most 3rd world countries still require you to sky faery just to find a hubby... or job.... especially a better payrate if you can walk all the way up Africa to bullshit your way into some 7th day job here....fact, even Z knows its a bit more complex than " I am Browne....and thus an innocent victim" and all dedadded lassies got an " issue" life experience tells ..for life,too... so chiming on that was rather amazing)
ok maybe i can do, inspired by just one who stopped and lingered before rushing back to a bun in the oven . ...
i waffled for her THE prob ...
why they are all so unhappy and issues riddled... and why you have Nige, Bozo and you deserve your Starmer. ohh and WHY you have your bexit ( bugger off if you ever even thought of ticking that box or stay and listen to the true damage you did ..and troll your worst comments you can imagine onto tube comments, she knows, Ms Bunny.. i have better things to do than ever waste one second reading one dumb word
( so so interesting yestereve all the inhabitants of richer 2nd homes In The SW gathered for comment on her report ... these are the women who really have colonised the Totty type environs... the number said " well i havent actually read her ladyships report but.. its dead right on this really bad on this that and that"
a bit like your judges and journos .. sneak peeview: they SO hate the lanyard Affected bossy crap that all their dinner table best mates from cheltenham days stull dinner mates to this day, write to boss you all they are even prepared to sound so ridiculous saying aint read it then critique it on top of the evening report on the biggest waste if cash ever corvid report ..at some length too
their contempt for each other is as bad as tis for you... why they roam so do lonely and alone ..
here...
in droves... of lonely bossocracy ... i actually feel sorry for them
anyway ohh yes Transition towny vid was yo he entirled ... transition townies golden-rained on your parade and greenwashed it all away
but i forgot..though i am moat of the day mentally writing next bits most get. filed under do tomorrow at dawn.. but really forgot it from yesterwalk .. .. til was reminded by faeries today... that doesn't usually happen i admit i am impressed if theyre actually on side...
but i dont need anyone especially pathetic pink things with butterfly wings which is THE prob ..
oops no excuse ever for the wrong English word even if the high Ministresses offend every day
socket.
SO yes... (this is not ancient history, soon we shall get to the 'now' version except its impossible any individual worth mentioning can be met here so that's the definition of her "centeredness" : ignoring everyone else except there are some tales to tell.... one being how extraordinary that the men of the job are gibbertoo up here... I didn't think it was that bad...)
Anyway 2006ish maybe 7 (i have perfect records but it takes socket-to-em time to dig them out especially the really groovy ones which are the only main reason i started to take many a photo: to make finding the chronicle reference in audio, easier...
For some years they've been warbling about the Alan Lomax Archive - you have to pay to get into...
I know for a fact, no hubris involved that maybe even this epoch mine will be dipped into for real reasons of what's the truth of the past...
unless made up stories about singers from the past continue to dominate the pea brained who can't deal with the real now...
Now.... it is truly awful that The Observer picked sexistly on Raynor Winn, not only rather than MRs AND Mister, when an even more truly made up confected rather evil book proceeded.... by Mister.... someone else.
Paid for by your BBC license fee.
FAR more fantasy of the nice people of the hinterlands...
And anybody else, being it is clearly for 15 or more years been the national speciality, would have sued them/him for a real hate-crime.
And there were Witnesses....
"ohh hi its the self pitying death cult...streetcorner scrounging for the ten percent of any converts... "
My friends.
W would from the first meeting autumn 2014, belly laugh.... " ehh ...Matt is it now.... so that huge gas-guzzlin' yankee pickup parked next to your bible studies trestle table..... at our show... have you read page 2 of your so called good book about the 'garden' being godgiven NOT to abuse or pollute... ehhhh... can you justify it then?..as i believe your 'him' whom must be obeyed can get rather slap happy if you disobey...him... while were at it 2000 years of a bloke being in charge please if a woman gets her turn maybe some of this febrile gender stuff will evaporate furthermore only a woman boss lanyardist could have such a vicious sense of humour the way she plays big divine chessgames with us all.... [ interestingly the original pre Source woman on the hill yesteraft said so regarding ferrets without knowin' owt about em ' i bet the girls bear grudges for life, and the boys eventually get a life... just like when it comes to my favourite "rescue" animal.censored i identify nobody and as every animal in their whole SW is "rescued" - always in the first line of hello I am... my my thats a LOT of animal abuse out there somehwre....] ' .. "
Anyway the poor flies on Tranny town walls..
2007ish Di Geaves (Amy's mum) and her bloke FINEST warriors... and maybe did have a point in The Total Wasteland of Llandrindod Wells.. even those who couldn't afford HAy or Presteigne wouldnt dream of buying there 'i live by HAy..' 30km away - dangerous fulol of sad probation hostel lads and loadsa drugs and GUNS ...yes.. real ones - handguns used to get 'respect' as the local authority stole their dad, so...... .. " the local authority and local bigman [how Wales is run, still] so hate anything Green maybe this new fangled name will befuddle their peasized ones and..."
wonderful couple. NO scintilla of critique... getting some 'awareness' and a nice clubclique for them too into the bargain...
BUt not too exclusive as they knew there are only about 10 peeps for 20 km who would come to a bargain jumble fundraiser sale if they knew what Transition Town stood for...
Anyway her aside, my ohh my as things changed maybe 5 ...seven years ago i bet he Mr Hopkins "educator" of Totty Town except i wouldnt even touch one if paidto... his 'word' having been rather repurposed, god i bet his pee went as red with envy as she/she would be is she/she knew how happy i was... never4 mind 100% always focused never ever maudlin or ...
Except justabitago... there i am meandering to charge up and i have the whole next segment bouncing around in my head, nothing could distract from it...
Until popping my nose in to some local freespace maybe a quick usage of hers...
And top ... not in hushed tone but TOP of their voices its ALL about the various "wives swapping"...
wombs... a (SO SO CONTROLLED for eyecolour and size of nose .. their words... ) game of womb swapping... between girlfriends and wives..
i didn't have the heart to say get a prenup, the facts are homobloke marriages last 7 years.. hetro a lot longer.. girl on girl SIX....
wow i overstated as i give the benefit of the doubt according to Oggle
The average length of a marriage before divorce varies by location, but recent data from England and Wales indicates the median duration is around 12.3 years for opposite-sex couples and 5.9 years for same-sex male couples, and 5.1 years for same-sex female couples. However, the average le
Their business, even if the lawyers will get even richer..
BUt it is almost as if its a business model for MY generation especially thisterregion to foghorn top of their voices about something that quietly when no customers are listening they really HATE as affront to their purpose on this planet.... as they all knew .. to accommodate and find a useful mean with the provider of the semen... never mind the sceince saying that only a human inseminator will often though not so in uk... tend to the produce thick or thin no matter what...forever..
Funny old world bragging about "catalogue" dads...
especially in the region they all came to to stick pics on their FAkebook saying how they loved being "close to nature and a natural way of being"
Anyway forget here here doesn't exist as clearly i dont either when i cannot even endear myself to a German infected by their Totty memes too...
despite tellin' her I am Herman..
or his fabulous brown creation
(note to self Sid had his being nothing at the river..i so so trump that that fine summer of 24... there is one job lower than even the untouchables of his classist people wont do.... )
Anyway fat men and their lying books.
Now there is nothing better than a decade ago realising that even she (under the influence of the most evil YAnk of them all who got a pill-free young woman onto the pills she was taking...behind my back...and 3 months later she is of course full on in the whacky ward, little green men inclusive..)may make up falsies...protect onesself!
though i would have loved to hear her rendition at their piano of her fave song...she told me she blasted out even more top of voice than ever....gotta be this version though...when crowds knew quality rather than virtue signals...
So y6es a big fat man
(i loved) i shall not have time to get to the punch line...
Witnesses i loved ( uhhh MAtt i only talkk to you lot for HOURS on end as we all make each other LAUGH belly laugh big fat ones...you attacking me so barbarian like.. even your wifey she chimes in.... our many hour long streetcorner duels to the death over your metaphysical madness vs mine... as i always say if one even slightly cracks a joke at the 'New Age' or rather self obsessed narcissists even if i disagree with that word... they will never talk to you again cross the road if they see your shadow ok you lot cant run away as you are on pimp duty but ... we laugh.. we fight....we are 'god' if you must the only definition i know of..harmony no matter what we believe or you lie about believing ...cos it got you such a super sexy wifey and we know English and America blokes like to have control and as they cant do so with their dick or real love they make up other confines... like your death cult "
Anyway a6t least 5 years of recorded duels me and them.... as they were also aware UK world centre of false allegations (it having affected him) i told them after a time... " one day i shall publish them as they are wonderful... we are equal in our insults and clever quips... in fact as you know i know your scripture better than you or your smartphone as i remember the actual stories you have to look on it just to know what Mammon is for gods sake..."
of no real interest until...
He starts to release bits of his book....
The @History' of the 'counterculture' based ona man who
when the book was published almost screamed at me "the cunt has lied about me made up stories"
which merely shows how trhe so called ultimate zen hippy man didnt know what zen is: you know your5 story all else is irrelevant
But as the interviews occasionally continued, at Coop... on his substantial disability pension for not being disabled...
one day the truth came out (actually at the cash register) " well you know me ....well you dont.. and his lying book certainly didn't either.... the real me actually is obsessed with ONLY one thing...always have been always will be...guns.."
whicjh is less interesting.
What is interesting was to hear a few months earlier a Radio 4 program - a big propper expensive one, much heralded, on how ALL the local artisans making sheepskin jackets for the 'community' etc etc were so loving and lovely...his buddies...
And quite randomly over the following few weeks i was in cafes or even just shopping in COOP when if memory serves three of the four main lovely smiley artisanly participants in this program about " ohh we have SUCH a unique lovely community" slagged off one of the others quite rudely and quite aggressively in range of my protection/chronicling device...
(" ohh my what a true Alan Lomaxis archive gift.. who knows maybe one day i shall have time to reveal the truth. bingo!.")
BUt then that day... harassing the Witnesses who harassed me every time they saw me walking quietly by
(now there is a MOMENT in pretentious little rural towns the Colour Supplement brigade found...yes thats the REAL thing it went into audio recently i had no idea.. from around 2005 i would l;ook through The Guardian colour supplement or Observer (only if free copy avail in Shepherds to borrow) and i just didnt GET IT.. these absurd rip off prices, these absurd Narnia cartoon lifestyle looks on sale at absurd prices...i do not understand how the retailer can even afford The Guardian advert likely expensive... nobody is QUITE so cartoonish cheesy and ridiculous to prance around with that patinated rural chic 'look' surely...i dont get the economics... i mean even here Sophie Bruce's rather lost moneydigger of a Chelsea Chic only wears that silly costume we all see through, occasionally ..
when not dressed as Cruella Deville at the head of the hunt (Boxing day 2010 i believe best photos archive soon) and you can see she MEANS that costume... all several thousand quid's worth plus the 50 grand nag...
Until.....
hahh hahh now i know i was right, they would have had to sell bucket loads or very very big whicker basket loads of that absurdist and absurdly expensive 'lifestyle' fayre... to pay for the ads.
And they did... here...
Anywya of no i8nterest all i am interested in as being seen as the purest person ever.
ANYone..i mean everyone..i mean every single English....would have complained in public, demanded a public apology...and sued for considerable damages (all they actually ever want)
quite justifiaqbly too
At what the m,an i not only loved a bit but also had a year earlier spent a lot of time thinking " how can i get him to come walking with me my 50km a week around Herrock...he is going to die of that fat... and he did have something once to share... just once")
wanders past waddles past (his skinny wife must take SOME responsibility surely).. there we are in MID hilarious belly-laffin duel to the death... (MAtt protected by serious senior ex copper wifey 7 years this battle ongoiin took me about 2 to get her smiling too)
And top of his lying fat face in a VERY public "promenading" place on a rare sunny winters farmers market day
" YOU... [ patinated Eastend] YOOOO... ferkin ...CUNT.... these poor poor poor people came out of the wilderness crossed dead sees got genocided in assyria or ashniazee or whatever and YOU just perpetuate their tyranny and torture now you FUCKING POREJUDICED CUNT YOU SHOUD BE....."
I mean VERY loudly...
Now...evemn mad godsquads sometimes have a memory, such as i always wone the rounds of "at least i DID good works on this earth ..now ...including all that family counselling of your mad lost sister MAtt you couldnt be bothered to....inspite of my soul not givin a shit....and you lot obsessed with just saving your own pathetic selfish ones.."
" and i am ten times errata 4000 fishes worth fuckin poorer than you cos... 'at least i DID good works on this earth ..now ...including all that family counselling of your mad lost sister MAtt you couldnt be bothered to....inspite of my soul not givin a shit....and you lot obsessed with just saving your own pathetic selfish ones..'.... "
"ok simon we give you those two rounds we conceded...."
" at least i was brave enough to breed in this pestilent country.. you just the end oif a deadsoul line..."
"ok yes our issues got in the way we concede.."
" but actions speak louder....when i went to Bolivia i trust NOBODY... all neighbours mad ... all friends neurotic townies.... and the only one i did trust was your Ian ...ohh hi ian coming to join in with their scamming sessions me taking up all your time as usual to protect innocent bypassers from even looking at your propaganda and signing up with their bank account details.... only Ian did i trust to keep to his word and look after Esti's last two ferrets she had been abducted away from ever seeing years earlier... only ian as he's from Up north and had ferrits as a lad and...despite beinga Jehovah Witness is a true man of his word as ive known years... and kindof love.... "
Ohh i wish Ian BBC MArchant had heard.. that reality.
You can soon
I have a wonderful archive..of lasterregion... and its important. Any Troll would have to shut up and be occupied with real Trolling ..all of each other..the true version.
every second of the future, yestereve plotted to get here NOW and get your next out of sequence installment up..
with old batteries...well, hahh hahh hahhhh...
minus car-window-wont-go-down degrees c
you have no idea....
soon
there will be a list, soon... she started it, that Bush ... quite correctly despairing at the hairwashing one...
but really it goes deeper - living aside is ONLY to philosophise, even the ancient Crets got that one right... and many a #vanlife video that pops up after our shared comedy channel of the hairwasher.. it is extraordinary they can't manage a day going by without gourmet foody showing off...
Real #vanlife people have far better things to do: the purpose...to think, how never ever to even bump into these decadent children you all click on...it won't end well.
I shall properly return to soon as ALL i care about is me say 20 years ago... if i had known just how truly "centred" one is and how bizarrely wrong even i am - living aside ... for 33 years (95% of the time) which means pop density the SW two counties about 170 per sq km, my past region about 30 per sq km (ALL around i.e. nobody EVER went to Newtown or Horrorford unless you were desperate for cheaper grub especially after 2020 when the so called 'ethical bank' who's chairman was a bigtime coke feind hahh hahhh... but that wasn't even partly funny compared to how Co-op put the prices up by well over 50% infact 75% so so quickly - i have records of all they cant sue, - FAR more than any other chain because they are greedy liars and conned the people for 40 years with their "we are the nice ethical caring peeps"
so yes the decadent pathetic vanmen especially of your absurd Tube... well, they never give you what i care about: how do you get through when you have REAL 'causes' to fight quite essentially and also no inherited money - not a bean... the women of the land too stupid to know there arent any left as you require a couple to run a bit of it...
and its far more expensive to insure a vehicle run it and run one woodburner per person than if two.. (their real 'religion' = ANYthing but actually sharing..)
anyway yes if i had known how much true centring zen it would be to gradually have everything break and be unrepairable...
have almost nothing (ohh yes the things, next!) ..often no fuel to warm anything up...
i wouldn't have wasted a fair amount of time predicting the future internally which is what everyone does whether or not they are brainwashed by Eckheart ...
And Taleb the greatest non fiction writer with his Black Swan... sadly failed to be even 'got' as ...well... BS 'theory' isnt its fact: we can NEVER EVER know how we feel after an upcoming event or change...ever...its impossible
Is indeed against every word one ever hears at Source regions... where they 'need' to mindfully zenyoga or otherwise separate themselves from reality... due ill gotten gains from 'off' enabling their decadence...
which is in fact racist as Taleb is brown...
But that's just a crass jokey nonjoke.. the real ones start soon
however it's serious... restraining appetite in a philosophical way is the key to longer life too...
As the latest Kyle or Meghan or whoever next's 'law' gets it's day in The Sun
BUt i do know how to deal with an even worse fate than childdeath...
Never read your comments.
And as for 'subscribers'
Anyone uploading this unmusical garbage
needs to think twice what they've subscribed, to
which i only mention as anyone who thinks any tech never mind 'AI' is ever going to work should run an ascetic purist youtube channel where you tell it to turn OFF all 'notifications' as nothing anyone else may say is of the slightest interest to me and i have earned the right to have that level of centred zen
But...what it does is about every tenth 'subscriber' ? why i have no idea and i am pretty zenny in the 'moment' with tech as i strip out ALL 'apps' and anything not specifically to do with this my only mission - to be absurdist to infinity.... anyway every 10 or 15 'subscribers' it disobeys the 'no notifications' and still sends an email to spoil the ascetic look of my stark and bare email account which i wish nobody to use except a few invitees but they never do..
All of which is of no interest, but yesteraft on the higher hills even if they are rather pathetic things, two rather wonderful olderish women both company for too brief a time..
time, it's so extraordinary how as soon as they think nobody will wish to in-person troll them from about 63ish they become all open and wonderfully honest..
i wonder if they ever think " i wish i was always so damn human and off my rocking horse.."
Anyway at last the real killer app:
It is extraordinary how short people's memory has become, unlike mine, like the proverbial elephant even if VERY svelte and bouncy for my age...
And in fact (all i care about, what real 'equality' is as the generation below have simply lost it... and as said to agent z " gender wars destroyed the necessary eco wars against the nasty polluters...and Transitioners..oops because of the Transiters..." ) ..oops i forgot my trail of thought so lets go back to some wonderful ones over the last few days
...that's a point i don't 'get' - having overwintererd in unheated hermit crab shell defending myself against the crabby... seven whole tough winters i know the cast iron mind/bodily rule: below about 5 degrees centigrade the former really slows down and doesnt get all bouncy..
well that was the rule....
Not happening this one how weird undiagnosable and unknowable as i know my body...
LOTS to add to this piece during the day. full time...
do come back
BUT i realised even i have been sucked into defensive oracy (the latest trendy graduate word not even IN Oggle spell check ) when rhetoric or speechifyin' was always just fine, if true to onesself..
and the facts
with my "women only have the voice" a weekish ago (to improve i DO share this with many the last 3 years in person they get first version you mere meanie viewers are always trolled down to the scraps..)
Even if he is of course the crassest old duffer ever (as anyone wanderin'NYC in the mid 80s wold say passing his Towers)
Even Agent Z's preferred candidate over Kamala (so so interesting wow my mind was blown and i STILL don't know the right choice...)
Now it seems another bit of rewriting history has taken place - by dint of shoving so many less bad pics in our faces..
As i remember very well a very rare 'ohh well lets have a look' look at sweet little not-very-trolly Trump's MOTHER's offering to the world... when it first came on even wireless four how she had quite deliberately put up a Trolling webpage with the houses of her opponents around and about with pictures of ex-plosions on their roofs...
which seems to have rather disappeared this o0ne there instead... which is bad enough.
|So yes ive duped myself let myself be brainwashed...
serious political analysts DO state how the 'Tea Party' changed US politics forever..
And only one person promoted it so avidly and all-the-way.... we even got to know her name over here..
It's as if Woman's Hour.... have no memory....
silly man was only copying his actual 'elder' younger stateswoman...
Anyway commandment 1: say what you mean mean what you say
2 if you gonna rewrite their awful sky faery book perhaps needs to have it right at the top of the list... You can't have it both ways
TO BE CONT..later
(to have got this far today..old battery in old laptop - they basically stop totally drain overnight if cold.... and not buymeacoffeedotcom funsding link above is as mean as you can get ... and i LIKE getting up at predawn and strugglin for every joule or photon nobody ever chippin in.... so actual purpose out TRUMPS voyeuristic lost stupid ignorant meanness... i win)
ok fair dinkum sometimes she has the correct nuance: you fuckwit humans really are not the Bees knees ( ai would have NO idea what nuance and compliment is within that cheeky instaquip....and rather than moan about it, their new hobby, DO something ... like write a thousand words a day so so fucking with its so so American flatlander one dimensional unsardonic bleak " learnings" via all the crap they put on their ' line' for decades whilst preparing to go and Columbine, or far more important to humans, come over here and be radio 4 philosophy of children paid commentator.... [ link yestermorn or yet another Yanky morn]... when 20% back home are on head meds... ergo bot exactly doing well back ' home' and one thing i know in my wise longish life Is Yanks can't change and don't know the wonders of German philosophy ..why their national debt is rather temple on the rather big mount, anti-god theirs being their wonky Ayn no matter what they muter i know America...and would never even kiss one if the last woman on earth... Unless she was the only one who meant her 'have a nice day' and married the fellow campaigner, in gaol and made his day for real..... ohh and Babs who seeing she was derided for her legal case suing for her view ...someone had published...said "fuck you i have better happier pics to than your sneaky secret ones of my view so have them all...all and i dhall publish them instead of miserable sneaky you ... ok also i was ...wrong to try and hide..and a bit hippotoo ... my whole cannon about goodness." ... Hesse would have smiled... )
oops i put the wrong video up....some are to be held back for...
what exactly i know not - that is real curiosity... they all brag of.
But i shall last until the tenth anniversary and Homer at least had a bit of something in his life is an Odyssey so make it groovy and keep good diaries...
which is the ONLY 'therapy' and 'religion' i know that does in fact work as a mental picture of what is good for you...
now-soon.... it is time to go to the real fuller Source..
Feeling this consistently chirpy, thats the other 'choice' - they never work, so be in the opposite of where you chose to be and it works....
i never before - anywhere ever, felt like somewhere was 'home'... one i wished to stay in.. one that magyacally just works
untilnow
(and they dont really notice you bein all stealthy parked intown by warmth inabit, as EVERYone here is only ever fixated on their silly screen afront even walking on perfect sunny days as now)
The river polluter - i know as as neighbour i was coerced into applying poison outside promulgated times...according to HIS label... " this topic is closured! i want MY bracken killed... now.... and if you don't use the poison alongside the tributary of The Wye, now.... you can go and speak to my little hotpanted be-mused woman indoors about your future employment here..[ i chucked away his ILLEGAL poison chemical and used water instead.. then did it the old fashioned correct way, wuth a scythe when t5he chemical 'mysteriously' didnt work..] "
He couldn't sue as THE batocide i can get corroboration...
And furthermore pisqueaks are so uninteresting
But fairly dinkum even if he only gives us a snippet - only VERY VERY few do that:"..tease! "
(just like The UltraChret herr lesser sin, as blueticking sosoon a seditious stream as she full well knows t'will be is far more sinful... at least she laughs when j'accuse. " tell your boys maybe it's to be avoided the teaser... as methinks the 'endtimes' wont come sadly for many a decade or century... and when they meet such an ultratease as you...my my they will need to be equipped - as to how to worship you, despite.."...)
Anyway anyone who read real books and not poor Hilary's fayre - what did he tell me i have a pretty genius memory but stupid old English fatheads like that one ... ohh i forget him ... the forefather of Scruton...when them Grens had real DADS who didn't chuck em out to boardin' school age 3...Voltaire... theres a real newthinker...
If one hd trudged through Dawkins ..then the far less flash Gould Lewontin Rose Kamin... all rather peep-'o-the-book names too..i bet they made sure their books were as low price as possible...
real people... knew that Da2w3kins was so so Maggie That1ch and off or on...
when the other lot writing more or less same epoch were far more fluffy "it may be this may be that" which is what PROPPER scientists use as their language of the actual genetic determination of some bits, and other bits are other fings.. some we may NEVER understand..
Anyway ok fair dinkum i can Socratically dialog (not that there's any point hearing that truly sad 'good ole boy' a few years ago tell the daughter my adored little diy helperbabe.. the only one ever for 15 years, . how her mothers 'serious 'mental illness' is all hereditary... and he is the really popular authoritative single dad good egg of the dump little town i would have died of cold broken down nearby had i not a reason to emigrate..
(even if a true man of the 'people' knows when the authority of some English dump even if in Wales where they're still teachin the bible as true ... telling his daughter that leads of course to said superbly cheeky reddish blond thinking... " fuck thast means i may catch my mothers violent lunacy.." which is one form of parental alienation with a smug grin over a beer loudly in his local... and child abuse being they still believe in Dawkins..)
ohh yes why do my little quips never get thumbed up? i dont understand they are so rare
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Don't knock Hillary blessim' ! ...THE world class original thought leader on thinking! "if i put half a talk on Youtube for free and the other half behind a paywall, the people will flock to me OPEN walleted ... "
we then saw SamHarris Daum and just a few others follow this rather closed- minded behaviour ...
Anyway of no interest Dawkins was really wrong about one thing - showing his absurd English Public School Boy lack of mummy-love ('molested by a teacher' so says his wikki) and my VERY wide experience of this world from young - and underprivileged lead me to know immediately that all boys (and girls) sent off to [private school if sired in some 'colony' especially to a dad working for the colonists were doubly helixed up the arse when it comes to brains, the nuanced subtle 'maybe' kind which is TRUE intellectuality, and humanity... sad but true - his far better contemporary Gould sTEPHEN j WOULD MUMBLE AND RATHER SWEETLY AND BEARDEDLY MAYBE ALL OVER THE PLACE...AND WAS THUS right
OOPS ACC CAP
you'll have to guess which word was intentionally capped.
you have to work to read me (from the beginning too)
But Dawkins even if he popularised rightly the rather good word 'meme' was especially wrong to say one thing: " all 'believers' are off with the fairies... "
He should have said MAYBE... or tried a bit harder to say it intelligently and appropriate to cultural construct, reality...
eg there may well be 'something' other than scientific materialism but the current range of faery tales, be they Christian deathcultism, never mind trendy shamania... just as indigenous 'faiths' like chopping living children to bits atop Andean high peaks to feed to the buzzards whilst theyre still wiggling their toe...
well maybe we were never meant to have a functional schema so shut up and DO something on this planet now... you never know what MAYbe instore...and modern Christianity even the bishops now say is FAR too much about narcissistic selfsoulsaving rather than as the Cof E DID have 20 years ago providing ACLU type services to peeps on this planet NOW...
and NEVER EVER believe anyone who says what 'it' - the inscrutable ..is..especially if they make money from it, or the modern day equivalent, get Fakebook friends, from their useless interpretation of ... what may or may not BE
But outright: "you are wrong" is insulting when in fact its far far more human loving to have a great big joke book ... inspired by them, lovingly...it is also anti-scientific being anyone who like me follows really advanced - more advanced than poor Hillary blessim.. latest thought, knows that nobody knows OWT..
(Smolin so geniusly in 2020 hinted may be so..)
BUT I DO KNOW ONE THING ONLY:
Whilst for nearly 16 years you are freed up to be SO SO 'in tune' with ones mind body and
(DAMN missed a perfect shot of a Sourcine at her business: very shiny four ring (audi of course) ... very very expensive leather flyer jacket... very expensive highlights...atop it - prominently on the roof, perched her wicker basket as if to say: i didnt really sell mummy's L'Oreal Belsensoapwashin' shares to buy this ... i borrowed it from some nice actually CARING friend..."
but i didnt have camera-phone in its usual place for quick action...)
Anyway mind body as one yea yea the nanaboatain' think they can come here runnin' from their little local Slobo prob, and tell me what for 50 years is obvious..
Now when forced to actually be still much of the time.. first few years from malnutrition and the shits-'o-grief...
then gradually one walks ones way to even better physical health than ever before and then bounces...and then (censored) one really is VERY 'aware' of the endless incrutables of ones own body... and accepts all and never goes to their doctor nor bothers witha 'supplement' - even the dodgy Jen-pal, Beeb did a quite good sliced bread one on that sixish months ago... and said theyre all a con! all... not most, all....
(writing at the Temple of the expensive supplement factors)
Anyway a few years ago - well ten, for a year or so... then once again three ago... I knew for 100% certain no question knowing more about genes than dodgy Dawk and 'reality' than poor manchild Hil...
"100% certain thats it getting a bit older now the body is never again going to feel at peek bounce...no way ever.... "
and then at The Source or i should say to be fair there are a whole ecosystem of them, and my my the one 15km away dont like the higher one... frig they really do pick on em....
Anyway in the meanest most self obsessed region of all there being two genetically unproigrammed variants: the southern region of London menchilds who bought Hatesville some decades ago, on the cheap, as they knew the local councillors could be bribed to give plannin' on anythin' with just a pint of London Pride... then there is the Upper region where they pretend that a very ordinary hill is 'magical' for money... (even if i know its magyyiiic already) but it aint pretty - proper hills like Herrock are real healin' and weird magic ones...
Anyway to the point, there was no way ever in all of her End Times put together into one rapturous new beginnin'
in the back 'o my cold tincan
I could feel even younger and healthier and energise, consistently week on week especially with no 'hope' ever of meeting a real human...
None...
But there is pretending to be wrong for ... yes its time
For maybe the greatest ever...
But she didn't STOP and ... even know how unAmerican she was and speak true wordplay poetical justice..
they all butterfly off to find some new so called religion...or way of being 'new age' for their fakebook profiles with them 30 year older age pics..
( got a major retrospective soon)
But she then, summed up, here now..
And silly him...and his 'now'
to get here back here now required such perfect timing looking forward to the next time ... bit by second and hour every moment planned...
to the place of fabricated redemptive boasts....
(hahh hahh i should have left it at the fist godgiven typo version just for her:.. fabricated redemptive 'boats' sums up the whole vile peninsula of ex colonists on their silly billy bits of plastic bobbin around to look good)
and ok its sexist a bit that an actually GREAT wordsmith wasn't quite so pushed to the fore...
But CERTAINLY not as much as The Observer picking on poor mentally BPD retarded Mrs Winn.. when she slept in the same tent as Mister for many years and i am quite sure sought his approval for her lies and false victimhood deceit...
Just as false historically .. as Woman's Hour and all their moaning fopr some years (even the Mormons English wife said she couldnt listen any more almost a decade back) when lovely sexy so so 'on point' new woman Asma
Fuck Estelle how dare you judge me my life you know nothing of.... when it was only ever to get you away from the sort who would have lovely Asma to tea, for cash... and i didnt go to the same university as the pretty English wifey of the man - son of one of the world's worst ever butchers - as everyone knew...
it aint myth that his daddy lined up several hundred enemies and made them put their hands up against a wall and he had someone delightfully walk the walk with their scimitar unsheathed as even useless Kings College history dept would have had some factoids about...
(we shall come back to Scimitars later..)
or if it was true true real love theres always a deal to make: " ehhh yea ok Bashy.... love is thicker than water.. or is it blood? my education wasnt very good at Kings College London .... but the deal is we do not live, never mind own for 24 years, daddy's homeland.... and if by some weird miracle we had to, well we don't make his same genocidal errors murdering several hundred thousand sweet Bashy "
i mean its as if white western educated women get taken to Syria and then must auto-adopt the one man= 2 women undergraduate thing of a dinosaur culture, having nothing to say in bed ...
never mind taking any 'blame'...
your endless Woman's Hour after hour as only victim when Mr and Mrs Syria really was about the worst of them all, numbers never to be known except Congo ten times more but one dead whitey still equals about 10 darkies...
And i am quite sure she could have afforded the best divorce lawyer in London had she actually cared what the whole world knew hubby (and some mad uncles too no doubt) was up to...
