'appiness.. ' buzzitronics'

 Now, buzzis... was an earlier just naive notebook entry

Was it 5 ish years ago?

6th Feb .??..my my don't the Merms make time fly...

( another key:  not doing much but so much "appens in my non life, so many little nonthings....  cheating that time passing equation, is lovely, i do ...xxx another day..or on short i beat her... nothing happened in 18 months .... but it feels like a decade, for real...and just yesterday as well, but more a decade ...)

Buzzis... my one and only Epicurean pleasure thing: saving money by uktra simplifying, and kearning to fix most things, my own true pleasure in any material item was the Interplak ORIGINAL model.of the early mid 80s...yank.... 

the revolving tufts i never found similar....

ten mins in a bath just Interplaking  properly.... paradise

must be in the bath

later models nothing like as perfect...  i had a few that gradually wore out and bought some parts... as ebay was invented to source rhem, not available ever in uk  - prior ebay impossible.... and it  took ages to rebuild just one .... i had the time and even money to do so ( limited income) as i eschewed other frivolities..

.such as ANY  other bathroom product.... ever except one bar of simple soap ( no toothpaste required with superb mechanical tbrush)

or you could say just find ONE simple pleasure that...

you are almost addicted to 80s 90s..... 

the source of the material goods,  closes down...and by magic you get to revisit it.... something you never umagined you cpuld

felt like true happiness at the time, but in truth is a lame duck pastiche...

 

'appiness isnt really a newly cleaned desktop ( spare intermittent fault near dead crap Dell-  battery failed after a year,  only works plugged in) ...

thismorn

or watching at last a few weeks ago the one new Isabel Hulpert film desperate to see for some years...as she alone makes me THINK.... i could, at ladt....finding vumoo dot id ( it wasnt on clised down dot to...i never knew .id existed til .to was arrested)

Indeed 'appiness really is, or a proof of it is, when for decades you  religiously keep your desktop pretty ascetic tidy... minimal... very few files or app links.... 

NOT being able to keep on top of that essential lifelong habit (  near 3 years no socket) .... really disturbs at first..... my lenovo desktop littered with files uploaded i forgot to tidy back away.... but gradually one accepts the new essential reality... ' nightmare'

'appiness is i guess knowing that losing ones'self', or rather more specifically,  not being able to Bee what for years one has been proud of...

being stopped. Not being ones categorical cherizhed  identity of the always minimal computer  desktop....  one can in time accept, and live on and.... " change" ...a bit... i never even care any more about what used to be a religious practice of keeping the screen clean...

not being  ones (superfulous

)  self....  ( in ' control' of what is 'essential!!!!")

= 'appiness or at least a proof of it....