Now, this 'abundant' millisecond.

 To have the nowzen, to know that I shall forget about even thatone in one picosecond, and hold back the appetite.... for what may be.

As ....gosh they even have a yoctosecond, well 'ows about that then....

Hmmmm... the South American 

(at last a real one, who knows their booktoo.....

 " Ferkright.... My Gabrielllle... you're right One Hundred  Years [still his 'magnum opus' to quote their so bland Wikipedia] was for the nonces of the precious lot of the so called London cultural elite, and their Time Out that as you say started it all, and pretended to care about them,  with their 'whoop whoop One Hundred..... and me as one of em' a pukka effnix,  we couldn't give a ferk.... we just wanted to live in the 'now' .....ideally having as much real philosophical fun as fukky-fukky Florentino....

and yes that's what widows are for.....

That Nazarin

Remedied him

IN her death scream -  Munchy moment

As Flozzers fine mum knew.... 

needed an outlet...

Never mind beginning the 'journey' not one of them dare to go on:

ferkin' his way back to forgetting....her....for a while anyway"

Righty ho...... not, 'end' just 'stop' 

And catch up.

And what a magnificent bridging operation, this time more for my needs....

Which are merely to have as many yoctosex as one can as they always come no matter what...

So lets unobscure a range of this and that

bit by bit

(all that really matters is that onetoo, was saved even if i haven't had the spare sex for too long to even go back and live in every smallest lacuna... of when it was for sure, the beginning of the most glorious decade never even dreamed up....

https://www.sublime2020.com/     soon to get baCK TGO...)

so perfectly summed up in that moment

When you could define precisely what was lost, 

And then... dunno about you well i do as absolutely everyone lives in a  diffo mode, to not knowing anything except there's no way the yoctos can line up any more sublimier,   so stupidly often,  it's officially retarded to know they cannot be beaten. 

When they always are....

Anyway as i do actually waste my time with the so called 'intellectuals' John Gray needs his Straw Dog rammed up his ...nose as even an elephant stuck up where the sun don't shine wouldn't stop his anti-enlightenment ....gossip....so as to get him moaning on even  more, as 'elder statesman philosopher of our so so turbulent times'  'podcasts' (and officially from a suberb  22 year old Oxford edder - " hahhh i bet she went to the posh one and took pity on you at the cheap seats up the road" ..... they only educate themselves, as i suspect, via the podders.... which is a more scary notion than Palin and Trump had babies....

as all the dogcasts have a very very incurable form of rabies) 

And well-into-enlightened times by 87 almost EVERYone knew that if you dress in shoulder pads and still wear all that bunny-tested makeup, your a real silly billy

and the boiled bunny

was a magnificent allegory

or summit like that, in wonderful story

to clearly show that themtoo

(oops as they knewthen, wetoo...)

can be  part of the age old problem...

who gets stuck with the dull cookin'

 

But well before that became a performative, dilletantine

whine of those who have no reason to even exist

never mind be a jolly good Florrentinoist

Just to pass the time.....

Anyway i so near got sucked into that anniversaryism

When i know better, sorry even her a fake, to have failed to stay friends with him

Her perfect collaborater, 

without whom we would have hardly herd of her.

Indeed in fact must be symbolic of the most narcissistic self pitying sour puss

heartless, bridgeless, century, in history.

Anyway back to the actual 'moment'.

 Which one knows little of as i certainly pay no attention whatoever

as not one of them is even a bit clever

so as to think, metoo, i better watch that movie

(next bit) as me also may succumb to that particular human bit

of cant and vanity that almost always evades non existent latterday dignity.

Infact it surely must have been

South American man stood in the corner: "what a godforsaken Queen

all his silly fancy pants, and social climbing fag sticks

never mind that hair, symbolising, everything

we are against, even if the so called intellectual with his stupid frocks

and ostrich feathers - likely stolen off some Oxford Deb, 

he couldn't let go and treat as his true equal, even stoned in bed,

so satirised everything he never even could tolerate

"ALL of them i only deep down HATE

But due my not quite secure, immo status,

 i gotta pretend to be all chummy

charmy one of the boys.... flip we don't have boys like that back in 

mammy's home state,  separates the men from the boys, 

and as for that jumped up arrogant lil' Liverpudlian.... 

Back home we had a remedy, 

them naughty FARCs would just pull the  grenade pin and run

But lets see.... if i can turn my private-schoolboy-imposter-and-classclimber,

one hundred percent authentic, hate

turn the Eton school railings he could only ever peer above,

nor ever get through that hollowed gate

Into some art that actually works.....

ugghhhh... this is gettin' very dull [ten minutes in]...

As 'as the whole darn thing up til now...

what the heck someone's gotta actually DEFINE the new enlightenment

...oooh i think i just did.... that was fun.... all the rest can stay in the smelly Puddles basement......

though they'll of course never quite accept me as a higher level 

king of it all, no drug habit, no scandal.... three nice kids, and as a kid lived through what they could only dream about

and stick in silly decadent Nottin' Ill boy, 

pretend revolutionary, nothing..... "

Righty ho ... there now needs to be. Moment number two. 

then, in the future for the twaterites of tittilatin' Tolle

 It is impossible to have predicted the exact opposite of ( her once word, the once loved Yank) maudlin.

It the Uttermost.....

But all that matters, all sublimest year,  is the young man....

Never mind the bridges built and fixed,  it has to be admitted.

oops wrong way around.

Heritage.....

 the word of the summer, well, spring in truth....

And what a splendid archaeological discovery: 

 I didn't send it yet by accident.I don't have many.

Righty ho, time was always the enemy....

 except you don't blame time, you blame the wasters of it....

Except blessem they don't even know how they do...

But the remedy, always was only one zenny state of New Yorkie bars

(that was funny, at the dusky chat the other night there's them.... she, the one with the so interesting name ... a 'case' study in how they could have been.... I mean take Stevie, times two.... oops forgot about her i have a lil' bit of the famous line nobody's taken in...." i don't wanna be a cleanin' lady i wanna be a .......starrrrr...." that's all you need to know about the last dull fifty years, of them...

I mean basically nothing changed after them chubbie ones realised they could get away with that Tonkin falsie....

God, he sounds INTERESTING....

Grigory Potemkin: He was a Russian field marshal and a former lover of Empress Catherine the Great.

Here having given me the real next phase, and in fact at least their South, as i don't even like to write the words this sceptic Aisle....

That's all it ever was: a big job, "130,279 to 132,932" square killer metres  - how come they don't even know what size it is... ?

Or it certainly became as of about 1997 or eight... a hundred and thirty three km squared, to add in a bit for the ever expanding wasteline...

The Isle of the Potties... from Griiiiggg...

But she needs a tad of rebalancin' " so is it propoganda was her book you use as Ruskie bait...

 just some earlier form of hate

And 'it weren't that bad...as say Alcatraz?"

My ohh my that youth really do need a reeducatin' camp

And she will do, it one day...in time.

(selfie with me and her  - no one ever needs to ask my digital consent the notion they aren't recording or livestreamin' everythin' is as absurdist as the notion that the AI wont entirely destroy all communication, as happened as soon as the marketeer-fraudsters got inside one's once great email - long letters and no stamp required, wonderful modern evolution*...... for her errant dad....

"so ehhhmmmmm.... "

I have no idea how the wonderful chat i keep comming back to got onto mars bars, which in the times before Ms Waller-Bridge and her performative frankly cheap, as in that oldstyle brittle nasty itch-yer-crack toilet paper, disgusting,  writing where she has to use the phrase 'anal sex' seven times in her series....

anyway a brief mention of mars bars in a  certain context, quickly fast forwards into the 'poop-sex' of 'influencers' conned into goin' to Bahrain....i saved her from.... and got the conversation back to that simple funny ole time when mars bars had a certain double meaning, as did Mars Bars and Scotland.... but that's ancient history when due to the likes of Harris and all them De Botty adjacent new minds of the mind

 mad as a potty full of nitty 

effluent, pissed out if they survive it " psychedelics will save all of them from repeated insanity" they can't afford the LSD no more, or mushy....having been mind-polluted they need their lil' bit of mental 'medicine' ... so go round the john for a bit 'o introductory

' here's a joint with something else innit, two fer, first one free.... 

famous last words: 'OOPS  the 'iso' gone and got me...fatally'....    

but she was wonderful..... apart from that one rather rewriting of history..... as case study, for humanity..... i do hope Georgie wipes out ZAc 'democratiocally'... as i know my history and shitstained 'green' poop

will end yer up in one place only, I mean the chap in his first ever 'leader' interview,  i heard live, his appointment, and fioirst ever public comment: as he said

" Lineham should be sent to the tower......for his hurty words....." over THE LINE for me, .. even if said jokingly ....

EVERY single ordinary bloke i ever knew in 'kick in the balls' time....

knew....you do not ever say 'death to the IMF' in fact proper 'activists' wouldnt even damage the front window of Big MAcs.... as none of them are worth the waste of muvva natures scarce resources.... there was a very very clear line, always... except for the extremely rare minority who were actually fully signed up to them National Fronts....

But for the 'leader' of the so called alternative peeps to immediately blurt out, words must be coppered....  means clearly his houseboat has some loose copper  likely from bad plumbing, thats so tainted  his brain, he should be ... well he already is in the most absurdist Isle Of Potties ever in history.... ehh where was I yes.... " learn..... your mother in law is simply impossible to have chanced upon.....  but don't believe this weird twist about soviet  gulags not being full of many who were in there for sane democratic ....speech....just saying one wrong word or even worse never saying any naughty words but some neighbour or ex lover had dobbed them in with a falsie  as they wanted their apartment, or luvva..... or even children..... .. and in fact they had a harder time, doing the hardest time ever only about maybe 25 percent survived .... so start with Yevgenia....Jenny.... when ma in law heard me say the friendly version 'Jenya''' i could see her heart skip a beat.... except think...i can tell, you can.... all those things Jenny covered, take time... ponder...i mean we basically here have the 'lite' version..... social workers and the system and even other parents.... steal children on false allegations - made so often for some secret benefit - often as simple a thing as one parent wants all the paltry child benefit, or the sociial worker gets her gold plated pension based on the commissions the system makes one way or other, from that nickerty........  ... something they do NOT do in Europe - neither parent, or state.... .... . such a fine FREE mind.... read them post 30s  ruskies, and then ponder just how much of it is really in the past....")

Anyway ... time.... the real art, is enjoying every special measure adopted a decade back, to SAVE it....

knowing every single Potty one ...is so full of shit, 

you only ever waste it....

unless, you have so ultra simplified,

 that that's all you need

dawn today. 

And saving it even that way, is true real energising, joy

Or maybe not...or rather

 a whole book could grow from just the very last two

 ...always forget the punchline but of course beardies have been brainwashed  to only think in one d... the performative psychodramatic pity their cleverer big sisters plotted at St Trins.... and lion tamed them into being

" ehhh....i wouldn' t have five years of rooflessness any other way..... to have any one of these fakes so ' sick' from their falsity as even neighbour ..[oops 99% of em .... i know a few that prove the rest are off to see the faeries in their very expensive mamvan....]... all endlessly every other sentence something ' wrong' with them ..[ i got a great brief this morn on the latest trendy ' therapy' note to self].... i wouldnt want a roof here i would die of being stuck aside em ...of them.... i only came for one reason........ and true therapy is knowing you were right.... and they all poisoned even her.... pretending they have ' community' when all there is is transactionality....

thats what their soulless crap telly  taught em:  every smallest  interaction to be assessed for profit....

thing is theyre do stupid they dont know short term vs medium....

if she does get learnings rammed into her and listens.....

she is as soon as she is rolled out... THE ist... to end all ists.... and i have seen how it does, work

but... a winter of culture for her first..having discovered she alone does ' listen' 

Now..or in maybe ten minutes....

 why not....

...as long as they don't interfere with my siesta the perfect morning of wasting my time communicating

audio file call to any answers

five minutes ago

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1yiVgFQOJ2ZwZ6O2q8oW3PdGb3V0YvNTk/view?usp=sharing

yet another of the worst lowest common denominator self pitying liar politicians ever

Ben Maguire MP, Luke Pollard MP, Rebecca Smith MP, Ella Whelan

faking their endless  Pity Corn

for their own devious ends

https://www.bbc.co.uk/sounds/play/m0031jxd

of course one doesnt use the grown up word to the usual uneducated graduate beardie " they INFANTALISE ..the few locals who didn't sell half of Gweek they inherited from dad if he wasn't a 100% alcie....to the drug dealers or other kind of mindfulness drug pedlars...by endlessly telling them they are the poorest of the land when its just a case of a few missed out on that jamboree..."

but i wouldn't have,  had i not interviewed a bijou van doer-outer who told me ten minutes earlier that they still have a 'boom' on..of "those who spent 30 grand on a fancy van upcountry dont quite like  the interior  they just spent twenty on.....so come and spend another 20 grand here on a fancier kitchen innit.."... a huge amount of such Swestern 'economies'  on inherited cash from off.. 

..that is 90% of the FAR higher than many places, 'local' cash, as they the poor so downtrodden Pasties,  certainly rather cannily grabbed a fair pot off them.... .... in Pastyshire... 

And the notion that any politician is ever going to make housing ;'affordable' for the 25% of locally born 'n bred who's parents didnt join that lil' jamboree, without having a major 'local tax' hike (of a hell of a lot of percent) , which wouldn't be local,  it would merely be a London-cash tax, moved Swest.... which pushes up the price of even their ridiculous puffy pasties and everything else such as dreamcatchers and womb-yoghurt........which will never happen. Is insane...

And does damage the few really poor peeps..i know as i found them and studied them.... they all 'want' a mini revolution for their homeless nippers but not one ever even says so with one bright eye.... forever consigned to self pity, by a FRAUD. 

As audio says

I failed to add, and yes the Pasty libraries are large and fairly well stocked... though hardly anyone USES them... other than the noisy tramps having a wine-break, often very swivelleyed, , MANY bail-hostel inhabitants as Cornwall Council did a good number on getting bribed to take them in from London and all the cities, and keep em in horrid places.... travellers, who should know better when repacking tents or packs but always do it VERY loudly,  unless they are European in which case they are very thoughtful of others..... and actually teachers who should be using other 'public spaces' for their 'excluded children'...as it means no body who wants to use a library to think...ever can... as they can't think it's in their best interests to be taught to....shut up for the 'common good'

THE END

Now, oops, then.... Three years meandering Swestershire....

 Even if every smallest 'moment' in ever not very 'safe space' - especially in Pastylands due the perstilence of not-really-fixed, junkies...

(Mister Beardy Portugal spoke to me on them,  a month ago, still to do..part 2)

and the even worse pestilence of them just let out of The Priory  - some Home Counties department, and told to try and grow up - except they won't have been told that, only everything else...off a menu, that never ever works (as many encounters with such sad ones have only always proven) .... so mummy sends them to buy a new van and some land in that nice place she played seashells at in her childhood.....in the most immature place by far i have ever had the malfeasance to accidentally, inhabit... (a deliberate wordplay in a region where the word-usage is so word salad all about plenishing the unplenishable soul of the poor suburbanites who never made it in PR or lifgecoaching...so of course theyre sad as that's all that was left for them..i have empathy, but not for a false version of life that only cracked their heads as if the hall of mirrors mater inhabited was deliberately stuck into their vagus nerve.. - i hear that one back in fashion, too...all fake as fake as the supplements they all pimp or consume...)

in fact old Golding couldn't have made it up had he aged them a lil' and reset it there.... now

it would be even more conch  - the latter day version being their so so bossy posterage all expensivley plasticated, to placate, nothing (especially as half are going out of business there being one facile tittilator to every humble inhabitant many of these parts)

and cannibalism

Anyway real 'wisdom' is KNOWING for sure for twenty years the very last place on the whole planet you will ever conceivably find a mind unpoluted by the local fayre even if it got rolled out countrywide...

 i have a hilarious collection

from 1000s of km wanderage 

i wonder if i shall ever be able to turn them into the collage that would be so resplendently

head fuckery if any heads survived their  tsunami of nothing

but grab yer cash

(and this DID destroy environmentalism as those few of us who DID care were green wholesome organic types.... in the past DID do actions such as lobbying MPS to do their fuckin job and keep Horrorfordshire clean for their huntin and fishin' mates...but didnt

 but the once fine lobbyists, even there still 20 years ago... destroyed by TT and their divide and conq1uer with their con.... did so much damage as the few who meant it also started to spend all their time at womb-yoga instead.... 

and ' community capital' is SUCH a simple phrase meaning an ordinary thoughtful person has only so much time free between rearing kids - the bloke rarely helping of course..... cleaning the motor once a year only - as real eco peeps knew decades back... or actually doing actual food bank work getting REAL food there - they never have....mainly sweeties...

and this time is limited to do ANY 'good works' and when their time is diverted into so so much work on which are the best seaweed supplements to take or that whole world of nonsense....and i care about my healthy diet which is ... to be cont

anyway all that 'body' neurosis obsession... that fails as most are fat or wan... means they haven't ever time any more to write that letter to their MP.... or DO anything much.... except their stuff that clearly never works (massive unscientific study been underway years, that Orwell, G would be rather proud of had he stopped blaming others elsewhere and pondered how even London was wonkified by Fox-Sister 'spiritualism' a century ago... and Britain like France will never get out of the shadow of their capitol city - where all the dosh is.... no matter what nonsense fake devolution happens...as all of Wales knew decades ago.....and even my supposed best buddy 7 years.. said she was eco saviouress and could due half a mil of free cash she spent on the Arrow river bank, bijou dump.... " ehh S*** can you prove you're not a money launderer..i mean 'inherited' cash is so easy to make up...") 

merely a sunny day and time to spare after the only one Queen of the Swest the breaker babe down the road... saves you time by having your telephoned in 'interest' in a couple of part worn tyres....

by having them ready for you, more efficient than any F1 pitstop....

And in such a splendid mood ....why not.... it will be good for dark energy laughter the kind that always powers me - straight out of Tolle-went-to-Hades and they gave him a book publishing contract to 'intentionally' fuck up all the rest of humanity...

And as we are about to snigger 

And feel even cheekier

There  - she spoke to me first! ..is the one finest mind in the whole of so called 'enlightened' crapbook reading society...

pimping it all too....

The moral of the story being tell tjhem but never imagine the ending as you wont be able to..if it is an authetic one....

And i checked her IMMEDIATELY for all the usual mental illnesses.... of 'you can't say that' and thats a bit close to the bone

especially " i was raised in Wales in fact where the 'Welsh' first invaded 'England' 3 miles up in the hills from Ruthin - supposedly burnt to the ground due incomers and their second homes,  a wonderful mixed 'heritage'  place...

but god even then before the incomers pimping a FALSE version of history/mythology all English all fat with lanyards.....  we knew all the 'myth's were just for the tourists and very inaccurate...

as is almost all 'heritage'...

TO BE CONT now the real-write gets rit..

As i really do have protection...

Now, or for about two years, the one thing my so called 'readers' hate, is wisdom....

 Being as as soon as it gets obviously wiser, they all piss off and go to the rest of the unwise internet of nonsense..

(he understood Oxford grad  computer geek " ehh... its going to have driven itself mad on the 99.99% fake words on it - poor thing  scraping them....and it gets told  about a thousand times to one that Coetzee's Disgrace is  his good one - even if round here all the Guradianish UK they don't get the BEAUTY in it....'she came to an accomodation with them in time as she realised that's the only way she could stay where she wanted to stay.... was it daddy's land once i forget..' simply terrifies them, even if they never say ' them black savages og his book,  are always also born sexcrims too...' ..... when in fact Michael K is maybe even better, more beautifully unshowbizzy poignant and graceful.....  but not as showbiz as the only one they ever bothered to read as it was on some 'list' which is all book reviewing became virtue signals by stupid ex private schoolgirls who also owned the web years ago, as they had cash to hire monkeys to SEO,  and contacts to get on the wireless and optimise themselves saying NOTHING......to say more of  say NOTHING...a fine definition of pseudeia.com ....." 

Anyway this should make them all  - my meanest broswers ever, run away forever, a far far wiser phase is beginning, and lots of plans in place to make it a bit more readable... especially as i am literally the only one my age this whole last few months who is also healthy, bouncy, walking my 50km a week.... never ill except for the Death By Lidl near miss...

Anyway whats so much morfe interesting even if merely for fun and to pay hommage to the first i knew 17 years ago, i do a lot of meemeemeemeetoo too or in their case 'only'

But the photo she took on her device of me and her....to send to her wayward dad..is ten times more, STILL bridging

interesting

.....using my image for her benefit....

" ehh up i forgot your dad situation so interesting and we may be able to fix him.....  i need a photo of me i just love my new foundbag... as i told y'all half an hour ago... there is a REASON i am parading it here and now......" which is just one of the other dimensions that i can't even slightly hint at unless i get to safety...which really does have to be Serbia, or the EU... or i was pondering yesters...

oops ive lost it -  i need a job - very part time. MY terms.... ..... i know i could apply to several countries as their undersecratary for tourism....

Their turn in the sun....but tourism always ruins everything anywhere it touches (as the great woman farmer writer of The North wrote 50+ years ago i wish i could find it one day i must try...)

So, all PR....well it's the most blow-up-in-yer-own-face blunderbuss of a thing... unless you have the simply PERFECT ..

i mean tried tested true...

one who needs to be PR's into pole position...

As everyone of her family knows,too....

And 'mutual benefit' will at some point take on a true new meaning...in a story. To be writ. Even if i never ever even mention my hunger, or 'homelessness' ....

Now as aforestated, there are at least three dimensions in most of my diary-snaps....

This was snapped to remind me of the one.... s...plural.

By way of the others a week back, who i at least told the story, the full version...

" so there i was on a red alert day not even sweating on the last Bigjob happier than a pig in a poke ....  

[one of several clips made ONLY for one, who had her kid-jobby youth  - on the jobs with dad from maybe four logs,....grass... etc destroyed by the psycho towny, 'clan]

and on red alert day there i was trying to finish off by four so utterly done in not by the heat but i hadn't had time to pop into any cheapershop....

and by 2pmish was so energy depleted time to grab a few raw eggs from the couple of dozen that had been liberated six weeks earlier no fridge baking hot for weeks....

 ....and as i got to the third cracking the top chuck it down in one as speed was essential that day .... the moment it was raised to my noze... i could smell it the pong of rotten eggs but it was too late already the flow, the speed is motion meant it was in my gob....

and immediately i just knew ok that's it ive just committed the big one off the big cliffs of NW Cornyshire... [the lifeboat lot told me thats where they go, do a propper job of the big end times job, at least... .....] ... I was guaranteed to have all those bugs...[i never knew until 2 weeks back they are utterly obsessed with - dont care about the Prozac piss or as in the river Wye - me putting in the 'big test'  - its full of diabetes medicine and do toxins from the toxins humans put on the poor things....so said the Gold medal top standard testin'....]

one hundred percent a dead parrot....

.... and what dyer know i never even did a whiffy fart... constitution of a normal human.... my personal immunity must have been bolstered by several years of their truly toxic seas.....

anyway...a few weeks later i am wandering the hills, only a tin of old tomatoes in my pack and having guzzled that to keep me going literally thirty minutes later i could feel real toxins absolutely  doing what that egg had so failed.... half hour later legs started to go to jelly... started to make my audio will not that i have owt but mauybe some passwords.... or my words may be lost forever all you want from some buddy no hope even the religious madpeople dont know what 'society' is any more.... anyway i miraculously survived.... for a few days after though had very weird black tarry shit.... 

when i got back to my tincan, and got the offending tin can out of my pack,  i had assumed i would see what i never look at anyway, it was a decade past its sell by date....  but no...only a week after the date they're all obsessed with..... musty have been some random damage to that tin....

death by Liddl.... hahh hahh...." 

Anyway tourists.... no good to man nor dog....

BUT....when earlier in the year one befriends over some weeks months indeed.....

A van couple - him wonderful! (a foreigner) ....super long info chats where to park up where to get water from etc etc...

And then midsummer one day you are walking into the water tap and there is Mrs Van...[ one could hear their extremely expensive huge solar array and 'leisure' battery about ten thousand watts if one ever was within 10m of them them plugging away on her online grift]  one of those who has been all over the world even on mummy's L'Oreals...  but at least one does learn a little solidarity, honour ... wholesomeness, in that mode of life " ehh up....

[censored bit for now].... i was hoping to come across one of you.... I am a bit desperate for what i have earned with HOURS of giving you the info.... ten mins plugged in to your array...."

" yea sure...of course....  [even more censored bit, for now...] ... i'll rendez vous with you outside that pub there in ten minutes just got to pop in for something...."

Having been told in no uncertain terms that A her bloke is superb and i don't enjoy blokes much, and B only women at least 25 years older than her are mildly desirable ... 

I just don't understand... she never makes it.... nor calls..... well i sat there an hour waiting the words that were said with SUCH plenishy ashraminess....

The one most symbolic 'moment' of three dull years... there being actual 'honour' among the actual vanlivers.... the 'nomads' and all that...as long long we had chatted about...

And i never ever ask for ANYthing...until i have forward-paid up front with solid gold....

and even then only rarely....

   There is no hope among the next generation only of course as their parents failed to ....

The more i enjoyably ponder, i realise it's this thing of go anywhere within fifty KM of a Guardian....or Totnes or Hay or all thos eplaces, they ALL say 'i don't watch the telly..' as instavirtue signalage...

Now i didnt have a telly from 25 years ago due having a child.... and furthermore from 2004 lived in a place up in the hills with no FM signal ever not even close....so couldn't watch one even if i had wished to...

other than for extremely rare special occasions such as the Doctor being regenerated as a babe, of course lass must watch that as it happens so a very old portable would be put in our van and we would plonk ourtselves on Hay Bluff 7 km away around the other side of those hillocks...

as an 'occasion' - about once a year.... and it was wonderful to be part of some 'event' for kiddo

But other than that rare treat, never... though a good dvd once a fortnight Eternal Spotlight my lass followed closer than i did I am so thick had to keep asking her to explain the plot to me even her age 7 

Anyway i never realised just how much they lie....all of them.... just how deeply into their fake souls all that really horrid angsty bleak  telly - White Lotus (i watched for research purposes las summer) had driven them to become a separate species to myself....

I knew age about 16 or maybe 18.. his stupid Shining was a bucket of blood too far and have never watched a 'horror, film of any horror telly...

And then the others really sick Twin Peaks everyone else was addicted to really fucked humanity for good especially of twinned with EAstenders...

So despite them performatively denying it just a whole country who were bought up on the sickest crappest telly ever... which did in fact frazzle their souls intpo p[ermanent angstiness...

below the painted on upper middle class smiles ...and bad books such as Winterings..or H is For HAwk making a psychodrama out of a routine dad death....

Thats who they are..... as one can only know when one knows one aint them...

Anyway mustn't grumble....

As the FABULOUS youngster said yesetereve... to " muvva of all recessions already started... "

" wow i think we need one of them to ... sort us out!" 

" wow how are YOU so wise....and right even if i am the ultimately recessed person already i wouldnt want it any other way.....  so tell me about your dad...."

Now, it really is 'now'.... (even if it started two days ago)

 I wonder why.... the only good thing is i couldn't care a shit...as there is only one who matters...

Ok two...

So... between the above two portals into what nobody else ever bothers with, thinking about...

THE key to it all is you don't want 'it' infact can't imagine why you may ever slightly benefit from 'it'...

Yes but...lasterdusk

It is HER fingernail I need!

Or even theirs.... even the young lassie is great.

******

Now not that I need to, i never blot out bits that's yesterdays news...

Even if they are still fixated on suing over it..the past....

who do we have at the moment ohh yes one of them suing poor Grock.... whatever that load of swampmud is...

for making her famous.

Blesser...

Anyway the one fundamental equation of life: get to seventy, (even if she looks about 65)  and then you REALLY 'let go'....

As she has, and wants to further.....

 

"your decadent democracy.."

Now, drip drip....

https://www.ralphschism.com/p/why-berlingos-are-best-real-reason.html

is getting FAR more coercive than Andrew Tate and his grooming operation

And this time even if i have a dozen half written unfinished bits 'n bobs, some going back several years, almost all in my head...as i care about what's what...

And what's what was obvious well over a decade ago.  And hasn't changed one bit. Even if Naomi blesserrrr.... 

So....to extremely short-form even the last three years of endless summer including the winter which isn't one in Southern lats....

Sadly the f word 'fascism' is so conflated with a time when in retrospect they defined several things being definitive, of it - having a belief system which is ongoing, in the society of place, which matters if you don't muck in, day-to-day, as it excludes other completely samey humans from 'advantages' of being part of society, is a quick summary of all the fancy pantses trying to sound more erudite about the PAST. Which actually does textbook describe precisely the behaviours within for example modern (last 10ish years) 'green' organisations. Nothing to do with confusion over what sex is, merely as LONG ago ascertained " if you don't practice the same facile tittilated Buddhist meditation as i go to religiously,  in Leominster ( a REAL 'End Times' dump of junkies and alcies), then i don't want to give you two a lift 20 km to the unbusable Green Party meeting... even if you, lassie, are the top leaflet deliverer..."   Which is EVERYWHERE in previously earthy rural places. IN all sorts of forms. A nice lil' word for it is the clique. But really it's little different from Mussolini and co as in such places one needs references, work 'experience' etc etc just like elsewhere and if theyre so sniffy  - the 'ruling' class who never ever even admit to their stocks 'n shares or inheretances.... they do gradually get the soft 'power' all abouts and eventually are the only ones whom refs and such like are acceptable from, to just rent a corrugated roof over your head....

But of course each one spouts 'green' style politics on egalitarianism and all that to look good... or wastes thousands of hours of ones time pretending to be interested in being an eco ally.... whist only caring about their haute bourgeois (ever so more expensive materialistic nonsense)  needs, that keep them from the loneliness in their soul knowing they never actually take part in anything REAl such as join the council... and such

So they get even cliquier and more fearful of the few content with little, and wishing to 'take part'...

To me that is copybook actual f word. And notice...no corporations, tech bros, or politicians involved...

But long ago it's a 'fascism lite'  that actually took over the 'public' systems - institutions, legal systems, even schools.  As i speak about peeps for the last decade.... its interesting how those who are adjacent to f-lite for example may have had a bestie who had her children wrongly nicked from her by the state, on the say so of a head teacher they once made a joke about who took it to heart so...maybe...one never quite knows in f-lite land...maybe gave  a bad report to SS...
meet such people and immediately they confirm that they are fully aware of how even in hospitals the contempt for the citizen can be vicious... and one wrong word and you are blacklisted ...

(more on this later with pics of their Countess.... i bet the report wont mention senior SRNS who were once our true role models  - the one real Princess Di....on strong skunk for several decades.... ohh of course not as no one tells tales of that stuff....)

 

Anyway ... fascism-lite is a society which puts peeps behind bars FAR FAR longer than the EU average or nearly any of the rest of them.... when most of the research says that doesn't work. As Did the glorious Nils in 2004

 

But that's all dull polemic, even if a magnificent real book for someone one day except NAomi's false version is all that you get sold...

NOW, IMPORTANT, a truly wonderful bookseller spent time researching for me "what currentish - even last decade, book would you pass on to a fine specimin of next generation democrat who maybe will TAKE PART soon more radically... as she has a superb 28 year old mind and has already ousted  the dodgy 'corrupt' yank Gast who was Boss of Her Imperial colledge...

Anyway... " ehh still the one they keep pushing as best is the Naomi..... new one out soon"

please note 'pushing' ... that is merely the fact of it. The other one is just how failed and apalling Naomi was... indeed her 'End Times' i bet she will never take responsibility for being the one who didnt drive them mad.... so they stopped it all.

They.... not the corps not the politicians...

summerings all summer 

Now sadly that word has been captured by some or other splendid scandanavian.

Anyway briefly for now in such a superb summer i have pondered a lot further just what are the simplest messages for the next generation.

But the main one must be that over three years random roaming mainly so as to make more earthy and homespun ecoiunters, the REAL take away even if it was just as evident with almost the same incommer demographic/class band..

"they all performatively moan like Naomi to make themselves look good... and yet not one, even when ASKED  - i have many interviews a hundred times better than any BBC bullshit..... ever says ' maybe it was our fault us goodies who fawned over Moth and Raynor Wynn's GREAT philosophical  utra 'spiritual' soul plenishy, pilgrimage ....  rather than TAKING PART..... in simple old fashioned democracy... a bit....doesnt have to be even long term... just join the council for a few years...or in fact form a small group around some new more radical councilor as in fact almost all even lowly councillors like Jezza was ....had his 'kitchen cabinet' of Di The Abbess...making his crumpets so they kept at it with more stamina...and probably his next girlfriend too... all on the same page, of take part a BIT or make a take partists, sarnies for a long day at dull council meetings"

as that is ALL you ever had.....

 And what a LOVELY shortform example the other day - i am always on duty and occasionally awake 3am for a catch up and the 

World Service was always the only really good bit of the media anywhere in the world.... and ive lived in loads of it....

And you hear a splendid lil' thing

Norway’s teacher resistance in World War Two

Witness History

During the Nazi occupation of Norway during World War Two, the country’s teachers resisted laws which would force them to teach Nazi propaganda.

 https://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/w3ct8r3v

in an Mp3 for those 'foreigners' who can't access the bbc 

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1l7SE-HL-uiLYzfd9bbNpKXMsGfFBHv39/view?usp=sharing

And the key words were how the rather tame NAzis - probably witha  thing for Norwegian group sexy babes so didnt want to get too machine guunnery, rather just trolled them with nasty sourpuss words  " ... you lowlives with your DECADENT ...democracy.."

precisely...

but true decadence is when 99.9% of the so called educated in fact sneer at it just as much as them NAzis ... to my face daily....

not one in 1000s of (on the job) conversations with the goodies of England has one ever said to me "we must encourage more of us to TAKE PART in ...democratic processes.... or nudge our kids into it....or even i might! "

Which is far too dull a subject for the catastrophists like NAomi to bother with even mentioning as it doesnt work on your sugar addiction circuits anything like 'fascism' may, which we do not have and in fact even in America don't have as the constitution  - even his 'Supreme Court' is fairly robust in knocking back most of the nutjobbery..

Anyway... what is just as extraordinary is that the almost fascism practiced in N Ireland with a LOT of Britisher complicity,  in fact encouraged by it..

Was in fact ended by the mammies.... the parents ganging up en masse against the rude boys and saying "no more" we just aint tolleratin' one ferkin idea murderin' another idea in our streets every day   " and 

(who i am on the same page with in simonclayton2020.com the price qc page so don't fuck with my pages there arent many of us only about 6 or 7 ...and we won our big freedom to speak cases, all of us) 

World at One 25 Aug 

https://www.bbc.co.uk/sounds/play/m0030lz5

oops EXPIRES in 5 days i have made a recording that wont xxx put it up here asap

Extraordinary the million 'council houses' are as good as a lie, too...

which does cause a kind of localised fascism lite at least for the millions of parents/kids in Swestershire and Titley Herefordshire who wont ever be able to afford even a kennel to breed in if they wish to stay in their home region...

But do the 'mammies' of Middle CLass England ever actually ever do anything .... nope

so i never blame the politicians or institutions... for 10 years ive known its ONLY the peeps...

Good for me..

BUT THE MESSAGING.... not one of so many waffle chopses all adjacent to some cool mate in dreadlocks .... all nose pierced all doc MArteen booted even midsummer ever even manage to utter..." we only have democracy..."

its extraordinary....

Really extra ordinary...as ordinarily for 500 years we have known its all there is....

Anyway the real reason you need to buy your kids a Berlingo as you havent helped them get more affordable housing, is devloping in 

https://www.ralphschism.com/p/why-berlingos-are-best-real-reason.html  ....so slow, drip drip drip.... as they're ALL fake of course as i knew years ago... having rather riskily 'taken part'....

The one line though they could never 'get' is even when you are as so often down to your last 20 quid.... jesus Christ its wonderful....you never ever have any bad energy doubting yourself deep down...

and also figured long ago how to turn each and every single time wasting people pleasing unordered, border personality,  that has only one: an ashram smile... forever dreaming, of  where .....you can't even dip your toe in their rivers for a 1000 km as they fake their 'eco' bogs, too.... and chuck all the prozac pee straight into wherever the ultra expensive healing workshop, is just adjacent to...

every wasted moment i have hoarded for years as potential arty stuff...  especially when the awful fat Serb, supposedly the worlds Queen of it...is so utterly one dimensional and predictable...

mine wont be. 

Each  has many

And soon a proper page will be built on 'art' ...lots to share, and i DO have several finest arty women who agree.... And have had enough of the 'safe' anodyne dilettante nowstyles....

maybe in time they will rev up into what they say they will...

part 1 audio in here

https://www.ralphschism.com/p/art-2026.html

Now... oops, merely: at Last!

 

maybe there will be a younger one, one day, but....

 I found her..... 

 ten years searching.....and as always the last place in the whole fancypantsy  peninsula one would expect...

#VANLIFE god i hate that word, but it does need at least one REAL posting on it as the rest of the internet is about bourgeois tanks and hairdressing

 Which has moved here - stand alone page,  with a new just made second audio on it all, that may have some real reasons, you may need to hide...

https://www.ralphschism.com/p/why-berlingos-are-best-real-reason.html

God... three days to go to err fiftieth birthing day.... who would have thought (i wonder is she is THICK, too...?)

so, dawn today.....  time to restart propper jobbing, day

 Real title at least 99.5 or so% of musicians are so thick it is tragic.

And if you are a Palestinian actually offensive to their whole lives, exactly as essayed here on the 8th of October 2023, the whole nonsense predicterated as if it wasn't the most obvious thing since sliced bread, that all that matters is does a Pally sleep well, as that's all that matters longterm  - even raising a supremely zenned kid (inner 'vibes' don't shift if you do it properly: with the right vibe)  who always slept well; nevertheless to actually BE there always, 'present' never any phone calls as only a few actual friend-parents had our landline and no mobile signal up in our hills, and have a large menageries for her and her lil' buddies, AND get them all out exploring the world, all on nearly no money and never any dole, and no help, and never moaning, I(and long ago accepting that the best price to pay is resetting your body clock to always be up at 0530ish as thats the only time you will ever send an email and it doesnt take half an hour to snailspace its way out of your box... ( 12 km from the  nearest 'exchange' and the wires goin' through very woody woods means always breaking and very lil' signal left by the time it got to us) at times one gets so shattered you are a dead husk of only prickly trousers such as those we had to wear for school in the 70s, and need a nap... 

But poor Pallies arent EVER going to be able to be 100% sure of a good nights sleep never mind napping opportunities in their days, forever...

if they hang out where, sadly, they 'lost' long ago...  there never being any solution, to biblical rage or mere land grabbing...

Anyway....  to hear (NOTE TO SELF  XXX THE STORY WRITERS BOOKLIST SOUNDED INTERESTING...listen again and take notes)

yet another really thick smug stupid old fart musician to make himself or them twin-selves look good, performatively moaning on behalf of a people who should long ago be assisted to bugger off elsewhere where they may SLEEP soundly even if in tent in a  desert ...'even'... god even i get stuck in their swamp, knowing,  what paradise that would be .... a couple of decent rugs and thats all you need as 8 1/2 of the last 16 years i have lived, and never moaned about: never any heating, 2010 and 11 weeks it went down to minus 15 sometimes 20..... winter 2022 plenty of minus 15 ...and a dose of the bug, that one that exists, but just gets milder as nature intended.... ......  so am a real prophet of what no one can profit off, buggering off where nobody else wants to own the land .... and if its rarely even frosty,  say in the Sinai (a chunk of it could have been long-leased for about 1% of the cash spent on bombs,  finding the bodies, rebuilding, healthcare  etc etc etc...some of which of course gets diverted into the world's sneakiest middleman's pocket - those Britolish brokering it all, from their Gwery houseboats or othersuch) . and i bet the Totnes 'therapists are queuing up for a lifetime cashin in, too)

     Winter (December–February): Cool to cold. Daytime temperatures range from 8°C to 20°C. Desert nights get very cold, and occasional frost or snow

" very cold...." really?... thats what your towny internet has poisoned you with...

Anyway it is in fact THE story of the last dull fifty years -  exactly how THICK the musicians are...

as i would see pottering around with the odd one in the back of the  hairyplane, of course they couldnt manage any REAL books.... 

novels that tell them what wankers they will become,  as sure as ferrits are ferrits, unless they work hard on it..

i do believe they even managed to get into the first one,  

 which includes if the translation is even half anti-Totnessian, a bit  correct, "Life, which you look for, you will never find..." nobody told the Toty tribe.... 

Anyway there is no hope as what 'really' happened:   take some effnic accents, feel really smug about getting their day in the sun, and say nothing that is any good  for any  human, smugly ...

(as in https://www.pseudeia.com/ god i forgot I'm meant to be building that one up or that i even had it.... and that i am wiser than AC Grayling who told me to my face he never even heard of that word... despite pontificating for hairspray cash in it - that language,  even on the Tube....  .i gotta get ORGANISED even better)...

so yes once again ...lastereve... take some stupid old musicians who think that on the basis of a few awful songs that their PR ligged into the charts, likely threatening the DJs with malice that unless they get airplay theyll get fried mars bars shoved up where it hurts.... 

and a load of performative audience who think that if they sing along with some of the worst songs in history they are 'giving it to the man'.... 

And it goes to their heads and they are probably more responsible for poor Palestinians who will never sleep well and thus can't use their either to MOVE on and start again as  you can only either face whats new, or death..pleasantly..not take any of it too seriously or to heart.....if you sleep well!. 

Anyway thats too long an intro for what known for decades but what an ultimate example of just how thick 99.99% are especially if in some 'minority' who got FAR more airplay than they ever earned, and of course use it for the worst of uses.... to proclaim how they care when theyre too thick to know what actually caring for Pallies so obviously means.... 

The Proclaimers on their new album, You May Offend

https://www.bbc.co.uk/sounds/play/m0031kqy

As must be my readership as this alone - link below,  is far wiser than anything all the West put together has said.  i know..i listen

and WILL be the eventual result,  but the 'hard way' - i.e. over a generation or so, BECAUSE of all these dire musicians thinking they are 'helping' when the problem that needs helping is THEY can't think

https://www.ralphschism.com/p/israel-palestine.html

and i do Socratically do a tad face-to-face and THEY agree with me...always... and paid with their time spent on listening a bit at least...

but i know ...the parasites are in the majority on earth, so of course you meanies win....