Thursday, 21 November 2024

disaster even if i do not use any melodramatic words for

 merely a to do list

SO ....so so so... (for years " how are you" .." i am ALWAYS alright" ) ... 


Or would be if i had a reliable plug for more than an hour in a quiet place


to look through pages and pages of posts to find my LOST WORD!

the more poetical version of "pixie" "mermaid" or the whole other bookful ever since the "space cadets" blessem ...ruined it all.

Except they didn't  - i am sure there is a parable about outliving the 'problem'... and if one has  - since 2007ish.. maintained a beautifully accurate poetical diary of their acts... neither 'bad' nor  their default "i am an angel/ Messiah / Joan of Arc / etc"  ...just ACTUAL acts - and effects..

then one has a decade worth of fabulously fun reflections to get sitting down to making a dogs dinner of.


BUT i have an illness/disorder/REALLYBADthing in my personality [they pretend they love ALL bad things  - as it makes them look good]...  that i am muvvafuckinmethodical and MUST find my word that arose here by magic 3ish weeks ago...

it is top of my list and has already taken one hour of looking back..


oh well...  (and it is NO pleasure - indeed the opposite - seriously - to see that some posts have it says here 75 or more views  [ though it always undestates its the weekly average that maybe is more real] which is VERY high for a load of waffle never ever promoted anywhere   and rarely even sent directly to anyone

Almost entirely word of mouth: mine to others face to face...

Only began as..... hmmmm... well, it is my will. And... recording a few things I KNOW no one else covers not for 'money' merely cos .. 

The Next generation haven't a hope unless they know some truth as to ...why...

Though i would far prefer to die of Iceblockism one winter evening and forget anyone exists...

 except of course for....


to becont

MASSIVE collage to put here soon of one day - yesterday

really big long audio ... 

Attempted sort of illustrated walk... 

And why not only church but farmers should both be taxed out of existence..

FACTS