Laughing at onesself bothering to keep fit, finearsed, and alive is the real joke

 

 real backlog to catch up on 

'Now' all their dreadful 'living in the moment' for a living, when it isn't, belies actual LIVING with the help of Little Ms no-shame annie ... 

I have actually ZERO interest in ANY of their  playground - almost a 'proving ground' for the latest show-off equipment out of the cowboy hat catalogue,   or super hitech sunglasses, or .... the latest so ugly fancy 'waterproof' backpack for going down to the sea for a dip...

It's all so so ugly...

And i understand the .... psychogeography, is not what they play at...

30 Jan all that matters is a simple breakfast 

(sliced butter if you live in rural lands no fridge  you get used to decades ago)

back to the point  - at the moment just randomly clearing my desktop of quickly copied snaps the best ones will take much more time.... quietly sat at dawn...

with a plug

Have we 'done' this yet? even yesteraft.... It is quite astonishingly ugly how even winter in a damp place they just must be seen with their hydraterism disease.... a real "human" has 5 cups of black coffee by earlymorn and that is quite enough for the day thank you very much....

never mind every so called 'green' has the RIGHT to cash in....

one day i shall make a collage of ... oops there isnt enough internet to bag up the endless PR sales of 'nature'  strange really how few actually even Be in it

I know as i flaneur around it continually

ohh yes now..... 

 I didnt know quite how far the vomiting "ceremonial"  bullshit, that clearly doesn't 'work' as i see, the 'insights' are merely chimeras or halucinations or.. dreams, which have nothing to do with reality....  had infiltrated even my once respected podspeaker.... 

 

I mustnt even look up it is even viler ... here/there

(whata  splendid find... illegal nowadays due the gobs of the protectorate ...one day i shall do that essay 20 years in the pad)

3 january thisteryear 

Now 

all that matters

So Ralphschism began Feb before last.

2023

I recall the exact date

Blockerday

The first

Just as... " maybe i can jot something that may... still 'connect'..i know a good mind but..."

Anyway as it seems Yuckhart, Mister Left-brain ...all the awful in"human" so called thought-leaders nope they are addictive  - as bad for the mind as all drugs...  merely a sugar-rush, or as all drugs are, escape, from ..reality

" I  hope ... he freezes to death,.. to suggest I am perraps not telling all my truth....  die cunt die.."

  Anyway such is life but all i know for a fact  even if it doesn't really make one smile much is just occasionally checking the now-weather with the now-weather, there...

Back in old region

January even early Feb

i don't have screen time to weed out the snaps for a few better ones so splurge is ones middle name necessarily, which IS the key to 'mental health' - stop caring about appearances...

I do believe only one morning thisterwinter ice on the screen

when last region there would have been weeks of zero which does get you eventually...

In other words I am only still alive easily through third winter in unheated snailshell slowly meandering (never more than 45mph my my they hate that in kidultcounty the way they all drive right up your bum - almost by default,  when there is hardly ever anywhere to overtake, and the roads are often narrow,  really does.....sum up a land of spoiled 'entitled' children....  which is of course not good for you... but could one say " well i like life and want to live more of it" ? of course not.... but only one person had wonky 'second sight' not seeing very far ahead, that .... if one means what one says, well.... it means you stay put [ish] in warmer climes that lead to longer life... never mind, is the cause of mine bein longer)

Good for me

Anyway now its glorious plus twelve maybe i can get to my memoirs.  Which include some woven-in  free-as-you go wry observation of reality, but the language of "birds"  or any way of just maybe  jamming appropriate word-picture - real ones.... is hard.

Even if a year ago i knew the only native "bird" there is that in fact just is

and it;s a free country.

One of these

(many filmed studies to come one day, soon)

But i take language and actual REAL history seriously; so, so 

sadly even this lexicon isn't quite the right one to 'share'.

Well it is and it isn't; at one level of course one isn't allowed to rock the boat and share 'truth' (of so much obvious unhappiness)  as so many 'bought in' to the Disney version of down here... just like they did in Stepford.

( i January researched )

What can i say other than its kindof extraordinary that just like last region  - why i actually schismd a decade ago.... almost every middle aged person you meet has 'depression' and they really enjoy telling you, too...

Perhaps it is their 'identity'....  

I know it's their currency

Thing is none would know or listen if you don't buy in you are as rich as Croesus, even when starving

Which is terrible, stilted, jotting, from me.....  but that's ok, as some years ago i did find the key, to most of the time letting go into actually being helped.... 

By something one can perhaps never even find the words to describe...but i do know it is real.

and the answer to all their 'mental illnesses'.... 

So says the person whom  twenty years ago and on, off then seriously on,  had every single 'risk factor'  DSM or the lanyardists could dream up....

But not a twinge.