Ralph Schism: Pneuma that's an ok neutral word (twenty twenty)

"Now.."

There is nothing worse than knowing, now I really...(it should be 'one' really, as i know i am nothing special) do have to get powering up to Now... because there is nothing worse for the 'mental health' than knowing in fact there is anothertoo, whom....

'gets' it as she does live 'it'...: being an older thing and absolutely living in the 'now' of "now I am so much better off for having gone bankrupt, lost it all...or most of it...and am 85% of the way to fully simplifying, totally, and certainly not needing any clothes because i like my older bod.."

Which sounds rather 60s hippie when in fact it is quite the reverse, in a 'now' way... and it certainly means I have a responsibility to write the handbook, guiding one, even if just one....

But you have to really start with the problem... perhaps one could call it the Tollosphere...

I observe them and not one has actual 'flow' or poise and grace ... and surely if there are any for whom Eckheart's heartless, neigh childless candy floss, did 'nourish' [ another one of their latter day, to me, errata us, n words] well one would see them around here...

nope.

Fact.

And (i cannot say as it's too small a world, that of theirs) ... talk about the (our) perfect archetype of whom exactly is the archetypical bloody problem.... fakin' "community" zen perfection.... for cash.

(i must get her to write up fully this archetype as of course a man cannot possibly constructively critique.... just how old she looks compared to my near-equal... )

And fine thing she is shetoo knows that....

Well there are rural jobs where you really DO need two on site for 'protection' (don't lose my mental riff on that word a few days ago, which lives in the box of photos of how every single incomming bloke down here - started lasterregion so its not geolocated, must go on a 'chainsawing course' so as to buy ALL the garish special expensive 'protection' just to chop up some twigs...

(by not being 'protected', neigh i have never even worn tough workman boots, for many a month very hard caveman work luggiing around fallen trees quite alone.... one learns the soft way - is there an opposite of 'hard way'? to be ALWAYS SO TOTALLY 100% IN THE MOMENT and aware of what could go wrong in the next moment if you put your leg there resting on that branch which looks sturdy but may slide in the mud the other side...

you develop xray vision and radar for ALL the things that could go wrong and cause your leg to be chopped off, which no 'protection' protects you against...

And then there are the little small things....

Now

The video clip below is one of 100s entitled starting a decade ago .. why one needs an actual [wife] committed uvva half...

(even if this one is not very good and i have a hoarse throaty thing, but it takes many hours to sort and i havent stopped being a fool who thinks i should Odyssey on just a tad, so every day is a new foolery day of hope and movement.. and need rehab... )

If you live in rural fringes as i have 3/4 of my life, the other 1/4 highly sophisticated so dont fuck with me and think I am a yokel as i am the only modern person i know...

you know what are the admittedly few actual beastie problems and the main one is doing your wood in the summer - rather than buying the most overpriced bags of a few twigs ive ever seen in my life, in Pastylan... nope (smiley!) she licensed me i should just call it the Cretosphere....

Then THE number 1 danger is cutting into or just disturbing a wasps nest and when you live on a swamp as i did (there is SO much history in that sentence - another day....why did Lord Oxford build here? oops there..... the largest stately pile for many leagues: ONLY to show off the history books dont tell you that.. 100% clearly sugar-crazy, even then around 1750ish...)

It is astonishing how quickly a nest full of sleeps wasps (or maybe her hornets she so impressed me at being unfazed by the buzz, i remember) will awake and know exactly which fucker they all need to be stinging en masse and its not so much they will kill you mass stinging ( how to tell a WELL brought up country lass: buzz... see if they close their mouths. As a well brought up one is bribed/whipped, LOVINGLY parented in THE moment, whatever [incredible how few were parented in this first rule of the cuntry code of how to stay alive, really astonishing....to busy doing 'natural' moon or star charts to actually do REAL nature for their kids] into learning that the one place a sting kills is on the tongue... amazing how quick it swells and you suffocate to death)

Nope if you were to be suddenly mass stung whilst doing a job which may hurt you if you drop a part of the job or chainsaw on your leg then you may need a tourniquet or mouth to mouth...so some jobs really you do have to plan for the moment aftter 'now'... but my ohh my finding one who will committ to the country code of some jobs it's human to have two - one at the watchtower...

Impossible

especially after the Tolloshere ( I do think Coelho was the first of these plague of riverrats ... carrying deadly viruses that wiped out all "community" - the real version

that which is by necessity

not voluntary

(for your instapix)

The one that does make me laugh though - it really is "human" 101 if thats the naff rightphrase?

If you live alone.... as Clare did at Ey*ood... for many years.... it is quite extraordinary how the RAchman Landlords and others like her mad ex partner of many years.... Mister make-a-racket to clogfoot the fancy pantsers..

They behave towards you far far far more unpleasantly than if you are in a couple...

And they're not stupid they all know where the 'legal' line is... so they stay just their side of it.

This however is completely gender-neutral ... unless you go around saying things suggesting you are a witch rather than just a silly lonely old woman who once had a full deck, of tarot... which doubtless failed to future tell you how now you just pushed everyone half ok away so guess what... come gentrification (one of 5 or 6 places dotted around) ...you first in the queue couples left until last as they mjst be treated far more with kid gloves as two... can bite back harder, and may still have some serviceable teeth left....as all landlords are fully aware..

Exactly the same FACT of life applies in all sorts of arenas be it the copshop, Citizens Advice centre (errata The Greens failed to notice they were getting closed and no volunteer could be bothered to kick upa fuss) even doctor, and CERYTAINLY at the school...

Anyway one day i shall attempt to write the guide book to where no one wants to go as they thought they had manifested some new form of "human" where all the old rules (sadly i lamenteth) no longer apply....

One small problem, they maybe forgot to think, or observe... those who own the land houses rivers polluting farms... cops courts and bigpharama... ehh... their bookshelves or i should say Netflix as only 2% of us actually read real books any more... are full of gobby fat Eastenders kind of nonsense...(that isn't to the great majority amnd the funny thing about accusing your gaolers of being in the 'elite' is that you don't know what that means if you don't research SOME of what the...majority.. is manifestly made into) where I am quite sure even they manage the odd joke at Eckhearts Now...

Stories, of simplifying.... soon

But really it is all just about, fifteen years ago, "now.... all i need is one kettle of water and a black farmersized bucket, and ...more important things to do than fret over circumstances reduced to one bucket of warm water ...is QUITE adequate for a wonderful full shower and rinse, in fact feels like a true LUXURY .. once you have adapted to, now..."