now... an actual "human"
I don't know what to call my ideology...
Though Esteemist, the real version, as discovered, on the hoof
(actually on the hoof - i awake EVERY dawn knowing full well 100% no point ever muttering a word to anyone or about anything as this land went very very somatic.... the true 'toxic' version, yonks ago... as the wonderful BAbbsScot knows too....she is such a loyal 'subject'.... out with a top opera singer lastereve i hear over the wires...[randomly, we have NO aforethought ever, we just...accpet 100% ...all]
I need one!
substack audio if needing to fall asleep on the beech to someone other than
Psychadelix Sam....
its even more boring and monotone
But what a discovery that required real philosophy
(as i tell them all " love one who can't get back in, yet, or at leasted committedto.... but that doesnt mean i dont keep in practice by proposing a marriage of pasportal convenience to at least three Germans a day... " and they ALWAYS smile and want to know why, and more.... so i tease them their neighbour Thommy the Austrian sorry was a bit better than Herman .... and Pilcher indeed still exists in the absurd sports car drivin' 45 year old 'birds' you see a lot of down here.... born in London as Mummy didn' actually trust the whorespittals at her holday home poshbirdy lands stolen from the fine 'soft' Cornish indigenouses..i know a few! ... bough on Babcock or L'Oreal share cash....in the family trust for decades.... but lies she is 'from' here as it sounds good on radio 4 chan...and my my she has the ultimate look, and a MArks and Spencers Foodhalls jute bag that has edges as icicle sharp as her radar for ever bein' though of not.... siuperior.... behind Ascot hat and of course always perfect better-than- Sophia Lorenish shades - shading the eyes of a REAL woman who desrved to play with us through them )
The big plop .. that got cut off in my prime
actually has random encounter with the only unfriendly humpoourless Kraut even if i got a free sugar toxic bun off her...
But i wondered.... "why?" .. have i met the only one in period pain..? or ...
Then it dawned... thirty years here, of course....
That's what thirty years here does, To even the most wonderful balanced deep never-take-it-to heart.. 'race'...
(as i always stick in line 5 of my standard make-Eu 'FRIENDS' - thats the real version not FAkebook one all vudu addicted Fs think they have via the dopamine..: " my wandering around your lands in the 80s and 90s.... i always fiound a young German beardy at a cafe was THE most civilised progressed person on the planet....MATURE... seemed at least a decade older than his British contemporary.... real books, real learning and of course the biggie you are a society who learned from past mistakes... " the man who had walked up from Kenya yesteraft knew i spoke true he loved, his, and agreed...
" mate you got off at the RIGHT stop... and shut up lassie about your 'far right' problem.... thats just Former Sovs adjustin'.. real change maybe takes 50 years anyway they'll only ever get 30% as Marine found out....
just pretend they dont exist, in this century... you are the perfect picture of only beautiful modernity... ")
SO yes its tragic.but i needed to know....
(and the rest can be heard, too, soon, compare and contrast, fine funny Germans here visiitin' and those stuck here 30 years hardly gota smile out of her...now i understand) . thirty years .... and if anything i am genius at chattin' up krauts i mean world class... they have this little lookj at the end of sentence 2 .. but by 3 1/2 they melt with real fellowship and solidarity.. but not her my my what a heffagrump...
i wonder if 10 years does the same... possibly..)
Anyway all i know...
A woman in 2010 called me a "genius" - this was entirely wrong.
You would have to know the 'class' aspects to understand.
And is a magnificent work of art in a book when i leave this land...
as she never read books, but wrote truly shit vudu ones
to her any actual sitting there with a bit o lit is intimidating
especially if you are as so many sad English were very abused as a child in underclassville
except...i dont think it WAS actually 'dad'...
But what class based words mean is if you have stolen thieved lied all the way to half a mil in your pocketbook
and i admire the survivor and recreation aspect
amazing actress
especially on 'the' stange....
what it means is you are a genius AND i will destroy you
failed.
indeed did the opposite, in many artful ways... my art i mean.
Same sad one also said " you are a walking work of performance art"
definately 100% wrong.
As when one is witha beloved child one actually cares for dawn til dusk it is no performance
Merely something she had never seen before in her boho bad artist boyfriend'ssss. whole fake boho world.
But it wasn't just that.
I only care about potentially EQUAL "birds" guess not possible to find here...
Even if FS...
BUt the class...aspect
I am a faraid they never tauught her at how0-to-sppeak posh class...
infact if they had electrocuted her within a smoking wire of her death she still wouldnt have been able to understand
once even the yanks could play with words so simply
perefectly
NOT tellin you what to think....
Its the utter gorgeous ' what the fuck does that mean... bit on drugs but in fact actual poetry'
of i need you more than want you but want you for all time...
No 'lower' class Brritolite could begin to word wrap like that ...
its just the way it is
i guess 'esteem'.. they have to TRY to hard
(to get the bling
poor things brainwashed is the only way to compete
with her, yesteraft no more prerfect an example
Anyway all i know one calling
would be to set up a bolstering school
Because i did meet her i KNOW she wasnt a selkie witch in the best witch cosie EVER at the most romantic conceivable setting ever in the universe...
In her stella way... here thirty years too... she had
broken through
she could play with words too..
indeed fold them in and out of maybe meaning
like the Northern Lights on a perefect stella
dawn
and sleepytime
too
right all i know is that if you DO 'believe'
when yestearmorn i awoke at 4 .. " fuck too early biut get on with what needs to be done"
and thistermorn after 9 hours once again
heaven returns as if you never left.
oops cant see screen - i always write in the sun when it is out...
you'll have to figure the typos
me i got better things to do...
especially when fully Sleep made up
i make nothing up yes thats the real interesting bit to come
" genius" nope... no way!
'performance artist'...nope... except.....
one day it became necessary despite every atom of my inner stardust HATING all acting in every way
bit the 'common good' means
you learn NOT to be yourself
if that self wouldn't do
