now there's a parable in this.. even if not yet able to get to finess 'em
But now back to the sequence... even if things from two years ago still to add in - every single one, nearly..i still have in mind..
Yet always sleep perfectly. Something one cannot say for nearly everyone i meet... so your society simply doesn't work..
Back to the one hardest thing to ever put into words:
Kindof 'discovered' nearly ten years ago. But especially this lasteryear.. time and again:
Very hard to put into words. But "change" time means becoming better than MAybe, Gladwell, whatsisface forgettable Mister "The Rivers are Alive"... a whole litany of them littering your coffee tables, no more useful than a coaster
(to use her word 15 years ago - fair dinkum she was at least sane when it came to one useful 'insight'..)
So in reality four years vaggabonding in a way no one would ever guess one is vanloping along vagabonding
And alnyway ALL i care about for myself is https://landlope.com/
(still needs to be fixed as they CHANGED the domAIN HOSTER AND THUS OF COURSE ITS NOW TEN TIMES MORE COMPLICATED WHICH TAKES TEN HOURS PLUGGED IN FIGURING THEIR SAD LITTLE TECHY NERD WORDS ..OOPS ACC CAP I COULDNT CARE EXCEPt if you trust them to run the world by AI yer nuts... i was expert enough.... and its so hacked and worse than ever... theres no hope...no aristo Englishman can ever bear to hear... as theytoo are merely children)
walking... 50km a week on average ... and i have slipped behind for the first time in a decade which now must be resolved even if Smiley beckoned me from afar I'm not so sure....
One cannot be part or even guide a bit "change" unless one has best poss bounce and momentum via The Track or some other quiet vehicle noise free walking region
And it keeps your bum in best poss shape..
Never mind these SO SO neurotic Londoners now everywhere even in my best quiet atch
its obvious they literally live on a hair spring of even at 6am " my perfectly ironed new blouson jacket and precisely shaved head and aftershave... and extremely expensive new wetsuit with glued in expensive wellies ...and showoff 50 grand 'custom' van... don't you dare for a second think i dont own all of this,..... [nothing].. swagger.."
They are so so utterly lost and out of their 'territory' they swan around here making out its only THEIR 'territory' ive never known anywhere so laughably puerile..
poor Smiley woman they did indeed steal every inch..
Except i have found many sq km they never dare intrepidate into as its got..nettles and wildflowers and even bees around...
nature..only for their picto-grams- of weighless nothing
Anyway back to the point: there is a state... Maybe, Humble, H is For HAwk, MAcdonald.. all that awful gang of twonies tryin' to meonetise... never mind De Botty, Fuller and his awful aftershave smellin' mancamps of 'Rebel Wisdom' could not ever imagine
never mind translate:
It is the almost opposite of smiley zen, for Instagram
or whatever your poison, dopamine addiction
It is ... not active 'stoicism' which has become fashionable via some latterday De Botty, a kind of " i am stoical and look at my George Michael bumfluff stubble which proves it"
(Botain for new arrivals - really you can't just dip in here you have to go back to page one as words and themes randomly develop even if every single one is connected...to THE two simple things that do need to "change" ..i been at this full time five years never mind five minutes!..in fact ten really)
It is appearing 100% normal (other than i wouldnt waste a penny on the compulsory expensive adventure gear and silly hats [ except hers .. ITW swim.. in fact it drew my eyes to the very brightest eyes below the brow]....... in fact almost all the clothing new....silly mirrored sunglasses everywhere ... i guess they can only mate if theyre with a fellow silly be-mirrored and can see themselves reflected in his/her eye..wear... even if i have the only non-trendy not new [chemical exuding as all new special products do]
rucksack... that isn't officially an 'antique' from CAmden Market - thats though more of a compulsory lezzie thing...
hot free tip if thats your thing its a free world there is defo a website that (as i have so many times amused folk chatting on The Track - they get FIRST dibs at the speeches!) .. " want a romantic elite exclusive getaway with your new girfriend you randy old [they almost all are] thing...or somewhere to try out the new facelift smiling at passing possible girlie friends..... go to St Just... just about to be voted top lezzie getaway heaven on the planet... [when the rather bigot locals - resist almost ANY thing...new... from even the 20th c.... have been put down]..."
but its not free its megga bucks so elitism ensured..
Anyway where was i..
Be as ordinary as possible
Discuss endlessly SIMPLE oldshool things we knew decades ago
" ...'change'... is needed a b c... its obvious"
great quick shortcut speeches describing a year speaking with fabulous Euro mum"birds" on The Track who dont have
false allegations (i have met SO many British school teachers who are in trauma at the falsies they have had against them in the schools, playgrounds or cul de sac)
self harm
mental health
all those LABELS!!!!!
sexual 'identity' questions - all good fun but do not EVER make permanent "change" til well into adulthood i changed 100% my opinion at 30 actually living with some infants and only then discovered io loved every single one ever it WAS me all along i had no idea as i had never even MET any as Mr Elite effete Atomised genius identity..
etc
Anyway waste of time speaking with any English and often dangerous... Europeans the opposite they love a proper chat and to find out information... the real version
But... all i care about is my enjoyment of myself...
And... the funny thing is its all the very opposite of what the 'life coaches' state...
when one has been bang on a fine good course for months even years...
and often, always..it all comes to nothing....and you know a few who you have attempted to bolster and nudge in a really great way - starting out by pointing out their unique plus points and TELLING STORIES to backup mere opinions that elevate them...
And time and again it comes to nihil
real nihilist 'nothing'...
And the weather turns.... and there's no hope of any new chat on The Track..
nothing around the corner.... except where do i handwash my (simple life to have got it down to 2 pairs undies 2 pairs shorts and a few shirts is paradise! and i 30 years ago needed my 'wardrobe'..albeit humble even then)
It ends up a sort of rather sweet positive energy coming out of that place almost always in fact always....
I need to describe it - exactly what it is...
(though there is NOTHING in any machine ever in this.... it is not even for a millisecond caring or having any negative vibration at the last gasp failed https://mendicantralph.blogspot.com/2025/04/crowdfunder-write-up-3-april-2025.html )
... wanting to live on in this exact mode at least some of the time...for good...as it is only good... only... there is nothing in any way bad... and its the best mode for genuinely quite ok philosophical thought but never overclaiming any 'insight'...
Nothing matters except could one possibly just leave one sma;llest useful "change" making idea behind...
ideally jabbed out into 'society' as collaboration with A N Other...
BUt that that seemingly cannot ever happen...
well.. that's no 'disappointment' the lack of anything real seems to almost give extra inner 'bounce' ..just enough of the time..
You don't want inner bounce always as tat would mask the loveliness when it comes back...
only when one knows one has wasted ones time on EVERY one...
(ive liaised kindof like the Smiler moment 100 times over the last 10 years...always innocent to attempt to find allies or just those on the same page...
i even learned to make them laugh - a miracle i couldnt do that a decade ago
but almost always can nowadays..i mean laugh properly at slightly risque rhetoric
But it never works.. they seem unable to 'follow through' or even STAY on the same page they themselves have said a great starting place and well rit page 1 of what we need to do (.i.e. described by me in careful even funny language for effect)
nope....
but the nihil of it is can be so mindful ..is...and i never use that word
but its NOT 'Buddhist' bullshit (who in Bhutan, alone, MAY allow women priests ..the rest of em sex enslaving pigs) zen
Its now-zen...absolutely of THIS time total living on well, despite the nihil...
shame i can't sell it
but thats the point, its actually priceless....
And certainly contrary to anything even i a few decades ago may believe the REAL 'meaning' of this dull ONLY life (the space cadets all of course believing they'll live forever and have parallel world ones.. another of THE problems - the space cadets ran the River Wye and other Green initiatives...which means they ran nothing as they dont care about 'this' life)
and certainly even better than my man's title Eric Fromm
To Have or To Be
It's just 'be'ing of course; but 'being', despite ..i am afraid.. that's kindof the real key.... silly methinks
shame not the key to a rottin' pile of wood along a very very saddest place i ever saw, quay..
(oops she'll think i wanted IT - her wooden crutch...and real identity masking tape..... never! i want NOTHING material ever... just someone on the same page - page 1 + 2 = 3)
THE LAND
THE JOB
film n photos next
it will be one massive long enjoyable PARABLE
for many things
when i can
