when the 'energy' comes good or (what was the word i heard the other day..... ? it's one of this Narniac words about all is yummy.....cacaista, fancy dungarista words.....i forget for now...)
That you won't get from any reiki Mistress or pisstakin' so called best artist...
(i haven't forgetten him.... nor his Kurteeny...as it really is also THE one thing i needed to hear with my own ears: " ohhh ive just got back from my shamanism workshop..." i mean even the English Public Schoolgirl laughed..later... when she should have to her lined and sour Rachman Landlordess face...)
So you never know when you feel 95% mojo as i always do every day for years at dawn..maybe excepting just a few, you can hear soon...
or 100%
And despite a night at the worst atch of white van building men, jealous of them with the compulsory great big pickup..
mojo, 110.
And there are SO many small chippy vidclips from a whole year but my illness is when as i do i have to retain ALL trains of thought in memory - not even enough time to keep a 'matrix' of whats said when and whether its been uploaded or note form drafted...
I forget after about 3 days what is said where (and there is a REAL LIFE ongoing riff, too... much of which is relevant and rather fun) and thus must either listen again to my own video clips - not fun, before uploading or wing it trying to remember whats been uploaded and what said..
but of course i missrecall and so some jotting assumes you the poor reader i wish only to blow your fuse,too.... i may discombobulate with things referred to that haven't yet even been shared with youtoo...
But so what you're so dumbed down you don't even want to pay for something (especially Substack though i cannot know who listens - all i do know is that nobody pays..in respect of the Poland offering the reason you'll be fried
one day and you won't even know why... thats no way to die!
i am the lucky one, mine, i shall understand every last breath..
as i did the real last-breath work long ago)
Anyway esteem is when all you care about is some twee lovely yummy artistic flow... which requires other clips around or aside some bigjobs ...and it's impossible thus far to even begin to do all you plan, and all is ruined by chucking in a scattergun of just a few
But then i konow what the bigger picture is, and is also in my can...
what the hell i no longer give a damn
but do try...
always, no excuse...
well, ten years one....
lo9ng ago i knew every single second that can be saved..
but til this summer didnt know quite how awful the fake vanmen weretoo...
in a bit himtoo....
soon
though i needn't really cross-matric evidence...
I just know nobody CAN broadcast even simple frugal thrifty, sense...
So you can have part one a bit later
