big fat thinman in the hills video to go up today or later..
Now a real zen-master, or in fact REALzen master... and sadly i don't think that term can be non binary.... which is why the small farms, best for THE environent and environmental movement were destroyed long ago...however i know hummn behaviour as i read advanced read-between-the lines evolutionary biol, evolpsych and anthrop decades ago properly... which means think for yourself, how, being non sweet little ancestor-effnix they are bound to be wrong...
which they are.... here was no 'hunter gatherer' there was a 'gatherer hunter' who got most of their protein fro gathered crustacea moules marina and all that plus 'fallen' stock a fancy farer word for dead meat... 'ts SO much easier to go and cut off mammoth bollocks for the BArby if it has keeled over dead, and still edible for at least a week, and a load of buzzards 'signal' mysteriously as if by magic.. they want a chunk, too...
Try living in rural lands very much aside where a M+S shoplifter would get ostritch egged (too) for life belkieve me prekilled grub on road or even riverbank is very appealing...
And of course occasionally - which in 'geological time' means for a second maybe three times a year, if human evolution goes back say 5 mil years = 1 year.. some very bored caveperson, tired of the showofff antics of the showoffs who do it themselves with spears and all that.... draws a satirical mural about the plonkers wasting all that precious 'energy'...
(and you only need to bump off about 3 mammoths a year in a country for the whole lot to disappear after maybe 10 or 20 thou years... scientific FACT though a guesstimate but the 'stress' on the population only has to be minor for over longish timespans an actual Jenny Cider to happen..)
ehh yes i am SO behind an important schedule that likely i wont remember what i forgot to finish yesteraft in 2 non stop fun hours...
so yes ehhhh.... the terroristic 'narcissism' which pervades all these places...
every other fey word "listen" when they cannot even remember one thing you have said....quite succinctly aqnd pleasantly put even if a tad pointed for their filtration system trained on DeBotty's fake smileyness....
god forbid don't be a non-DeBotty...
or non-charlie
anyway i have frequently told the various sidecicks a range of reasons why no actual real man of the land can ever find any fellow ferrit to snuggle up to and go pack huntin; with gaily every day...
indeed a list:
1. they ALL utterly hate fighters (for 'rights', or anything in fact) ..standard psychology tells us exactly why that is.. even wonky Freud and their god whatsisface Jung worked that out...
2. it took me 10 years to be told by the only honest one (LOST to him - meaning i gave her to him but he nearly destroyed her with him being him, the evil smiley 'lifecoach' 16 years ago.... from down here don't think i dont have a mamouth sized memory any way Sal told me: "dont think English women actually LIKE children you may have in tow, of other women havent you worked that one out yet... wanker?!?.." and i hadnt as i am not a cynic neigh rather a fool..
(she was a REAL lithe tough countrywoman with superb veg grown at 400m in midwales and no shelter that takes some doin'...born with dirt under her fingernails by default so in The Sourceland i cannot be argued with on that one and my my they want to fight EVERY smallest word they are so so so so happy inside with all that self care and wellness...)
and a few other things
BUT ..REALzen mastering i dont expect them to remeber that one as in fact they clearly are addiocted to their chaos despite all the aromatherapy and jostix or whatever - not me i like pure zenny cleanliness and organisation...but i a balanced way....= now'nagain...
So even if i have told this to one or two it ay as well be exclusive to you here for free: actual happy goodness in ones 'space' is when one is stuck for years in the WORST place in the world, previously within 10km of Hay-on-Wye... the Utterest Shabbymost shithole .... of not even 'hasbeens' but never got to be anything other than parroting shit books to show off...
indeed not just 'stoicism' a word i dont use as its far too beardy and craft beery.. but persistence being nobody and absolutely knowing for sure one is in the wrong place to be alive, does indeed add or maybe even create depth, mindfulness, the real centred version and especially creativity... indeed gives a kind of inverse 'energy' every other word they parrot when the 'energy' actually comes from knowing theyre all dead parrots or worse, still exuding poisonous fumes even long long passed 'on'...
So... finding sommehwre even worse...
THE shared lexicon is SO SO hard though as none of them have read any decent lit or seen any decent films even Walkabout featuring Miss Agutters fabulous gusset...and some dark man who died.. a perfect intelligent movie
at least there is one thing you can say even in the even dumber down south South West and they do knopw what you mean - or about 75% do... " ehh ask e its the ashrams that are the problem"
Most - 75% give a knowing knowingness yes anyone whos been within a days walk on hot coals from one of "them" has heard the screams out the back door at the staff " WHAT ,....you let HER escape without getting your nails into her neck and extracting at least half a new grass huts worth of her loot.... go and starve yourself on a retreat detox for a week in shame in the coal cellar and make it a silent one or else!"
and the Cortnan witch met her cowitch on one hahh hahhh (that didnt come from e i aint no gossipy bitch i know the EXACT line of what needs to be in the public domain and what is just to joke about as a universal)
wwooff wwooff.. give the slave a bone, only if she works harder for our profitable enterprise so we can claim the vat back on the next unnecessary 4wd...ohhh two of them, his AND hers... despite only two of them and perfectly paved roads to the beach 3km away ...
Anyway a video in the can theres loads in the can about that kind of stuff and how TRUE HILLWALKING ZEN AND HAPPINESS is when you are somewhere where you knopw you cannot coceivably by definition have ANY kind of commonality on their 'common' most are prob banned from anyway as bad customers... that is the best place to be of all.
to be and live forever in the Utterly worst PArt of all
I mean Hatesville looks like a shabby Butlins compared to the true experts at thought control and image control and.....control..
which in standard psych is always the tool of a weak person... so they may be flaccid fro all the vomvom, too...all the retchin; takes it out of you and defers belly laughter to full recovery when you know you were just lost and a sucker...up of all that whatever
(all i wish, to 'heal' her.. except there's a right and wrong way... coincidence Mrs disgraced Walker is said to live up above said Shitcreek...methinks not..))
anyway the pathetic little halfie cousin down boot..
Go to the Uttermost....to be at ones happy, poetical, creative, most...
Bit complex for the flatlanders who can only think in their one dimension or indeed errata, singularity. Them...
But as if reminder by the muses on drugs....he was sent this morningas THE most gorgeous example of when it all started - by them hims.......then her almost better.
Later
