Wednesday, 9 September 2026

All i 'want' to do is.... well, i did, then

 ...even if i can't yet prove it but i know the proofs exist...


But in the meantime one can only pity the 'analytics' generation. Neither 'z' nor 'x' theyre all the same: " ooohhh look that post/vid/tiktok, whatever next..  went viral load of fabulous lots of clicks..." 

I have a wonderful story from twenty ten, annus 'orridus, when the last laugh was entirely on me, jotting daily, pressing the wrong button " hmmm don't get it, one or two have said to my face, in fact one main one, embedded in the Hay-on-wye 'community' of nothing but meanness and ...well she proved it leaving a bag of grub for me - horrid sweeties and other such stuff, all stale and well past their sell by, century... but she said she reads liesdamage daily and laughs at my correct appraisal of that utter lack of community..caranage, damage... Masonic-adjacent, insanity.. but it only shows a view  or so a day....she must be lyingtoo..."

when press some other button

 some months later on 

"ferk that's scary....

thousands often, many a  day..."

Which ultimately does you NO good - especially when you worry about the proportion of Masons checking in to see how rude one can be about their obvious fascism-lite,  around the Brecon region. Hay Festival complicit funding the PRIVATE school there, when the state school was the worst presented in the universe - many a pic on Liesdamage of the peeling paint that had been peeling at least a  decade.... HAy Festival faking  - in fact worse than faking, being complicit in Jenny's Cidere...  " we care about all the children of the region, and are so so inclusive of THEM.... especially in Wales... " But they only get to be used as brochure and advertorial material (bet they got a commission! in Florences back one) ....showcased.....if they are at the private one... Brecon High being the nearest state school to them, in Wales...

which of course feeds down into a higher mortality rate in Wales than average especially if one factors in which class got access to the moaning  bit of wireless 4 - very low life expectancy among them...

As no one told them they're moaning about the wrong thing...


Anyway.... ehh yes now it is DELIBERATE. As well as situational. Being to put an audio in substack bot farm it takes more battery. Even if one gets 'stats'. I always forget are there as talk about as usual those Yanks have an ok product but as soon as it gets a good review they go and stick so many 'extra' bells and whistles in it you can't even find the 'stats' page easily so i forget its there....

However with Google drive shared files - as in the audios i have kindly shared, for no dosh....  i dont think there is a download counter (you dont have to, i believe it is the simplest way of just inserting an audio into any page of digitals -the SCIENCE says even if Brett Weinstein, Heathers rather sad nerdy not-so-pacifisty bloke, and  so called scientist wants to argue with it,  paper =- goes in to your mean mind say X  times 3, audio X times two...and via the screen its just like X....  scanned butterfly shit

 But the true freedom is that i have no idea if hundereds of my obviously return readers - that one can see as a pattern, more or less on European time, though i never even bother to look at the breakdown of states as i only care about the ones the other side of that silly sea, that the poor boatpeeps are going the wrong way across.... nor sex (it's NOT for men as they don't dare say ANYThing wise, ever and if they did would be drowned ...outed for something they once did, long long ago,  so they dont any more...and i am only interested in 'reaching' the one - is there just one, who may step up and DO.... its much easier than you think.... [to be cont]


audio entitled voice 21 7 sept what i want or something like that anyway i cannot know if nobody or a thousand listen to any audio i link which is in Oggle filestore...


https://drive.google.com/file/d/1eg1vEZZqYXZMRaNOPXwuBUy8on867GVU/view?usp=sharing


which is freedom and also really good for you: you just DO it anyway... the audience has nothing ever to do with you....

unless she, or she ...wants to DO what she-she said she wanted to ...be

and then one has been ready for that for many a year.

Meanwhile. waffle on.... though i do think that 'god' i may well have out philosophised already.... 

especially in audios.

the Google ones can't be monetised nor even 'analyticised' and a publisher told 'you're a dickhead unless you try me out...'

As i can't prove anything either way, i know NOTHING..

which is always freedom, except a tad exasperating when they whom all know Tolle...Eisenstein... ehhh... its all just Deepak slowed down.... or that awful Maharishi who stole The Beatles dosh... awful in that he failed to steal it ALL .... and leftovered some to ruin a next gen...
And anyway if the tables were reversed India had nicked half of the British silverwear somne centiuries back of course the Brits would have been on any old grift to get back that which was pinched..

I am amoral, other than the perverted evil way its all turned into some or other victimbait, false story....all based on an entirely wrong reading of almost everything in history, that we need a few things for our dignity...

Bullshit as Siddhartha did find...

And as yet TO DO...my version, of actually tending the human shit - bagging up sometimes twice a day that in a plastic bag, at the ' we have the latest organic loos for true ecocampers' load of lies and damage .... is even better. 

And real...and every word recorded, as i knew i would die of it.... having to bag and move their shit to where it would be burned later... or at least the plastic bags. The rest left around 7m, behind a hedge,  from where the  


(ooohh good song time..... the way those drums came in i wonder if my lass even remembers our dance to that bit)



And then guess what, i began to like it.... and was even, unpaid. Even if she said she would....