Which is far too 'male' a word for me, and my days...
Which almost always end at dusk - obviously in the winter a little later; and start with sunup
Now, i could make a fortune photographing the sundowns and ups of the region, as for many years I took myself, and previously lassie, aside, so as to suss out the topography and discover where the best places are so that if camping out in a van one gets the best early morning sun, which of course warms one up as soon as possible in the day.
Sunsets not quite so much a thing, as the sun isn't much 'use' after it looses its early evening power.
Though of course we may all sit and stare.
But if one enjoys ones day NO MATTER what...as i do... then by late afternoon one has used up all ones mojo, and at that time walking for bodily fitness is all that i am much good for..
or as in yestereve, two gathered
on a hill...with maps.
oooh that sounds suspicious
Except as the perfect last litmus, it is the final schism in the coffin...
Five years I have put up with their (as she rules that roost too despite her humble image)
neurotic bs...
But " bring a laptop to put the photos onto.." means, obviously "my power is limited, quicker to put them on a pen drive and.."
Nope...
when they are for THEM !!! And they are supposed to be preppers of a sort... and have half a dozen laptops...
And
There is no and. Because yesterday, in some superb, alive, funny filming of people in discussion with me, I asked the two most 'good burgher' people around and about, for assistance - not for me, because many years i quite deliberately avoid those using their 'puff' 'weed'...anything... which also includes 'shrooms' ... or even their NOT mind expanding voodoo fancy South American consciousness expanding drugs... that are so 'fashionable'...but i know they achieve no 'enlightenment' ...or even smallest tweak to the 'consciousness'...because..i have been too long among those quite unenlightened...
And many a time done real 'social work', asking especially in 2020 if these so called enlightened, may assist... nope, may as well be asking a Teletubby, dressed up in a toxic womble's costume
But yesterday was serious: broke 'cover'. Full story to three in fact good burghers...
" i deliberately have no knowledge of any drug world or counsellors this whole region...even if i know FULL WELL that starting with Hay-on-Wye 20 years ago the hard drugs overtook the whole region...North to South...
" apart from my ONLY concern psychologically healthy environments for children...especially my own [which means loadsa animals, loadsa being outdoors... no tv, no screens after lunchtime... yes there is a way! ...loadsa roaming the wild places in our old campervan...loasdsa west wales beachtime...and all on the most limited budget possible..LOADSA ENCOURAGING YOUR CHILD TO READ GOOD BOOKS ... THERE IS A WAY..!]
" i realised so so clever... such performance! ... truly interesting to behold... but bless, far more of a drug problem behind my back than i realised and i am lethally sharp, and notice everything... so, i need the name of the best professional in that world for 50 miles..i care..it is so sad that yet another lost to that sad habit..."
An di know: despite their smug so so 'community' orientation so plastered across their smiley faces...
None will even bother to ask around.
As i knew there was no real 'community' left in the rural fringes even, theme parks.... long ago. And yes mainly damaged by the so many space cadets over the years were even at times my friends..
Now that won't sound nice. Unless i tell the stories.
Which kindof began around 15 years ago...
Up around the truly sublime little pockets of bucolic loveliness around West Herefordshire, G ** way Hill area (don't want to even appear on google thank you very much) , and also ... well the supposedly rurally content 'aware' started to spread out up here, and...
But in the next bit, here, i have twenty years of essays, so please don't judge, yet...
some years of attempting to find better voices, only to pass on to my thoughtful young adult of a lass... who got to the best universities in the world, i know there are so few good voices left - Forget Jordan (i shall essay later on him) .. all the rest of his cult....clan, the English one Fuller the very worst...
But Meghan, generally (unless she is making personal insults about peoples appearance - that they were born with, as ion Sam Bankman-Fried a few months ago, in a professional broadcast, which, sorry...40 years ago we knew you did not ever do!...ever... no ifs no buts... )is still the best of the lot
And dozing off last night as a full stop - no more of any of them (my them that is) - with Lionel and Meg...
well, it is important: this whole 'alt' media thing years i have studied, simply no one can say "the sages of 200 years ago.. from George Elliot, Wordsworth, to Thoreau., Turner even...DH Lawrence, Bates.. - all of them... in fact it started with Montaigne centuries before.. THEY BECAME THE CUTTING EDGE NEW THINKERS BY LIVING A GOOD DEAL OF THE TIME VERY CLOSE TO NATURE!!!..."
And i mean they defined our new ways of thinking...
not patronised as some cute little homespun thing to entertain the city folk...no THEY - the thinkers and writers who were in the quiet rural places a lot LEAD the worldwide enlightened thought
But Lionel (huge reservations - because no yank can ever ever state what i have just stated...and she is so maudlin... )
At least they managed to get to..
what i saw and heard up on that Hill.. 15 or more years ago.." you must not generalise"
Well, it isn't a generalisation, it is a fact...
I know...still know a few of the female parents who started to speak like that. all their children are damaged, all their 'communities' utterly fucked as selfish little advantage seekers took over... more than statistically average they or their kids are signed off mentally ill, or signed off, dead..
And then i also know their other behaviours...as i used to sometimes do their truly sad tragic legal cases...
Of course the judges judging whether or not they are fit parents (only a couple of such deep dives but to make a point) to raise their children are 'generalising' too...
But the true 'problem': Each on e, and they swarm around Hay like flies to a corpse.. actually ask them (as i would do to get a feel for someone if they needed legal help) "what really good books have you read [defn Herman Hesse, or Rachel Cusk, or even Hannah Arendt...] ?.." they actually haven't read anything much since playschool... except "marketing crystal healing to herds of rich sheep that come to the area... because you came here first"
Things is.... if i tell them, when their many years friends screw them over for every last penny they have "Houellebecq wrote wonderful novels - quite readable, about among other things, how 'spirituality' got industrially taken over by mad charismatic deathcultists, years ago...so dont worry, bless...you are just victim [and perp but one cannot of course ever ever ever point to their little bits of actual child abuse in their kitchens, or other breaches of trades description act in the lousy potions at many quid a teaspoonful they concoct] of something we have known of for decades... "
Nope... none read anything that spreads deep simple philosophy and a bit of wisdom.. the real sort
