The first judgement
After our first actual communication.
But therein lirs the 'rub'
Or in simpler English, the thing, the problem.
As a lifelong thoughtful person born serious though have a decent respect for absurdist humour
One knew decades ago English ' literature' is a pathetic neurotic cityman game, weird, unpoetical, shocking just to 'shock' ... and latterly often riddled with homo stuff way over the official 3% allowance, proportionate to reality
and then they eulogise Madam jump-in-the-river self pitying, useless poet, Woolf
rather than Mrs Elliot who lived on until the bitter end and told us really what living LIFE is. despite the fuckers
Anyway litcrit another day, but finding not that much to read having read all Elliot, Hardy, fair few of The Russians age about 30ish ...
I started on science. Dawkins first.
ok fab writing and full of wonder... but later finding Jay Gould, Rose, Kamin, all groovy jewmen i later pondered ( my people) ...
in one word
" maybe" moje in Polski
mȍgūće (? they got THREE variants i love this mongrel language!!!!
and another može biti
fuck its complex
... science the best of it ( not including arrogant Dawkins) until around 20 years ago was peppered with " MAY...BE... this is how it is..."
Around 20 years ago it went over to
"this
"IS" how it
is"
another good example of how NOT to Be, is this "arrogant" twat retard
( my fall asleep talk lastereve)
so much of his ( world revered!) interpretation is " it is"
which is anti science and SO SO arrogant twat poor nanny-didnt-give-enough-hugs pityfully unesteemd British daddy too busy fiddling with hookers in London dressed as schoolgirls... ( i did research once at dome length in the basements of Bayswater " you want straight sex...no schoolgirl costume! get out of here we dont do that!!... thats weird!!!"
( it taking REAL inner strength to say može biti)
As even Smolin says " all my two string theories much modern physics relies on
may be
utterly wrong!!" ( keating interview 2021)
wonderful real scientist!!!
but this is not just about pop science, i study it even at real high level workaday professors ploddin along...
so few can accept nowadays their ' findings' may be completely overturned by the next scientist 10 years on who discovers other fundamental biochemical reasons for this that the other, or physics or hocuspocusvudu theory such as the various quantum theories
may Be
i was humble and UNarrogant enough to realise as gradually i waded through all of Dawkins' glorious writing
... but then stumbling across MUCH less showy fellow humble non self promoting writers as Jay Gould ( Esti i took you to see him 2007ish.. a lovely talk)
i knew it was all a lot more .."may Be" ... and saw just how arrogant especially EVEN british scientists had become ..
" even"... science IS! " may Be" there are so do many beautiful examples of tbem having to change their minds
as they discover a second next more real reality
only humble folk love all that as i did from 32 years ago..as she arrived these arrogant shores
so she was right about one thing
But of course the arrogance " you must do ayahoonyasca once or you are not aware awake" etcetc bullshit polluted hertoo i ...
know
but then i also know what may Be means
theres always tomorrow
