(thistermorn, 'embedded' video within these Odyssian pages just between me and the shamen... though define shman[ even if ' i dont wanna be a cleanin' lady so what can i do with my Zoom to pay for the trinkets ' is all it ever was... : they don't think you mean what you say, "now" in this version of actually seeing the future with the old 'second eye': if i say it i did mean it so in the future i will DO it...no matter what... and "commitment" means always... no matter what...' embeded video doesnt have a time/datestamp and my Odyssey i like to have the fullest record of it all even the many cruel losses.... )
i deliberately leave the date/time stamped on external video (and it is totally incomplete as there are hundreds, neighh thousands of short clips that need inserting - but that in fact takes more battery, rather obtusely, in that loading longer ones is a couple of clicks then let the mystical forces do their bit.... lots of short clips and photos requires more clicks, and clicks drain....
Anyway the most important thing is unshowable: movement.
Back at my temporary "home" ... usually so wonderfully quiet - THE # 1 requirement so hard to find here in her "prostitutedplace"
I accept as it has been the story of my whole life: twenties bobbing about all over the world but when needing some temporary home, if one has bobbed into Mandelieu or even St Kitts WI... go away from them all and find the QUIET places!
Ohh i needed three hours rather than just under one to explain: i don't really decry all humanity, but...i was lucky or maybe the opposite: as well as my utterly wild childhood - roaming the wilds .... roam roam.... (though searching FOR someone subliminally, as where i was psychogeographied, there were few people....) in fact i had the greatest TEACHER ever...old man Ralph.... who age ten and on he taught me over the fencepost holes we would dig together come rain snow or heatwave, to search; to never trust the 'received opinion' ...or current state of knowing, but they were probably jumped up little "cretins" (ohhh... my favourite word now i am licensed.. but its not a nasty personal attack word its just a bit playfully crtique...)
Dawkins WAS in fact wrong (good video by an old geezer, that title. explaining why).... i kind of naturally intuited via 'natura; law' when i first read him, or in fact his cousins who wrote more "human"ly Mr Jay Gould Rose Kamin and Lewonters... "maybe ...may be..its not quite so off and on switch as Dicky may like you to believe..." sad the BBC couldnt read anything other than his pamphlets for self promotion)
And certainly don't intuit my literary abilities or spelling at this moment now...as when the sun shines i sit in it and this cannot see the screen..i rarely get out when the sun shiones... and havent been able to use at preferable times: 0530 to 10ish) for some weeks due hardish mporning frost... makes the fingers quite wooden (i made an interesting audio yesteraft so buoyed up with amazed joy walking her childhood pathway..)
Anyway.... now, i am actually only interested in the future, even if i also know just how much of Britolish history has been rewritten, sexed up even if no sex in these lands for sure....
really IS as a result of the most refined sugar rich diet in the world...i know as even age 18 i wandered wildernesses of then South Island NZ when there was actually no one there and no tourists and no shops ...selling sweeties or mountaineering chocolat... a few weeks no refined sugar in the diet you start to realise " i have changed....gosh...how can i describe it.... well..... no human stuff ever gets to me... no great loss upsets me... in fact anyone could almost say ANYthing to me as insulting as they wish and it simply would flow under the bridge with all the rest of the polluted nonsense out of the mouths of most 'human's ..."
try it.
And i do have a PHD worthy theory i dreamed up maybe 7 or 8 years ago as to what is scientifically going on there (i KNOW is unique and possibly right):
the gatherer hunter is wandering around ... too many druggies even then Hellstoned way.... Gqwerk theyre all addicted to vudu as a cover for tryin' to hussle better-drug money and trips to Yahoonascer land.... even if "symbolically" as...
(well i bet her shamanising rates are more humble than the average, so....anyway how the hell can ANY immo figure the Britolish! i have read much of their old literature and theyre still a mystery .....)
wandering bands of gatherer-hunter (in Milton's day i am sure theytoo were corrupted by the notion that man was some big deal 'hunter'...incorrect - try living as a pauper (due my failed 'causes' quite happily in the actual countryside and you realise soon enough that CARRION is the easiest 'game' (i must get my old pics out. first... one day i found a whole roadkill bambi at side of road.. the best meal i ever had as you had to also be there smiling at the sight of her on the back of my old bike..)
gathered carrion - i bet even at the seashore some dead porpoise or baby seal attracts a gang of crows or even gulls.... ": follow the racket, for free food..no bows and arrows required, nature already did its bit..."
And in FACT seashore people are the ORIGINAL "human" ... or at least when the naked ape got bored with her/his woodlands of Kenya or Sudan or wherever .. and wandered off on holiday up the coast: " wow... endless free easy to catch GRUB!!!!....no spears required as the mounds of shells - 10's 100's of thousands of years old all the way up the coast to Mumbai in beyond do attest... and protein/essential oil rich... . "
mussels scallops and any seashore nymph i am sure knows how to tempt her man witha splendid bouillabaisse of all the rest too.......
(is it an accident that the quite obvious etymologically derived "baise-moi" is quite obviously derived from the same beach party night after night)
Singing, a johnny come much later
right to the point. Ehh i forgot it now as i never think i just open the lid when i have had enough fullest sun...
(seriously ALL so called scholarship is STILL warped by this erroneous notion of 'man the hunter'
yes... wanderers.... homo-hobo .... meandering, a nice Frog soup here..a jolly good bag of nuts there... winter, eat the weak fellow homos... (no pun intended i only do science and homo means "human" and the census said... [one day].. 96+ percent still think of breeding )
wander wander..... NOt a great time to breed. And one has to be fairly well acquainted with ones territory to follow all the Bees around and figure where that yummy honey is....
And anyway it may not be the 'time'...
So there you are wandering summertime and even the dumbest "human" homo isn't going to have too much trouble Beestalking.... so .. June July ... you find a few more nests than average.. and if you didnt do July August the Bees are often drunk from all that fermented fruit so they slow down and get a bit wobbly ...
"show me the way to go home i'm tired and.."
In other words summer late summer especially best time for finding hives....
now thats all very well but 'nature' works by 'markers'.... or if we must 'triggers'....
And the "human" body is no different than nature - all of it...
so, as obviously its best to pod in the spring - April..Mayish.... (if N Hem obviously 180 otherway S hem) how may 'nature' tell homo-hobo to STOP! make a camp....and also camp it up with the other sex...and also get all 'territorial' about ones own private little four poster Odyssseyus rebuilt upon "home"coming?
well, set a marker: a behaviour midifying change.... (that works on whoremoans and all the rest of the inner bouillabaise we will never entire;ly understand)
what may cause usually sublime rather insoussiant homo to get all arsey?
qhhahh if s/he is camped somewhere for a bit well s/he by definition wanders locally and finds even more of that (fairly refined sugar) ...so let THAT be the 'marker'... for behaviour change...
no one wants to be lugging around a bun in the oven if homo-hoboing....
buns need to be ovened in camps... where also due arsey behaviour back "home" of Mister getting all proproietorial territorial when on the wander he wouldnt usually give a toss...
he tosses rocks at any other bloke that comes withing 100m of his.. errata THEIR little love nest....
And what do yer know a few months later as the summer Bees are winding down ... bump beginning to show.... "ohh no we don't.... i need to stay put, or else.."
The point without a doubt high sugar does modify beehaviour except not in Bees in miserable parasites of their good work, called "humans" which is a skit as almost all of nature is in fact 'parasitism' so there is no such thing...
try telling that to the 'self actualising' atom ised of the nouveau new age lot manifesting their unique shamanistic spirit blah blah....
the best 'theories' like Donald Hoffamns - as he admits...his "conscious agent" mathematically sort-of-proven one.... "can never be tested so it will never be known as fact or hologram in my holographic imagination"
Socrates always has the last laugh with his "all i know is i know nothing.."
Anyway where was i...
Simplifying is much deeper than yet more nonsense they come up with...
Oh yes.... having allowed even myself (ralph and i just KNEW BETTER than to trust any homo-knowledge...he was the perfect teacher an uneducated man of the land GATHERING a living chopping rich means trees and building their fences...my mentor... and WHY i got expelled from school - only to be with him all day... )
to... ohh yes as pure (OED version of) 'agnostic' ref the biblical stuff... but i just knew they were dodgy deep down... spending lots of time over 15 years giving them the benefit of the doubt...
Christianity is so problematic (i realised this morn how keeping to 'the word of god' - and modern Pentecostalist etc disco-religions like 7th Days are even more than ever " every word is his word" in fact is the perfect excuse for not thinking of anything new..or being constructive critique of "i am an angry god" isnt very nice is it now... cant we modernise that, too... .)
yes... so.... all of these 'isms' especially the absolute plague of (22 years ago it came in to my previous wilderness with the pretend bohemians from the towns, down south..i mean SE... ) 'new age' or 'newthought'.... killed off ALL actual 'thought'... and soul.
Basically all isms are no good ... maybe humanism as long as it does something about the Prozac pee... side effecting her seashore life even here...
But there we go...i know if i know ONE thing... that 'dvine coiun cidence' or even tricky syncredents..
or i guess a better word may be 'sublime's...?
Its all to point towards one thing above all, in my book: that we are indeed here to teach.
The next generation ..and tell stories that put us rightly in the background of the principles and values the star...
to teach... guide a bit.... HOWEVER! ... the curriculum is the problem ! ... there is without doubt some wonky metaphysical magic at play somewhere in all of it....
I was quite thick age 12ish 13 ish... add on a layer of Ralphs splendid and very loving skepticism....all REAl country bumpkins have...
and then.... shit happens and yes may deepen you.... and eventually one may develop confidence to 'let go'....
confidence and creative the HARD words....
i am not sure the word 'creative' should even be used....
to be cont i forgot my point
but never forget what super simple living is....saving time, so as not to have to be part of the 'beast' much at all if possible as i have better things to do..one day
WHich is a lovely feeling...ive known for 10 years for sure...
even through many hells.
oh yes.... a homecoming is not about geography
(words to effect)
That is so interesting! thats the most interesting actual now-thing i heard....
As if i stop i know exactly what it means: who said it.
But there we go....
oops ive used all my 48 hrs worth of battery in half a day...
and i havent even started as 'licensed' does mean all the way.... the true tragic tale must be told
soon
(in fact working definition of 'home' ?? where one feels at ease telling all ones shameful tales even if not your fault ..shame and no one will ever get it cos audio a few weeks back '2020' explains just that...how so many no longer had any SHAME!!!¬!! but 4chan are still b;eating about wonky PPE ... far far more people sort of had healthy happiness. shame removed.. than the odd dribble through duff PPE of poisonous fermentables for god sake ... home: where we feel ok about telling all of ourselves - fully licensed to...... well i guess i found mine.... above her beach, after all...)
