vitalism... perhaps?
A word i had not found until yestermorn..i had to 'look'...
Vitalism? .... something a bit "cheekily" beyond mere mundane material stuff - alive or not.
Anyway i am not random. Even if "letting go" means knowing that the most useful saudades happen at the last place on the "prostituting" bit of the planet you know you will Find...
Anyway back to work even if i haven't started.
One thing i just will not have is rewriting actual history.
Getting back into three novels-a-week mode....
Even if i cannot find any worth the time...
Now...i for some years only read books by women, like Cusk and Kushner...
even if there are few...but i search.
(the men all went wank)
But the wank .... i trust her review, (" we will exchange her for your Intouchables") but all other reviews, sorry...
https://www.theguardian.com/books/2019/aug/21/the-man-who-saw-everything-by-deborah-levy-review
In even 1980s London no one spoke like this to each other,.,,never. No relationship MAybe-ending, ever turned so just damn crass...
no matter what class.
And history must not be rewritten.
Good job I am a pretty good chronicler of actual real history even if it's a bit Lost in so much cant and vanity.
Define: good chronicler. Today...despite frost on my unsocked toes, I got it! two minutes to go, literally.....
And now I do get their 'mental health' - almost the worst book i have ever read (no not Girl
on a train
but fourty year old, at her own admission, chubby alcoholic, on a train.... talk about clickbait, )
There was a time - a saudade time not really as saudade is just spirit ... real spirit. So rare ...
when every single person rich or poor a scholar of ancient tomes or footie fan.... when it was known: never look into someone elses private (errata, personal, because it was known that personal, is...private so thats a tautology i guess) correspondence.....
Because it NEVER EVER ends well.... ever....
(as a decade ago the poor mentally ill one discovered not through her actions but .. through eventually her con-science* which sent her to hospital)
ohh yes from another 'bestseller'.... all first draft
* ..... not a typo ... maybe helped by the fairies who aren't fair sending that saudade... but anyway yes.... ssris ... i got them too, i had no idea EIGHT POINT SEVEN MILLION are on that pill, too.... hers were fed to her by the American.... behind my back of course as they always know better.
rewriting history part two to come soon, One Day... in the Life of Ivan
As with two minutes to go i got her: "feminists" of the 1980s did NOT imply men should be "spit"ted at.... funny that that the 4chan wireless has seemingly gone back to some mythical age which never existed....
Problem is it does create Today.....i know to my cost: Lost...
But there we go fifteen years its just the norm
now..i need some FUN! .... twenty years, twenty two .... always on standby. No more.... i am the lucky mentally wellone..i know i did MY best...always. No matter what.
