(even if the only number i playfully muse
Homer's twenty... framework to use
And the older i get and the more i think
Not even the Iranian
(thats what thirty years here does to the mind)
knew of her people's
" your people wrote the very first book!" a love story at that
kind of Road Trip if my memory serves
dont know it well look it up....i give up,.... life's over ... thats that"
hmmm...
The Epic of Gilgamesh features both romantic and platonic love,
But what is the enemy of love or any actual human anything? apart from anything else their nyumerology astro-ology
got to America circa 1986 or 7
the numerical obsession all around
" this lift is manadated to take exactly 56 stones and 12 lb 2 ozs... "
even your pillow has a label quoting the exact regulation, numerically
An American cannot say " ...ehh about three hundred and fifty pages.."
Or " the latest weekly school shooting was about five or so.."
Numbers drive you mad. inhuman. And make you very sick
(NUMBERS COMING UP SOON - lots of recordings to share yesterday i was a very good boy its data time)
But 21.... surely thats when you are meant to have grown up..... a bit at least.
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Now, one look. Or in fact non-look. At one dusk....
(Oh yes that was the end.. May Day... a perfect grand finale)
Unable to even discuss a wonderful new dawn. (i tried)
Ten countries join the EU in one night
https://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/w3ct74j3
Fast forward lasteraugust.
Though there are some who slag her off just a bit. I doubt they can argue with all of it.
I can't argue with one simplest fact:
I didn't even know she was Ukrainian.... Hay-on-Wye "steiner" nurseress.
But then when....
Well you lend her the best book on her own country.
And her " number one special child" ehhh....
not qiuite, when it came to
mutuality:
" Christina..poor Nigel.... his ex so ex human she caused his breakdown...
and i am glad i could help bolster him just a bit...
... example to you both .. live through all that shit"
... at least ... [at least what?] ...at least...
the 2010ish "come for a cup of yogi tea'... next time in town"
Never of course even followed through when....
when what...
Fast forward one whole decade
Twenty years charade
Not one ever actually gave one second of who they
put out on parade
Or returned my book. Promised she would.
That's all well and good.
But the most wonderful of all twenty dull years.
The gang.. i thought they were..
Gang of Ukrainian Rambos .. tattooed blingy
" uhhh ohhh... keep away from them.."
So excruciatingly bored of ... well theres no point even speaking nicely with English walker
Never mind artist
" ... ehhmmm heres my axe if you want to chop your wood..
or watch me ... those ones you cant do... my eyes closed too"
Just to make it clear their body buildin'
bodyscentin
bovva boy routine
I don't know why i never do that.
Fast forward an hour. I forget how exactly it started. Within five minutes Rambo #1 is telling me his Ukrainian hero writers - real ones not avant garde not very good Emirate filmmakers
, and yes he has also read Turgenev
..Lermentov, too
Very quick sketch:
" ehh we do NOT go back... probably never will
mafia madness guntotin ... just ill"
" my friend... bad luck, just one mistake... 99% young British men... talk books, just piss take.."
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Anyway righty ho.... whist without any doubt (as she did agree at least) the most interesting moment not covered in the lightweight fascism (even he their pet let it slip)
Fascism is when the truly sulky princesses are trained like pets in a circus, to pout "positive vibes only" - or a range of variants..i had no idea it was THIS bad as the incoming Southern Belle ...
wouldnt quite dare to dictate such drivel in the public places of The Marches
fascism is when you are required to smile and charmy cheer... at her... when you know she is so sour and catty she cannot even look out the side of her eye
when one has not even been one smallest iota onesself and spoken ones actual self
In other words their zealotry doesnt work...
Any arrogant English who thinks that a society where you are not allowed to not be like the smiley happy clappies, cos you know they are absolutely vicious thieving users.
(thats the worse version of that word: the non-junky... just takers, and use..)
it is their jealousy i did not previously understand
If someone had told me that a 50+ year old woman could be so viciously jealous of
(censored for now or rather for MY book... Babs'
knows she couldn't have made it up its so impossibly... real)
I would have said its impossible you're making that up
But now it is dawning
In fact that's it.... its almost all of them.
This whole class of Alain DE Bottists... all that 'self' awareness..all that Southern (sorry my notes are so messy for..now) Oxfordshire "Human rights worker" a few years ago on her " wow i am so biusy on my Buddist Diamond level course" or whatever expensive vudu she was showing off to hide the fact she hadnt Human Righted for several decades and was just livin' off mummy's cash in one or other shires..
age 55
And a false profile biggin up a few years at some conjob 'NGO' bossin about poor Iranian babes who actually did have guts
Until they were torn out two years ago for darin' to show them
But those are just real stories, the harder unreality is having lexicon.
I do at last with one.
This whole world, De Botty .. and then dozens.. of all the same man, culminating in the David Fuller/ Sam Harris absolute death rattle of
" be just like me"
And their endless women copycats and.. well just slaves.
To 'his' rhythm... which all started with
" hoohhhmmmmmm" which was merely a mating call " that London guy sat over there at the cafe maybe an axe murderer in disguise.... me with my nice Tibetan pyjama bums.... you can tell that I'm not.. so you can safely have a cuppa yogi tea with me..."
which is rational sane decidedly splendid ESS strategy
The problem is the one thing it never did: make you grow up into an adult
they started to add to that label, too.
And fair dinkum is possibly the most successful Ponzi scheme of all time...
(i KNOW Europe - it is not like this in Europe - rarely..Houllebecq found a few examples but generally speakin the locals just don't stand for such Californian crap... )
..
And we all know what happens to Ponzis
they collapse from the inside
Poor former Sovs.... leaving one iron curtain... for one made from the sylvan selkie sighs
At least iron is a necessary part of ones diet
Sighs are ... for starvin suckers
(ooh that was a good one last night something about limpets...right i need to stop.... and get back to my notepad routine...
as i did tell the archangel sham
[short for shame.. an] ,
my sensible plot... and esteem is only one thing: say what you mean.)
