So three year'nago
(funny thing is the current one - talk about hardship! i shall miss it one can get used to ANYthing....
even this really THICK unintelligible 'app' that sometimes stands photos on their side just to remind you how like them it is... then its made by them so whatdyer expect..)There i am innocently natterin' about small spaces even if the opening lines were crystal clear....
I mean you can't be clearer than " all the women over here in the actual environment which has 10% pop density of your, well you will say it one day! yerself.... HATEfilled .... suburb....ran away to be closer to Harvey's Nicker collection .......
or died of Bovarian cancer [ copyright me, just came along into my polluted stream
of consciousness meanderin one of errs the other day
likely up by the waste of good stone in some so called circle
I think thats what that EVERYwhere common-as-muck book is about,
lust for pretty things....
eats yer up from within...
but there's REAL books by real peeps like whom i am
soon as i read it only a few years ago i knew what books is for...
to find yourself: total irrelevant slightly thoughtful bloke gets new neighbour sees her on the landin' takes a fancy, in propper French manner, knows she will like boys or if having a phase still like boys just as much and respect them as necessarily evil, and part of real life....
anyway nice cups of espresso ensue...
but shock horror innocent naive bloke encounters some evidence that in actual fact she's a tea leaf....nickin her own family's gold or purse...
" ohh god will i ever ever meet ANYone on the level... i knew she was ok but it seems not and no way do i want to be around any dodgy loon ex towny or towny as there are simple lines in life and thankfully i dont have some weird need half of em seem to do to tango over them lines... just for kicks or why?..."
Turns out spoiler alert everybody naturally was rather miffed at her the maybe nicker... and he went through such a wonderfully philosophic time pondering his 'love' vs authenticity...
he needn't have as all along she was innocent entirely...
some back of the sofa nicked it instead or whatever second i met him thats me....
Anyway i'm not interested in fine old stories only those of now...
But then i should have gave her my speech that ive been giving nicely for a decade... but even Balzac that genius of true art, that takes you there and yes does have a tad of judginess to it when he takes you right into his mind in a standard human way
as humans are standard even New New New Labour seem to be realising that at last even if it won't work as there's a whole massive INDUSTRY (see third sector audio waffle) based on the labels the newwords that are as meaningless....all of it
(capital i didnt know: Totty twinned with Narnia [sic] well i did, but didnt know how the whole region of course attracts the acolytes sub species hamngers on...like flies attracted to a turd..scrappin over that particularly sweet LOOKing dribble off the crumbplate...nothing to do with me but its always eventually good to know who one is or what the real so called 'people' is)
Anyway there we are three years ago
" i'm bulletproof..."
well OBViously nobody is entirely but you can't tell em ....any of them..... even her, an actual proveable truth, i bet still:
" as i was a propper parent genuinely respecting the innate frequency and naturane faeryness and pixiness ness and mystical shmaniac Shakti within, of my kid 100%, i would give her POWER - the real version, unlike thefake faerying about at these new woodland schools as their parents are too busy buying competitive yoga mats, to get their kids to read books... so yes kiddo even at the pub for early dinner... and get her to read out the last few pages of WAtership down in public knowing exactly what always would be occurin' " hahh hahh LOOK at my mad bad baldy of a dad blubbing...you can see the tears welling up LOOK!.... blubbing ....at a silly story about bunnies and Fu Inle faking interest in one just about to expire from the mixi...... god how pathetic!"
"But other than some minor occasional ' ohh yet another one..'...and appropriate feelings sometimes.., yes i am bulletproof this is something you EARN if you fight a bit of a fight and no English woman ever ever ever even wants to have a second cuppa with anyone who has been a bit of an actual 'warrior' as you pretend you are too... thats not important but... ohh please not you too......"
unfortunately i didnt give the standard speech of ten years starting around 2010...would it have made any dif?
"luv.... right i am a scribe+ i sit for days sometimes with those going to courts about domestic issues such as wars over kids etc... these are in the civil courts which work on paper representation... i would write down for them their STORIES which is what lore is based on... as they couldnt even think about who they were any more so i spent a few days with each teasing out who they were... for their story... so they can protect their OWN kids possibly under threat of removal... for a huge commission in someones back pocket one day down the road.... from some private orphanage or the like....
" luv [at first only the f.s the men caught up about 5ish years later] since around 2008ish EVERY single litigant going to court DEMANDS that their story is mainly or in fact ONLY about how HE has serious 'control' issues... every single one.... poor judges they must get so bored of every single statement saying exactly the same.... and then the blokes caught up and now both sides endlessly going to great lengths about the 'control' issues of the other side... and then from around i dunno as i started serious online use of online about injustice via the 2006 test case but saw it perverted so i gave up... around maybe 2015ish every single person started to accuse every other person of 'narcissism'... like everyone...
" now never mind a great strategy, if we didnt use the n word at all and told the judgie about when you have managed to compromise and how fabulous your kid IS despite you.... maybe judgie may find it ...different...interesting... indeed even LIKE you which is wot lore is about dont be fooled by the word 'justice'...
" ehh if EVERY single person in YUK is accusing every other single person of being a 'narcissist' well doesnt it all kindof cancel itself out.... ? ..like lets find something to talk about we can DO something about...maybe..??"
nope silly me i should have at least tried
But then i didn't know that in fact my slightly exaggerated speechifying lines above - only to help peeps actually WIN court battles they said they wanted to win often with tears in their eyes..(was maybe at least 75% - 'control' then 'narc' ).. from early 2010s...
was actually 100% correct in that it seems every single person in this whole Penninsula does indeed think almost everyone else they may speak with not merely shallow bs speak.. they are a "narcissist"
It makes me smile inside as i attempt a mental whispered game of " hmm...how long will she last out before using it..?"
so i understand how even a good to fine mind was polluted indeed drowned in the shit in her own shitcreek - figuratively speaking
And as per last or last but one audio no immo ever ever had power til second gen to say anything real - critique fully their adopted sociuety, as Mister Naipaul explained most beautifully in Bendy River
which is sad because the first line " and before you say anything about us UK should be before us in the queue at The Hague.." about 3/4 of the world does also know is true
And how the F35s over GAza still were kept tickin over with UK 'logistical' support...euphemism for some bloke in a houseboat probably offshore even ... brokering the arms most to scaredy cat, slithery.... to actually direct market them ... the Middle Men of the Mil Ind Comp thats UK...
but i bet it has never been repeated to anyone else.
Anyway such a hard word.... especially if one has just become surreally absurdist commentatin' on billions of vids with nowt ever to say so not 'join em' just....
i don't know but all that matters
is even a badger baiter can become an 'honoured' Member of the Badger Exterminatrixes, too
but once ok art ....which shows how Mister 'God',
the hand of god
In fact pretty much only his hand
No fancy settin' fire to his axe with lighter fluid no fancy anythin just stood upright unsmiling likely in junky withdrawals...
didnt really TRY!
and no cameraman even tried to film his face - nothing to see just an axeman doing his job.......
and thus is perhaps a good record of how That Sublime kindof gets invented
no not by MBE him....
turncoat .. toady...
but the first time maybe ever someone just .. without trying just let them ferkin angels be in the orchestra alongside hidden behind the 'gear' too.........and just....
well there are no words for trusting in the 'moment' to deliver some...thing... perfect
