"permacrisis"

 SO when all we ever hear from the so called intelligentsia is "permacrisis" there's only one crisis in my world which is when i for the first time in three years i slightly lose track of a few themes bobbing around for a few months, that get into my videographic dictaphone,  and i cant get a quiet desk for long enough to sit down and methodically write out each video timestamp that is up on the waffletube  so as to keep methodical track of what is up and whatnot

But one day i shall.

Especially as .... 

saudades have to be worked at getting back

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like i want to know is ONEKEY life known of in Yankland? as the  key to life 

zen in a bit = live on no matter what

and prove you feel like it to yourself 

on your terms

which is tidily

especially as its all very well Henry living 'deliberately to show off with all that erudite grand thought, when it's in fact the super SMALL miniscule thoughtful stuff that no matter what makes you actually 'happy' and tells you why bother living on..

Anywya to be continued symbolised by 

oops i am so out of sequence gotta go back a month but there we go zen is showing your very worse side and not carfing a bit even if i do care as a message is all there is 

when one is utterly drowning in this Utter bullshit EVERYwhere 

 in fact that chat three years and a bit ago ...  affinity is only one thing:  " god and my ohh my they spend all their time at workshops to show off they can afford them.... do you.? ..no i thought not.."  ohh well there we go but i had no idea just how OCD they are about it, which also became something only to make money from.... if one gets one's 'send' certificate ... i bet my van they won't any more cos they spent all the cash on sends  and theres no more cash left

and the SUPERB lovely honest teacher i met in Lorna's gaff a week back she said..." i have two in my class... nobody tells the thick media.... they dont actually get any extra teaching ..!!"