Friday, 5 June 2026

"existential" ...

 Now being your L’Étranger is climbing up the trendy charts, be crystal clear that it is NOT 'existential' even if at last that was admitted to me in person.

In fact one has to say there are simply two states or phases or epochs, the younger person will get all wonky over not knowing what it's about....life... 

But in this weird infantalised society which reset itself long ago in the 90s to only selling crap to younger people, of course it's not allowed to say in phase one you have no idea whatsoever about anything and even Albert didn't really help...

However in the greater part of life - that over and beyond 35, fourty... (dissecting out the under 25s when you havent even reached fully grown life yet -  especially in the brain as the science shows even if Uk has one of the lowest ages of so called 'responsibility' in folklore....).  what on earth is the 'meaning' of life?  

And even if he was a good trier  - worth quoting even, of course Douglas being an ex private schoolboy  could only be rather ADHD (no longer an insult or legal defence or even a  biochemical thing as even Gabor has said he has had enough! and " its not a thing..it was the telly being on from wombtime playing on loop angsty stuff that a human had to learn compensation strategies to tune it out ...or maybe other forms of angst such as parents who no longer knew the rules of not scrapping in front of young Douggy..."   when it came to his meaning of it... fourty two i believe 

Nope, wrong question. 

All 'it' is is something i realised a few months ago I am so so lucky to have no matter what as its nothing one had, it is in fact merely that one knew there was never ever any other choice as to how one must, be....

So yes i always knew the Fromm was a bit limiting

And i admit even if chanced upon maybe age 25ish i have quoted the front page as the pre Tolle  fine place to find the meaning of life upon,  rather often, but couldnt much stomach it past about chapter three or four...


Anyway fiction, as long as not bimbo crap (Amis Mckewan etc etc... bimbo being originally a sex free term applied to the male dandies of QE1's court),  is always far better for you than 'non fiction' which is usually in the longer run more of a fiction
Than fiction.

Anyway the meaning or better put, the ideal state to have discovered, no money, gurus, or self help or others involved...
I can put it in just a few sentences now. Maybe even one if i had more battery.

It isn't even laughing out loud at the bimbo thismorning on Womans Hr, Hannah so famous for being in only rubbish blesser she's innocent of having to think,  who  upon  feeling a bit wonky went and paid for a chunk of 'magical healing' and bingo it worked magically! ... 
reiki/ 'energy' and all that which invaded The Marches, totally colonised the back passage of the Swest decades ago....  
IS the one true way one isn't even allowed to make polite jokes about or even SUGGEST  it may not quite based on anything that can be 'proven' of course the word proof is a megga or it should be Maga aggression so so evil that ...
well another day
magically 'healed' all the way to the looney bin bless err.... (did she sue?)


Anyway the Have or To Be truly contented - absolutely one hundred percent peacefully centred no Tolle required as he knows nothing,  is only possible if one had NO CHOICE of what 
to BE-DO...
Even if it was the most wound inflicting headfuck in history ever
To know for certain there was no conceivable other path to take for 16 years ....
Well all this century i am on the one simplest  straightforward one that truly did succeed when i never really knew i could...




This...once through the Albert's spotty phase is literally all there is to life except the legal  footnote-codicil which basically is that when they grow up they are hardly likely to   piss on your grave or stab you in the eye one xmas dinner saying "bastard....  you attempted to have such a heavy footprint, guzzling up all our planets resources  but failed to achieve true greedy cunt status  and totally destroy it for us......loser....   "

Anyway i have many dozens of little clips from 2009, and back,  loaded up months ago still to check through ( smallest bit of flesh the Ai really does blow a fuse)  

But there is a point...
And all i wish is to make it artistically...
The purpose of art  - yes there is one! being to.....  cause change
Thats impossible nowadays, but at least ehhhh.... one great insight in one day is quite enough for the cheapskates who pile in here  every day...
where i am full time every day, always...
Even if not everything gets here, yet...