,,,At ....The....Stone...
I found it. Even if one always loses that wish, along the way knowing they, Ms Twice Agrees... won't be there.... they never are...
But at least i have in a walking waffle actually what i needed to define.
It is built upon an imaginary conversation with the perfect imaginary mother of an eleven and fifteen year old, what you would say to her if you had Pablo Neruda's " we have to be speaking for an hour for a conversation to actually begin..." the real version of why any even ex euro bird should take them away... from here, especially if your whole heart and whole lifetime of truth ere in that... why.
BUt we can't only be 'negative' - the new fascism of all must only be 'nice' even a thick yank Lionel Shriver figured out, as the problem..
So it is woven in to the truly best word ever.
even better than saudade... and all along i had forgotten that this word must not just be intellectual knowing, it must be of feeling, too...
and it really is better - my version, that any words even Mister William Quack Quack Turner could manage even if he painted the gloomy part of it...
And Mister BAbb Oxford Don OF it couldn't figure what it really ..IS...I know he would cry into his teacup in my face...
And i have it....because of her..... and her two agreements... as it is for her.... the skeptic, which of course is a banned word even in safer Northern Dooneshire..
Never mind i must go and throw myself off a better bridge there with delight at at last i do get it
But .... i know even a one dimensional English could get it, too... as it is what they're all afraid of deep down...
To be cont as just when i really have 'it' plus the reasons why you get your kids out tailor made for a good mind and ive met so few...
and it;'s all ready to stick here... not enough laptop battery and the meanest cheapest readers ever in history arent worth me even going for a cheap lemonade to go and plug in...
she knew...i hope.... i cared, and likely wouldn't know that anyone elses kids are equal to anyone else's if you like them all always no matter what....
but it is the narcissus thats the prob... three years wandering this pestilent place except MY Stone up in them hills... it is that they pimp 'change' it's all they can bleat when in fact pone thing i know as outsider looking in... pure European all are equal all must be equally accepted and all that...
thing is here...change has not really been possible (nothing much even to do wioth matters 2016) .....change takes such a long long time.... REAL change... really we don't at our core...and yet thats what they all pay into and profit from day after day the notion it can happen...even easily.
And i know one thing... the true toxic stressy parenting thats gradually got worse and worse these last 20 odd years... not only has that NOT changed other than get worse, it wont either for years.. real change is very very hard work.. and first requiring the acceptance, youtoo
which not one of them ever CAN say..... its always someone else....ive never known a region of everyone else is so at fault ...
to be cont and finished tomor
audio: heres why if i had had another hour...
