" ehh up... i was in Yugoslavia a few years before their war which really was pretty localised to a small region.... ive fallen in love witha couple of them...errata respected them as my exact strong equal......i have been acquainted with their great recently departed writer Slavenka .... they were in fact different as Yugoslavs were still allowed to travel abroad during the commie times... anyway even in 1992 we - myself and fine stable rarely intellectual English woman we adopted a Yugoslav youngster age nineteen to live at our basecamp with the three kids...Vanja.... almost in fact she was my adoptee... wasnt so keen on her at first but then one realised she had a deep real intelligence...took me at least a year to explain to her ' those lights of Oxford even regent street...all the expensive shiny new toys...do NOT make the people here happy, or nice ...or even safe luv..... ' and through our shared and most beloved mother henfreind she saw yes even her truly fucked by it all....status, class, the total fakery..... damaging, dangerous.... even more so than her mother being Croatian her papa being a Serb... all tragic...all of it....and Vanja from a poor BozzySerb village a bloodthirsty civil war ongoing down the local 'farmers market' for months... was as intelligent and shapwitted as any brit even in top unis.... but...... what one realised over the years..... was how the turbulence of even a small localised 'war' .. a rent in society... takes DECADES .. to just truly settle down such that one can have nice balanced sane chats even..... decades.... its not wham bang thank you mam see you in The Hague and thats the end.
Its decades... of paralysis... in all societies that have had such conflict.... even in itzy witzy bit of 'senseless' ones
(Arguably.... well we all knew the Irish 'troubles' there or those spilled onto UK mainland had some kind of sense behind them even if not something could make sense to the non religious or non nationalistic at the level of the minority, there....... so there was some almost understandable sense to that senselessness...)
so..if there's any really totally senseless even a bit of what Nige and gang kindof hope for deep down....
or are 'ready' for.... my ohh my it will be until well after I'm dead before one can once again have a jolly good balanced equal mature wise conversation such as with EVERY European i have nattered with for a decade ....
and i shall die of boredom, before anything else....
so... need elves.... ahahhh i have one a truest wisest elf ever...
but she will be busy a bit...
so.... i hope i die first of boredom, as looks on! before i have to DO... her..... soon. Starting with a self individuated universal book and culture list...
i shall copy it here too...
except of course it isnt really Nigel.....
never was..... it was always something else far deeper and in every black mouldy backstreet and fancy second home.....
to be cont
As it has been a lovely decade figuring it....from both sides, undercover
