where are my 1/4 mil a day 'page impressions' gone?

 just when...well if she wrote an essay on ..

even her "small things" ..i think it would be worth reading..

Even if she won't have the guts to send it in..

she'll want to think about it....

Nope.. that was my mistake for 30 years and i was a true world expert thinker....

And i was ...wrong...

you just DO it...

And 'maybe' who knows we never ever can 

(see video to come tomorrow) 

you may get a little bit of 'help'

and maybe that ;'help' to some lovely next step thats so manifestly abundantly radical lovey...

and it turns out you picked a wrongun that chopped your fingers off with your own axe..

its IMpossible ever ever to know....

what you may need... or what may work.... until you've DONE it ALL the way.... 

oops whats that

 i have so so many little fill in audios and video bits that havent got here,  yet..

some say the (NEVER for attention i dont care) unsayable...

some are jokes you aren't allowed to hear  - and i am left of Corby.... 

as  .... well....

ALL sorts is missing for now...  but i know know why 100% its the end....

If only she could 'take over '... as its her future, especially...and few actually have them.

Even ultra guru magnificat Imoan of The Nutcracker method...  blew a fuse and gave up..

and she was THE one and only hope left...

and i do have skin in the game....

Shes too busy sending me collages every other day of the one who would not exist without my "TOUGH LOVE! GET DOGGING WHATEVER IT TAKES.....OH YOU LOST A SECOND DOWN THE BOG.... Well...be British and phone Womans hour and create a new trauma label orf get DOGGING IMMEDIATELY.... as tick tock...and if you ever arent such a loser you lose em all down the bog... and one ever actually works....you will forget...ALL your past imediately and she will teach you daddy....oops better not refe to me as daddy infront of the Iti mummy's boy daddy... but you know who is ALWAYS right...."

anyway.... ehh... well... i kindof got a responsibility.i doubt i will ever be able to afford to meet it....

but...one mum (who agrees with every word i ever utter here) knows she may just be a 'solution'... for the sake of her littleun...

but needs such a massive kick up her arse to.... mean what she has said...

and you can only do that face to face

And she won't slap mine as she's already had ever even worse sin told to hers... thats what REAl friends are for

Exclude performative "solitude"

Righty ho.....

and a second half written one started yesterday up on the perfect hill all day...

To finish tomorrow

As is the 'critique' of why you must give up on all English writers...

The ones - all European who actually give you space to know they made space to THINK before pumping out the same effete formula of acedia  that they have ever since Amis... who's new teeth via his first bit royalties cheque they crave ..or some other 'healing' to a sickness none of THEM could ever ever be cured of...

is part started here

https://leftovers2022.blogspot.com/

To be made sense of  soon i already have it in voice and filmclip

voice 025 made yesternoon  also lives in the one on your whackery...

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1nGCBwRlqvjyHidjveM4gjSkjOORWljQ3/view?usp=drive_link

I should have asked her...

 As it is ' the' one performance that is...really is... the best example of manifestation of symptomatics...

proof

But what a superb chat....

Only one person knows I was  where the chat happened..... such a true precioussss....

But i never even slightly riff upon anyone so face-to-face randomly encountered, and wonderful... if they are a bit older.

Other than 'notionally'

I rarely come here.... by van, often by foot....

Anyway even if on the job - this...all that matters, since 0545...

And the most incredible fairy tale fairies MAYBE helping all day... from sunrise.

But...  even if at last i got THE critique of Mister problem, and his Carlists... 

And talk about frig me theres a right Cock up a brewing i did get it ... like get it 

That will have to wait until tomorrow

As i can never write at dusk as i spend half the day at it always from  5.45.... then need to charge near impossible.... then   10km by

 foot.... the more likely one may die of something like 'dehydration' the better but it never works! 

oops one of those doesn't really fit here.... (bulk superfast upload here due as always nobody even invites you to plug in to their solar pannel.... there being NO honour ever among the British #vandeadsouls... when there sure was even 20 years ago BEFORE SM...

and anyway i's all about the same thing

as i said two years ago " if you love your kids no matter what age they are... assist them to establish away from this land.. whatever it takes... .among other things the 'mental health' issues at least 5 likely 10x worse here than any other EU spot..."

and there is no hope of any change for decades.

None.

And as i told someone i am an Ultra stupid CAndide the fool optimist...

Anyway i said i had made a box of new mental health tricks but so much moore interesting especially if ANYthing gets you '''down...  and i always do what I say....

For now only half collated and terribly presented for now... as i said 

https://www.ralphschism.com/p/your-not-my-mental-elf.html

 unfortunately as Pablo said a conversation doesnt begin until we have been speaking an hour.."

And not even enough time to answer that unasked (actually irrelevant question)

"but what do you mean if you say all is ruled by dsm labels.."

That will be answered here too.

And i didn't need to 'ask'  even if i should have...i made alone the awful little film of what...the 'problem' looks like...

TO BE CONT

now...it sounds to me like...

 even if thisteraft is perfect...

it will have to wait

In one word:

 "don't"...

believe Mr "Beliefmaker" ... his nose up De Bottie's one...as all of them have been.
As they haven't read the Einstein...

I do, in that even if for selfish reasons,  i wouldn't have believed just how 'lonely'  so many are... too lonely ever to actually just have a little 'go' at

Something real. 

 is that the right way up as it's random: select three sequential in sequence

snaps...

And usually it puts them in upside down, the wrong "order".. in the court of i couldn't give a fuck what the public opine....

If one truly is at ultra even better than ever zen moment....

I mean, there she was masqueradin' as Amish....

ohh yes whats the word of the day,  whatsisface on wireless sunday morn

Todays's Sunday - news of the religious screws... or never

And often very good, rightly on the so interesting thing of how in some OTHER land a whole Jenny Cider is not even spoken of...

Even when they chuck Franco out of his last resting place, just over the aisle from his sworn enemy

Which i guess explains the magnificent Anna's use of her proto Carlian ""shaddow" or was it shade or in a cave or some other useless allegory for the human condition they show off thinking is to be found in their dungeons blessem...even Anna the first new love after ..it

 spnish flying off but we met for a coffee the day of the biggest moan ever i shant forget the paper out.... 

" now we wone the footie argument...now we can sue for millions... "

"ohh Anna ... this country.....dont they know that a compromise..pact... we got you by the balls now pay up before we go and pay all those silks.... half ... now and spend it on yoof clubs perraps or even new footie fields bein' Hillsbro's a tad tainted........" she understood.

(OK I ADMIT..her  BAFTAN film  thus far is very very good, well if you think that Vudu is real and mummy's mummy was Queen of it.....  even if she is out of date that the Missus i KNOW wrote some of it alltoo......

dont even know if this is the right one so quick one has to dart over the bridge to nowhere ever theyll cut the ropes from behind, behind... your back

 but whats the  much heralded special artsy twist at the end thats meant to have you eating your own heart out of your chest it sums up all of human tragedy... in a comic.... )

gee whizz i shall report them for not 'copyright' striking this for a bit of  only the fourth greatest Queen Soul.... 

 

which is hilarious as they make such a  song and dance - like endless truculent  about " THIS VIDEO IS BLOCKED IN CERTAIN TERRITORIES"  when what they mean is only Russia...

(compute shutdown and restart due the plum job old thing lost with no manners to notice i was busy.... writing a bout her...type...)

hahh hahh my mind is sharp as a jagged fingernail stuck up your nose

rancour

old Hennesy speaks of rancour times

but like the racist pigsties they are they don't even mention Aretha withnnit

what was the one word?

ohh yes 

DON'T

Never mind real tragedy, in another

None of them can ever Bee...

Even if first equal

Now i hate drum and bass... and love only Minnie, and her bigger sister,  except...

even Minnie was a tad confected... 

And the greatest tragedy of all of culture is she can sit there humming whispering in ones ear... in thisteryear 

to her 1990....

Not one even her believes you can get it back....

Better....

you don't need the perfect high notes, nor scales....

I know exactly what the formula is....

And it's the opposite of 'freedom'.....

And the proof is that few numbers make me a little Je Ne regret rein....

yes but it would have been nice to.....

just have a cup of even Yogi tea.....

With the only one who really did so utterly perfectly in every note sum up all its ever been..

class.

And she knew what hers was .. or at least one assumes .... . and thus transcendentalled it..... 

In one sentence..

same camera same node same angle held ..

the stupid thing doesn't  Interfere this time...

which is allegorical of ...  nothing as them Botties  think they have you all covered....

when in fact in nothing but their bottled ...  fancy shit.

I can defo prove....

If i can just stay in this perfect ' groove' ... 

Which never goes away...

a decade... two really ...

Every day

No matter what.... 
 

Well it was until

 you touch the stupid thing and it thinks it knows which way up....

 

A fortnight later, Epilogue, footnote, acknowledgements, REFERENCES

"Auf Wiedersehen.......... Pet..." winkyemojii , mutual...eye to eye 

In front of her very very brown hubby, unseen, checking out the architecture...

...  flip what a stunner same age as me...

AFD discussed..

differences explained

Those embezzling Wynns as allegory for the whole place now works a shortcut treat. 

Even if it hasn't yet made its way to Krautland tv...

Best place for them to strip off in them hills and bathe, informed

The short version, it's always a pleasure....to stop and chat...

 to even get caught chatting someone's Euro-honey...

No 'indigenous' 'upward' bounce that ..'look' in the eyes... even suggesting soundbowl healing may in fact be very frequently

not the best 'alternative' cure to what they dont even know theyve got

I mean even " " your  little AFD  problem youre all fretting about; believe me

the only three year tragedy

is that you all have been just a bit Goebbeled that its really the beginning of the end..

here the end began long ago....

Friends telling tales on friends

(no idea their healings drove THEM round the bend)

never mind 

L'Étranger

even... at her ...Bend in the River 

as your lifelong rivals say... read that one, plus ca change.... no matter how they reinterpret 'reality'  " 

now it's kairos time to go...back.

So, poor chap....

 ...as of course the reality is, as there is one, he has to spend his days around the likes of little miss early morn at the toilet block..

Who are all after the lanyard jobs, too.... even if over several decades fried their brains into endless chipfat 

spattering and they have to spatter something out of their endless sour chit chat

 even on a lovely cool morn...

Not one of them ever managed to even ponder how all in the fringe lands are after the same scant resources. 

And especially understand that just because all you can ever think of is you, some of us aren't you... 

as we did the 'work' over decades to know why not to be...

Which was the 'it'

Brainwashed into "give me my sovereign self integrity" 

when even a keyfob will have someone's thumbprint onnit

Now.... it's necessary to move if nothing else so as to be forgotten.

And remembering one last unvisted place to have a nose around that was always going to be even more awful than the rest...

Turns out's the best.

Too busy to notice, all those chem trails to monitor on their devices

And that is the end of their Road.... 

"the beast"

 Now there is no hope, as I even trained myself to sometimes use his language...

Which starts with their 'chem trails' even if it started with 'the man' and one wades through all the us-against-them stuff such as the 'beast' and what does one do when even an 'archetype' to get all Carlian, doesn't know his tribal word so one has to revert to the worst film ever " ok as you say the 'Matrix'.."

All this Babel they have sat around for several decades merely looking for new words to make THEM look good, picking fights with those beasties, sadly which causes one to forget where one is but all i know it's so boring when you can't really say anything due to triggering the next visit to their bridges with a rope ..

Which is endemic and i do know why..

And have for yonks. 

https://www.ralphschism.com/p/psych2025.html

So, the uplands....

Don't matter it's only the Middling ones... even if my my they love to boss you about on their 'charity' money. 

And a really meek one knew decades back avoid the 'honeyspots'. 

https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1Lof7hIuw2xxF2OHpD1QSWXV7wuNdQkGY?usp=sharing 

So, the 'it' what is it?

 He sure helped define it; not him.

Now...i never even ask anyone to "subscribe" to https://www.youtube.com/@ralphschism

where i have no playlists; as it says " to augment" here...

 where very very first draft playlists are...

And i have no idea if someone clicks on a video here it shows a 'play on the youtube in fact i am the ultimate pure true original ''hippie" in that i couldnt monetise anything as one needs to give ones address to 'the man'  

But it really is a very involved act of memory to list them here, as some must be left in draft in the channel for reasons of nobody has a sense of humour and could understand in fake rasta lands that nothing is ever personal and all is merely whimsical notional and anyway only to rev up prior to get back into the really far more edgy social realism of lastereion 

So certain clips bulk-uploaded have to be left unviewable..

for now

and its only possible to do so by remebering the filenames of those set there

to you can see and those only i can

and remebering which are which as here it shows them all as all can see prior to selecting

And its so tiring and time consuming one at a time

so dont subscribe i couldnt give 12 monkeys but there are often clips there that dont get

here...

and the feat to remember which have been set to 'publish' so you can see 

is so boring....and i dont know if you do see..

As it often says many thousand a day peer here

but hardly anyone there

and that is the purest form of pure something or other..

i literally have no idea, if pageviews are 'bots'  - thousands of you

or peeps... only really provable by bought coffees...

link in above link 

only 1  and a half 1/2 people ever did...

all that said  as there is a sequence and im only half way through and anyway fairies were defo proven just a bit ago...

it would save time if people just clicked through any new youtube splurges of video and i am only parodying all the rest who certainly have nothing to say....ever!

and only occasionally may have something wise you need to hear, to piss off the bots

who havent yet proven they are human

 This lot...

Now, apart from the factoid that you couldn't say i know i would just occasionally " ehh your every other week new bluehair....so it's entirely 'light footprint' please give me the recipe so i can  pass it on the rest of the Treestsiters Extinction Rebells....and all the other one thousand so called Earth Mothers' groups of truely activist active ones... all with the same back office needs, intenert websites munching the trees, and accountants fees....  when one good organisation would do after all its only a few percent of the peeps at most that mean it " ehh maybe i won't dye my hair any more as its a chemical too.."

But it's not this actual lot as i have years of social realism in my data but that takes time...

funny how their makeup is nano plastic particulate free when most others aren't

Never mind practical outdoor wear that can be used all year round in many settings thus maximising bang per bucksworth...

Ahh yes if i have a dreamacatcher i don't have to think about how it may be metoo..

We shall come to dreams soon.

But the very worse were always the passive aggressive spikey hair ones who hide it in the ultimate righteous wasted and surely quite hot headgear..

Nowthis is not a 'post' it is merely clearing my desktop as i have a do-what-i-say disorder if not to others as nobody actually can ever take ion what one says, to myself " must have pristine empty desktop" and theyve been lingerimng a few weeks..

But talk about synchronyism...

 An afternoon speaking with the very best of them dread men..

All  " ehh yours is big enough to have a jacuzzi in the back too.."

Whom despite being relatively speaking truly ok  - times spent in yoga retreats he could laugh about, too...

Was honest enough to say even he was about to ....

i dont care about blokes off to the bridge with a length of rope ...

But if only they knew ok cheekbonestoo 

even if likely implants 

Them yanks can't leave anything only nature always

I would exchange every fake Serbian warrior or even send themtoo off withim mister perfect crystal and not even a  cowboy hat

For Emmylou's  - what a name

makes her sound like something from the Little House on The Prairie

 gorgeous mane....

yes mental elf.... he wanted an appointment with the gallows wheel...

serious....

And he is in 'it' all his life - the perfect radical love babe mushy  campfire yurten vibratory promineentory

of nothing but

Failure

("there is a very high child sewrerside rate here you know..."

(AND THEY ARE IN CHARGE - this lot..of stopping the leaks, meaning have the public platform, voice, considerable donor suport, access to media, and even trust.... but i would love to know when even one went to an actual council meeting to actually make an adult point... never mind emotionally blackmail the clerk to get them put in the 'minutes' ...which is all politics ever was is and will be )

"yes but not MY eggs they're organic and pure, and vegantoo"

 

oops i really thought i had this lot up even if events dear girl....

so the thing is...

so, dare they ...?

 My alibi is i was actually slaving away at the time irrespective of any elf and safety folk lore, in his actual heat stressing bleedineckerslike twill be a  " sauna" tomorrow... at the residence of the bloke InCHARGE of  regional lore .... and without any public liability ins either...

nor any moaning 

Nahhh they won't theyll stick to disrespectful jokes about foreigners, as if "scum" Ayertellers arent people born into pure zen innocence, too... 

Mind you ebb and flow  Nige should get a bit of a roasting 

righty ho the end times coming up soon

thing is i even had to consult at length one of the Rainbowman today.. all the right tattoos too.

Even if the fine yogamamma as they all do cocked her snoop

To my surprise he ( ultra yogan, all the'right' kinds of ashram arguments - those only the 'local yogis know,  about which is the one ' true' yoga )... he actually said that comedy is indeed the only hope...didnt flinch when i said it starts with us

two

hmmmm....

 

Even their smelly bigtown signal blows up here....

Good job i remembered that one, if an actual chronicle of the performative neuroses  is to be  put into the annals which is all i want to do, about lasterregion even if no point even nicely telling anyone that in any English region.... and as for the other bits, they never even learned to read...

Yes, so before every Tom Paul Sam and Harry comes along and anoints Haidt as the true prophet knowing the reason for the great infantalisischism... 

(And i gave up flying airborne craft when digital became the 'thing'  27 years ago even if only because i actually loved the next generation and would put her first no matter what my sexy needs may be... - never trust the fuckers - quite interesting 'spoof' satellite data has been sending  peeps into mountains of late even if it doesnt get into your news... even if its a bit more complex in that  certain testing places in Youessay block the gps  to try and figure out how to outblock the Ruskies, and good ole common sense mountain pilots of that region forgot, how to avoid the mountains, without their gizmos ...and merged withgthem into all of divine eternity

Never trust ANY fucker who is only digital i am not....

And never trust anyone in a van to be human... (he awoke at TEN this morn despite full sun and no materialistic product to keep the rays out of course they all must have now....  forgetting its products

Profligate use of

Why just maybe they'll do a prebathtime, Bath babe, too... rather wrinkly perhaps from a tad too long in one...

 

Anyway...  now it seems pretty scienticfic that laptop on your lap or even  unmediated antisocial deviced jambed in next to your balls, due the heat...

may cause FAR FAR less infertility than those cute little xonos...

which we never will understand cause and effect..over a 'lifetime' or at least the fertile part...

As as sure as ferrits are...

Anyway When the  this lot..

arrived (i have so many unfinished half wit half rit knowings still to finish and my laptop desktop is ONLY yours even if the meanest reader ever...)

when they started to emigrate and its a free country and i would not begrudge one even a nice long walk in the countryside they say they are in divine harmonious  spiritaul at oneness with all at once..

yet i never saw one go for an actual walk ..

And when i went back to the the ultimate (early adulthood) true earth mother of them all at last ... 2018 that astonishing year..

(gets a whole book one day) despite being a senior SRN many years at The Countess.... and a day spent around her kitchen table choking on her extremely strong spliff fumes...

Clearly there is a point where '

chronic' becomes sadly personality disordered fruitjob..

" where is he.....? [ she only wanted to try and coerce me into being her customertoo"

" wanker.. what a creep.... he's gone off for a walk up the hill behind me... fookin ell .. what he wanna do that for..!!"

Despite her seeing me the nett product of nearly 150km on an old pushbike actually across the Eastern fringes of upsy downsy Snowdonia,   on the officially hottest day of that red alert one day a year no waterbottle nor hat... to get to her...no matter what.... 

only curiosity ... 

But i do think sadly that there wasn't only one cause and affect for dead patients at her work...

Anyway... now had they been able to remember a simple phrase that i am quite sure even Rachel Carson got into her 1962 "precautionary principle" ....but no, as soon as they began around 18 or 19 years ago whatever 'g' we were on then....

The 'elite' began to cause division with their " you arent as good as me as you have a mobile phone and the death rays they emanate are designed by the government or Mister GAtes....  to give you cancer, sterilise you...etc.... and also they make my inner frequency really sickly.."

 

TO BE CONT!!!

why didnt i know about THIS one... i mean save the best til last! for adhering to the first three commandments of the wandering poet.. attempting to write the worst poetry history never imagined could be - even worse than Vogon

Its even got an ace signal inside! when usually their waste of stone blocks it out ...

 and I am finished off... just when i have the perfect one of a handful as never be seen the same place even twice in a  week...

IN fact there is a deliberate error in the above in that its not so much the ones who perform 'Rainbow' 

or I'm too-sexy-for-Glasto 

(even if paid i would never go 

i knew the madness of British crowds thirty or more years back )

Its the proto wicker basket tribe the already  purified inside..

firstly by their aromoatherapy

then 'detox' compulsorily

(and one has to say even if i dont think she quite understood .. the evil BBC yes ok but one has to keep up with the zeitgeist and occasionally

yesterday for the second time in six months

one of the ones that tries to be facts based, based on checking them

" ehh.... these supplements .... sliced toast or bullshit..?"

Even if as usual they miss out the more crucial element being ANY expensive product .... i mean imagine what 'compromises' one of Mister Musk's harem must make ...  so as to be able to afford the special Space dust

super musk....

being on the hamster wheel so as to even buy baby Muskrat a hamster always has a nett effect and its almost always negative on lifeyears...

no matter what liteyears 

in the future, he's conned the whole world will be all splendid and

(i do occasionally speak with even rural younguns and its scary they manage to get his name into the third sentence always... nobody told them that money never ever ever makes you healthier deep down where it matters... nor more at peace or centred as  there's always someone  sniffing around even your own accountant....who just may be there only for the crumbs..or try and whip half the cake... or all of it if you are a really moronic dad of Withnail....

ohh yes i forgot then you can go around for the next few decades telling everyone about your evil accountant ran off with all your loot....

performing 'victim'...

Now i know, or knew, someone so so much more of a genius actress than any of his.... and i googled just a  week ago " .. xx..' wondering if there may be an obituary...yet..

But then if you go through live living only on perfomative ...  self pity.. and i wonder when i first realised and named the word 'fake'? if only my diaries of reflections went that far back...) 

reality is i guess you dont have any friends left to stick it in...