... wrote actually.
I forget the exact words, but I recall perfectly the whole universe of her behind them: "I no longer take part in instuttions, or believe in the structure of institution"
Wow at last a perfect poem. Shivers down the spine at 6.20am on the windy hill.
https://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b00g42lc
The ' price'- there is always one to pay: just ehhhhh.... Be ing in place...never mind try and have useful words aside 'institution' for several months..
unable to Be regularly at ( quiet) sockets .... i missed bloody recording three simply perfect Something Understoods ( to save in my archive of the great culture, for a maybe thoughtful daughter, or other one day) from 8, 7 and 6 weeks ago before the snide BBC wipe them off after 30 days
ok.... so yestermorn
so much to wedge in here of the year... many wonderful landlopinh envounters just since Boxing Day
yestermorn a perfect morn
that place ... has the best wintermorns
if sunny
This time i take no credit.
A whack... due a slip ( recorded after the Katrina monologue)...
Killed it
And every violent fix attempted: whacking, even placing it over hot air from the windscreen demist flow.... burn the fucker..
whack again
boot it .. not with the finger but with the boot
twist it, tango with it violently
Bastard refused to
start
( a few films stored on it all devices chocker block)
And then
it just did
talk about what a great decision, a laundry journey fully paying for itself ( in what next)
hahh hshhh liar that was yesteraft date time gone wonky
go back a few days.
Absurdly interesting days
But above all he really is a find
Nearly on my list.
(" i just go back day after day... [ only at it 10 years.. that the genius rule: 10 years at something you sometimes become one]... return to them..... many hundred of them.... fiddle touchup adf some new poetical concept... all i just playing with.. as my mind still plays with life...i dont know what they are for but i try and get all my ideas in them..."
" Peter... all i care about ... communitarianism, wider being usefulism ... in a universal way ...rather unfashionable..... god ive tried !! ..a decade ... failed but i care about my list... if my lass phoned ' dad literature is for mad wankers like you...i gonna sell out and Be an..artist...'....i would say ' lass... dont waste your time and money on even Yazzminers London MF A.... bullshit universities and institutions..... nope ...come and just Be with this one man ... be his slave, paintbrush cleaner...pimp or muse it makes no dif.... he alone speaks the truth of art, he will show you, most is utter anodyne lifeless bullshit, and all Pastyland art is not art. [ 'no Peter i told you there is one... even if she hasnt updated her arty youtube channel many years ... and wont write properly like a grown up about light and ebergy she waves on
instagramofcoke......one day maybe she will settle down... write real long stuff with authority... as she us a true artist ' ...] his own failures .. his wishes, his modest self doubt of his true expertise .. and i have 3 hrs of dialogues him and i recorded over last few months... above all he needs a helper in ' passing on' his truly great spirit and fun...record him all of him for the next gen....i trust this man ...and i trust very few..and have never found any artist so human.... not lost to headupherownbumitis.... .this man can also instruct, guide... on how one can be a great artist but retain a plolite and real soul too..and communicate fully snd superbly."
