was that my line earlier today?
Well i am not wading back through my shit filled creek of typos and dangerous fast moving logs flowing from under her bridge ..of an online diary, that is only ( good, if the dots were joined) magical realism, failed to even be slightly magical... to reread it.
Yet.
But i know it was good.
Even if various languages i am slightly cognisant of seem to have each a few useful words
better than any here
but thats not any language useful - a few words from this that and the other.. all i know even if one of the hardest and many layered and nuanced in the world, words even conjugate to class and belief systems, English is so lacking in what i know is
me..
The' writer', as long as not some over self controlling immature person... wise real ones know: you splurge 1000 lines a day. If you are lucky, just one is good.
All the rest try to hard to Be something in fact they are afraid of....
as good as [ her] their great words...
That was mine yoday, one of about 10 but the others are rather more double entendre: or depend on... something else being read, rather than scanned, or spat at
In parrallel.
But whilst i am not an over-controller, take for example the word 'saudade' i needed conformation over some years from random Portuguese connections and it was the only one i activley disliked as a ..user... fake nurse getting paid 1000s per week as stand in fake childcarer...
rape YUK 8 years, then back to sunny Portugal with the money i greedily...need .for bling.... dont give a shit about the kids..
whos definition " its not finished yet" i know is the best one and true
the eotds are mote valuable than the lack of values in a human, so ignore the latter
But i need nuance info, on that above...
the internet i never trust ( nor the versions shown by... endless self promotors
Someone taught me that 14 years ago... i was naive then
IS this the right word?
But it must have no chagrin or angst in it. I don't in me.
Merely a statement of truth: done my bit, best i can, so stop...
to only have fun now...
and
at last only ponder 'art'
No point in YUK doing fact..or documentary
even if a fair bit of that on the can.. thats for another age, generation.
'NOW' ..only art... fact here
is fantasy
