Friday 17 May 2024

" ' simple' stories"

 ... I don't ( have to) suck up to anyone.

Thats is inauthentic, anyway. 

But i realised  only yesteraft, ' 'simple' is not what it is about. And this iswhy it doesn't quite work of flow pondeeing those stories. I do have and must rattle off soon.

But the thing is,

 one needs to remain nimble, 

via living to the setting of

' simple' 

In fact Be...cause

Deep down it is about Be ing ' happy' 

Nowhere, as a no one 

....not having childhood mates at the local school, even if my child went to the local school and was born West Horrirfordshire, to local born/ breds you simply dont exist ... ( once they sussed out you aint gonna be buying their new twee  barn conversion for half a mil  conversion) 

And years of bullshit " oh local Horrorfordians and WyeHayians... been so so friendly" 

try noticing how they dont even acknowledge the non rich incommer on the street for 10 yrs theyve noticed... at the same shop or whatnot...


theme park.

No interest to me ever.


But its in fact how come i could say 3 or 4 years ago ..." happy"  ish, often quite so..?.


when so many aren't ( there in The Marches)  or moan or.... 

And realising especially 2020 thats dangerous ...


the 'currenxy'  is the moan, or  downward sloping shoulders....  and often truly self harming behaviours...


so, knowing one is in extreme minority ( Laura the huntnag  boss  i think the only one i ever met same setting as me, ohhh Laura!!! that perfect day out on the maddest nag of all.... " Laura i am GLAD you didnt read my text or listen begging you: ten years  moritorium riding due sadness only time i ever did for decades was for daughter... please put  me on sleepiest smallest one...for our a deux..cos now youve seen me relax into the famously maddest baddest bi bugger  all for miles know of... well you gossip about that.... he may well not be quite the bicyclin'  bunnyhuggin'  

wuss ...we assumed hahh hahhh thanks, you a REAL woman...you took control for my REAL good: get the fuck back on, no excuses..") 


you know they will subtly turn on you.... 


so i had to simplify 15 years ago because of that...


As the extreme minority ( total rural hardknock AND reader of many  real lit..riture books...).. no one will be your ally.... 

well fuckem....


i know what two worlds to have the best of

both

but i just never met one like me,  ... 

or even a halfway,  freetoo..oh well...

where was i... 

simple, its in fact really hit to be built on being ' happy' ..


truly hard subject, but i know fact: when miraculously you are....  and i can remember the steps, evolutions....stories....  of how.

But it wont say on thw front ' this book will change your life' as Ove correctly does..

As it would be a miracle to get any of it coherently into bitesized chapters  .. 

its all far too... so much more  interesting..... 

though there is no

' summary".. possible, no  bitesize short version...and if thats all everyone can cope with...


no point

but i shall. As i keep to what

I

say..

no matter what.


You cannot get to ' simple' without negotiating and explaining how to Be; and what ' is' happiness...


I got there a few times, despite.... everything. And every...EVERYone.... 

And i dont lie,  for sales gimicks.... and i do have 10 years of audio waffled recordings of every word on the journey..every single one..... but




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https://www.ralphschism.com/2024/05/happiness.html?m=1


I am in"human" as i only  really ennjoy - but merely as a hobby, the utterly impossible thing of knowing a bit of reality in any modern Brit's life, unless you have got to know them well over years.

And thus nothing i encounter do i ever take personally. 

Simply because as of 2005ish in rural places being gentrified, all incommer people i ever met ( prior 6 Juin 2023) simply didnt really like the smell, stinging, unpredictability, need to ne organised,  of nature...so deep down of course they felt intimidated by those of us who   are years in nature, and get in synch with real rural life ...  so they don't like us, and are thus UNRELIABLE ...in all so called friendships,  or alliances...


their problem... even if it becomes ones own  problem only in ' loneliness' - almost no one on the same page, ever.