Friday 23 June 2023

23 june...one last word

 Except in fact better real words are myself and a rather sane 35 year old mum of a 10 year old shooting the breeze..

There i am just about to make this, and... 


splendid teuth teller " my 10 year olds ... whole environment is utterly toxic... fellow parents half mad...no values... not even "dont lie about close friends or mum and dad..."

"love...save her... Norway easiest place to find a passport... Noirwegianheman.com maybe who knows....

one place they value 'love'  "welcome... heres an immediate res permit..no we dont need to see your bank book... good luck with him.."

well it was like that up to a few years ago my actual speaking-with-real Europeans research told me...



despite me looking terrible... three months preparing to give up and leave...and come...

6 1/2 hours sleep average, still.... that nagging thing back of my mind awakes me too early - i shall return to non wake-early modenow...

for that period 

three months, is NEVER enough... and my own true sacrifice, as for many years. the fabulous 7 1/2 ...always...

And why i look now like a zombie...i never have looked like in the past ever...

Never mind, camera full...

hahh hahhh...



cut me off as i was about to say " i wouldnt even identify a county council official employed to speak ON the 'environment' ...who bulldozed badger cubs alive...and admitted to me in my recorder...high up on a hill..

All so shabby...

And my 'thing' is NOT telling tales...maybe in time (i discuss often but ALL artists i ever meet are fake people pleasers..." hey you have a high public profiler as artist...yet another headline in Torygraph "nasty family related to the H***** , who are photo's RUNNING Extinction Rebellion stalls.... get 6 month for ... 

" no point... a far better headline would be BEAUTIFUL PAINTING of the holocaust site (i have so many pics and films..) raises a million pouns at auction to establish a badger cub rescue centre ...in a nicer safer place than...******"


I had 5 worthy self righteous artists listen and nod enthusiastically... early winter 2020 not one of them could coherently even manage a few messages... 

My 'rule' but there is no point, always was "only name or identify anyone with serious public funds going their way...[ which can be subtle fake charity relief as in KL**N..]..or getting serious contemporary public support - which of course means tons of likes on their industrial inauthentic social media operation...


In the above case both apply...

But why bother.


Maybe i shall settle in nowhere long enough i shall write a half decent poem


As justice to dozens of badgers high up in a place i alone was their sanctuary set... i had found 2017... the farmers nearby persecuting smaller sets (unlawfully of course..one actually boasted face to face ten years ago to mine and my mentoree...young...) one day i was simply exploding with joy finding the largest badger set i had ever ever seen i a life of a fair bit of rural landloping...


" wow... their new base... they hide here...safe...no one knows they are here in all the undergrowth...extremely steep hillside way up adjoining the high common lands... wow clever buggers...safe...and what HUGE burrows..." 

never mind..." oh dont be daft... maybe 4 or 5 skinny trees over 50,000 sq M... no sane person will risk gaol for ten quids worth of timer... especially as they..dot dot dot.....and run the bigchurch in the town, too..."