Half a lifetime, that's all it ever was. .....
Ever
Was
Thing is, it's not a very poetical Wasteland...
There is 'atomised'....
There is angst.
But in a world where one is infact endlessly dichotomised
Or in fact just anti socialised
my whole life, 25 years
antisocialised
when all i wished was social
but somewhere nice,
tandem
A fact.
Come, for example, the Olympics.
Or..... silly me,
babes' footie...
A kiss is just a kiss....
Where was Timmy?
when we needed her, as she told me reagrading years as a secretary
to MP
" my knee is designed to be nice and sharp...for a reason"
The womens' football team
I am quite quite sure spend most of their waking hours
volubly stating, fact:
" we are just as tough and energetic as the blokes
" and our practical skills on the field are just as
"balanced
" spatially aware
" multi task able
" weatherproof
" no different to the blokes'
"game
so pay us the same!"
( and so they should be)
Yet, half a lifetime ago
I headed aside...
"A small holding?
" Seen the world,
" beauty, grandeur, wilderness
" but too much trouble and strife;
"wars, greed, trashed oceans
"time for mainly a quieter, healthier, next to nature, life"
but thirty years
A practical woman who can do her equal share, of simple rural work, fix the endlessly breaking bits n bobs....
helpmeet, wife...
.... frankly THEY, no one else
they...
put them
selves in some kind if forever
figurative, hijab...burka in fact
And guess what,
lazy?
coquette?
Just lost...?
the pain is on us
men who are left forever to just do the work
and worse,
endless loneliness
no woman to work alongside... sometimes, at least
but the joke is on'them'*
as there is only one way of life that gives true
zen
plodding along through tough outdoor jobs
fix and figure...
how to salvage, protect
beat the weather...
salvage and reuse...
save for sometime later
maybe ( if the loneliness doesnt take you to the cliff
one day)
Is the best of all mental fix there is
Always
For free
is 'humanity'
Was"community"
( sorry, 'community' is women can work exactly as men
can
always
not sometimes, always)
* =..errata 'them' there is no them
ask a woman weightlifter if there is any us and them
A woman footballer if there is us and them
a ballet or tango dancer if men have so much better balance that only 'THEM' can do a proper long day work outside .. balancing pivoting so exhausted a nail could tear any moment
so your dance is a real ine
real life
one slip and your dead
( rusty nail stabbing, good as)
and they'll try get you arrested.
So why for more than 25 years living aside in the rural lands, do i never ever ever find any woman who will be
equal....
and so the ferkin work
too....
its not about work
the work ' sets you free'
its about the loneliness ..
and lamenting their
madness
self inflicted sexism
them on them
endlessly lonely.. doing work thats so lovely to do and all you want is to share it for THEIR benefit
But no....always some ..
excuse
i just call that, one word:
coquette
or lies...
or not very 'self aware'
in fact
in truth proof
really dumb
its the only real 'healing'
and true self esteeming
i know
half of modern humanity skive off ever
Be ..ing
