Now that IS interesting..I am not alone!

Even if sadly there is rarely any real solidarity,

 and thus one must always assume no  "community" 

either, which is indeed not going around for tea and hemp cakes

but doing the really hard stuff, in others lives

young men child blocked by so called wives

If you are expert, do that down the road

or next little settlement, anyone can make hempcakes  

pretend 'charity' to pay their rent

Anyway i MUST stop having badpoetryitis especially as i was in some same-ole  dull little arts huddle and just saying " ive concluded  of late poetry is part of THE problem.."  one gets that auto-look as if one has said that one is off to Nigel's for Teapots later ..

Which reminds me, even if known of 20+ years ago and anyway it's in one of the GREAT books and my copy back in my stored library that will i guess rot away, too and end up ioina  skip (the amount of so called educator parents its been OFFERED too, for free...and even they ghost you!) 

which had actually been in the BBC library some decades ago

they clearly never read it either

"THE one natural product that really really DOES damage the body permanently biochemically....sugar" 

and that means ALL products that have high glucose-type sugaring ...

bloody honey, too, other than in irregular small servings

But what  really is the most interesting unexperimented is the way that without a doubt it changes MOOD.

(as i expounded in my copyright theory last summer whilst attempting to educate one lostish one, and as i would only ever joke or riff upon 'copyright' except maybe regarding the ONE private buildlingsite,  story site .. which would be not private if anyone ever paid their way, say regularly... as ....well paradise!! is... a clearly extremely intelligent woman who has been abroad seven years stating " my god i can really feel a difference...[ and it isnt good, compared to her fine EU home] "   so there is no hope or as Camus said "there is hope, but not here" and thus its time to find my exit fayre... thing is the same encounter and a superb young man,  thing is i was pondering just an hour ago - sane civilised people like me and her can always manage a siesta  - as long as i can still do that...me i cn always sleep and sad to hear that my one GREAT hope in this territory even she can't and has crises...i am a different species obviously of notEast Enderstimes.... which sugar brings on - rumpus external or internal....  thing is silly me i saw a 'future' yes so iof many many more somehow accessed INTELLIGENT sedition/rebellion or at least constructive critique...but it takes years of authoritative input that must never ever preach or demand it is right, even if the proof is EASY!... maybe there would be hope... but then if 99% use 'dyslexia' as excuse... and this cant read the paper " no more cash for SEND [ indeed this was an exclusive to this site 3 ish years ago as a welsh school head teacher had told me thats the secret plan and not only no more cash ' We in Pays Du Galles are gonna tear up your labels and pretend they dont exist even if of COURSE they all do even if the science a bit 'entitled' shall we say...  which is what even Starmerstanistan has just actually said, too....but as they can't read that on online moaning sites as of course their dyslexia will FOREVER stop them like me from even knowing if 'if' has one 'f' or two...  they wont ever read that - no more cash darlin! and will continue to forever campaign for even more labels and cash for their own next generation  do they have this in America notes #2 there will be many       )

 anyway yes sugar but the really interesting heresy ( i have had a role..)  is that in fact the pauper pantries - i LOVE.. really do find funny characters in them... 

Thing is.....  (heresy -  i hope she doesnt read this she knows my name and i like her a lot!) ...  sugar... the way the poor and frail and even splendidly swivel eye are mainly doled out  high sugar scraps....

this really is an interesting Orwellian Big Sister matter than NObody dare even mention....   

anyway thats for another day but at last i have some PROTECTION!!! which merely is ONE (i arranged for her to have charity)  tough nosed " i was abusederatti.." quite normal woman in fact who knows SHE is being utterly marginalised and treated like a pet... cos i have bolstered her into at least opening up about this....and SHE is in the very epicentre of The Source of ALL truly moronic snide bitch gossip for many many a km.... 

but i can't stay even if...

****

really.... i am serious....as it has been the central thing of life for 15+ years... 

the TOTAL inability to honour ONE simple HUMAN request whatdyer call that !?

(as EVERY English woman and loadsa blokes now every other word is 'narcissist' even the one seemingly sane one...  maybe we do need a new word for the actual  'narcissism' that matters...

seriously! ... spread the below video on all their "'s/he's a narcissist sites  - i am so narcissistic i wouldn't read any comments or 'pile on's if i was paid VERY well.... and i know i am right

 as this is the one of their as yet unlabelled labels  that matters )

plus super-fans, whether narcissistic or not i don't care but make your rediculously waste of space heads  useful and remember where my scythe is kept if i accidentally chop my own one off.... 

thing is..... i do love a true fait accompli and when Ms Regional Transactional paid friend-maker can't evern mean what she says

well, it becomes totem pole for a supposed community that is so the exact opposite of what they signpost they are 

Indeed the problem: for some years (yes about her SEVEN) the once great educational depository (acc typo,  i did write re4pository but its helping today, lovely word!)  the radio 4 afternoon play or even the small 15 minute 'shorts' they do every single one is fgake about some wonderful 'self actualised Ealenor Oliphant type gaily tiptoeing through life as a sort of latent 'kind' person just innocent faery....  

when in fact their endless 100% fakery

really damages all of society

good job i wasn't on the edge of some abyss of loneliness and pondering which way, up, or down... 

And as this is a paid 'facilitator'... who can't even mean their off-duty chumminess, well...

if i just printed out and posted the 100% unredacted [excepting email/phone data] actual real life correspondence it would make a REAL afternoon short story - and a GOOD one too! poignant whatnext?  almost a life encapsulated in a few pages of A4.. two lives of course .... that tells the true story of why there's no hope whatsoever at all in this fetid Aisle of i no longer no what anymore even if i knew that 5+ years ago.....

.....unless

BUt of course when all the Eleanor's mums (i.e. the publishers and the agents) are only addicted to sugar coated Elanor ....  

it became the ultimate not only bad taste, but cannibalistic zombie filled black hole WORSE than Mr McCarthy's Road...

As i knew a decade back 

why i set out looking for the only solution

One to perhaps sometimes watch your back

BUT there's no failure 

when such magnificent material

in my can copyright or not

All i ever really cared about so....

what was all of it the extra gifts (even real love) all about?

Same wellies as me...:-) ..could probably even spell Solidarność

 ..... " i only spoke with you as you're not in the bourgeois [Hunters/etc].... uniformity"

we shall see.

Being NOTHING actually changed from twenty years ago 

simonclayton2020.com and all that....

the number one failure of all time

How.... ever... what really did change was then - as all law is based on people being able to tell some bewigged toss pot, their stories....

most of my victims - real ones not made up for attention, mums and dads who wrongly had the "Maoists", to quote his LORDship.. Wall, sadly dead, being very Maoist, could tell their story in at least one dimension,  but then that changed...

as of maybe ten years ago its all sort of by ESP they would think just by picking UP their device to call the willing free lay legal advisor, moi,, that was enough' they didn't need even pen and notepad out to take down the advice they had called expressly TO receive..

never mind actually write out the STORY first....to save my time...

No hope but a crusade to get a lad maybe one day  over to Portugal - as long as NOT the bottom third all taken over by ex Horrofordshire and Gweek junkies and their 'retreat' ing trustifarian operations...

is a fine thing to hope to do ...

Now...my territory is rather superb but i need to hide from it... because an action must be done.

Soon

cont....to be constructed today

as i am so organised its daft and can do circus tricks 

Now.. here is one of many 'things' i not only ponder but also do... philosophise upon what are those i encounter and get to know non judgemnentally to be fully Narniac complicit;

But as one encounters SO SO many who are crushed by a bit of non-winter (even a local ally a goodun!) and obviously it aint the actual winter that crushes them its that they dont know what it is for - as a pure bodyist in that i am in far more bodily sync, harmony 100% consistency for at least 3 decades - same habits diet every day... not ocd merely as i grew out of needing to care about some special 'food' it being, fuel... 

its for adjusting to splendid longer nights and getting a jolly good 8 hrs almost always ... and then when you've plenished a bit...

figure what insane things to DO - in their "communities" not what i think is right but what they say is rightfully needed..  a bit of winters nothing much else to do with the spare hours than do something...hard....  from calling out cant and vanity to even calling a spade a spade and knowing which grave to be working on just making it a tad shallower...not for me as i roam even if i can't afford the fuel to go far..

(nor new tyres needed to go anywhere quasi legally.. other than at shoulder times when the fuzz are likely having their tea and cakes) 

   

winter is great its when you figure what really is what and neecessary...

and learn the way to get through

and DO

is there aren't 'difficult times' its all just a rerun of The Odyssey..maybe

BUT this language truly did become the self fulfillin' bleedin moanin' prophecy

which of course to query it becomes merely a bit of dull stoicism when in actual fact i got one better...

VIDEO PLAYLIST CONTINUES AT NEXT POST https://www.ralphschism.com/2026/02/now-that-is-interestingi-am-not-alone.html

 

 

revenge time, upon my superfans

and mean voyeuristic  readers...

(there are SO many lonely bitter middle aged women in Swesternshire who having ripped off the underlanyardists  - not as sharp lanyard edged as those above, to buy their shabby 'dream'  cottage -  which of course never works as you can't run away from who you had to be

come

but i could earn a fortune with a whathey called?,  Onlyfans  thing stripping off and jumping in the very underwhelming hilltop rivers all winter and giving them a very expensive pay-as-you-go thrill - pandering to their dreams they were sadly never equipped emotionally to ever follow except in the estate agents catalogue... cos clearly nothing else thrills them the wan looks and bowed shoulders as they get into their compulsory 25 plate ... or take a walk in fairly ok countryside, and spend literally half of it looking into their phones"! ..)

  But i don't do that kind of pay-as-you go or infact merely samey old sameness real revenge will be if the other 'stream' of consciousness actually achieves something, fiscal... 

It's so real-life good 

it could

And is SUCH a pleasure to begin to put into writings up and a few different videos audios which must not ever meet these here as its propper incognito...Belle Du Jour style incog...

Thing is alternate audios and videos are on the same theme... but you get the far less elegant format...to piss you off.

And they the other recipients the elegant... but they must never know of you - or not yet and thus material must be google firewalled to perfection...

videos here must never go there, ditto most audios..but not all some will be teasers like below....(due even they are supposedly finable )

free substack audio

American Notes (#1 are yank cultural critics so completely morally bankrupt as UK so called arbiters of intelligent culture became from 15 ish years ago?)

 https://open.substack.com/pub/ralphschism/p/american-notes-1-are-yank-cultural?r=2jdt8a&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web&showWelcomeOnShare=true

now even if not even started the real version yet... for you tight-fists...

there is a grand finale already in the can

for tomorrow

"tic tic tic.."

So yes remember while it's in my thick head, "censorious" that's the real word of the century..

even if they didn't really rev up until 21ish so as to protect their over-lanyard-class 100 grand  bewaged status ( real man with real values having GW 1 realised that the only values here are " turkey shoot em in their backs retreatin' from Kuwait " when push comes to shove, never pays any tax so its YOUR striven for conned cash cow wages that get taxed to pay for...them..)

Censorious... i mean how on earth can someone's actual disability be turned into an 'event' it beggars belief in nowt ever...

None of my biz merely to have been ACTUALLY 'witnessed' over some months is all that really matters in life ...

Anyway it is impossible, really impossible, not possible to be in such an 8-hrs-sleep fabulous balmy dawn mood...

errata as (they dont tell em in disability victim school) the definition of 'mood' is that they change

Mine never do although i do have to admit lastersept i did lose bounce-energy a little pondering a DEFINATE wintry death this lasterone

And i was not only wrong but the most opposite of second sight i have ever been.

(BACK TO HER LATER WELL SOON AS ITS IN A VIDEO CLIP WITH CIRCUS TRICKS - OOPS ACC CAP HAVENT DONE THAT A WHILE...)

anyway the definition of your shrink or guru should be sued for libeling a worthy truth is that nobody tells you what the end result should be, never mind a great definition of being 100% happy or at least centred : to know exactly where one wishes to be at some future moment; in this case, today, later on in better-signal-land as i only hate having to charge up (unless the one sane schoolteacher distracts me from the pain of it) and every smallest bit of power that can be saved is not just a bonus but life itself rather than charge in places of 99% only death...

and thus if in better signal all 20 mins of very fruity video taken thistermorn will go up more quickly  thus using less battery

 

Anyway back to yes the Sunderafterwalk - not 'performative' unlike all the rest of this so absurd region, who must be seen walking....and attired appropriately in the kind of attire that doesnt need any price tag showing as they know just how pricey they will have been in PJs...

Mine always to get away, aside..never ever 'hide' just not be where they are...

Full explanations later today. Not because 'truth is beauty' but because it is  indeed actually 'energy'... eventually if at least privately

one can turn it into a good joke every dawn

quite remarkably

Anyway yes sudenwalk... "what a racist colour blind cunt i am..!"

There once being the only great white

soul

singer of it

  

 

But hmmm... now the problem is there really are two streams of consciousness going on in parallel that need for reasons of hijackery, to be kept apart for now....

This one is the one I like and is about to get better despite all but 3 readers over 3 years being cruel tramp-house turnkeys, as George rather well described in his Down and Out   -  you think I'm all mouth well last two years i nudged very successfully three or was it four fine maidens into that book and they all said they really loved it

...  especially due to really the ultimate one of late, who proves, there really is no hope....  none zero...as video described, soon

But only the real Gay-icon-Queens of it, ever actually turn me on - and need deploying, soon

to be cont

oops forgot ... ralph exclusive

someone else getting a real  ' exclusive'  soon...if theyve ever had a true book pitch like it before i shall eat my v old knackered van

 

Thanks Dave and Nick

 under construction

ready soon

(show up just how mean cheapskate freeloader user freewheeler... errata thats an honourable free person, ehh.... Teapotist, everyone else is)

Rebellion. (and why the yoof have 'rebelled' by going inside... their heads, and even scrota)

free sunbsack audio

https://open.substack.com/pub/ralphschism/p/rebellion-and-why-the-yoof-have-rebelled?r=2jdt8a&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web&showWelcomeOnShare=true

and why 'science' is so spikey and disastrously British Public Schoolby who have to have it all just 'so'  as mummy kicked em out so young and they need to grab any old nanny's bib 

ohh yes and.....who is beyond 'rebelling; against as they hide themselves so superbly and furthermore are a virtually 'protected' species... despite being in charge of your tax cash.

ohh yes and the American invasion NOBODY ever speaks of...

refs

As of early 2025, women hold...... national parliaments, with Sweden (45.6%), Finland (45.5%), and Denmark (44.7

'twin studies' dodgy.  my my the AI is learning and gets it half right, thing is it misses the so interesting drama of it, still ongoing, how the majority of most science careers is in a wrestling match to the death unable ever to accept that they are naked too...  endlessly so much still referred to 'its in the genes' when so much of genetics is so dodgy as it was based on dodgy...'twin studies' 

From, it   (not my yellow why does it have to highlight itself?) 

Twin studies have faced severe criticism and partial discrediting due to ethical breaches (e.g., forced separation of twins), questionable scientific methods, such as the flawed "equal environment assumption", and fraudulent data reporting, most notably by Cyril Burt. Critics argue that these studies often overstate genetic influence while ignoring environmental factors, leading to claims that they measure environmental similarity rather than genetics

REF TO ADD IN LATER

speaking about experimenting on the pre pubscent ...ACTUAL experiments...

Kings College at 37 minutes in imply they are miffed they cant experiment on pre pubescent CHILDREN any more!

Emily (sounds rather American to me) and her English buddy, the ultra  protected species who own your ass  and are beyond rebellion as nobody speaks of them as a class (ive no interest in the transition wars except that Transition Town Totnes "twinned with Narnia"  - where he began, it....should have been put out of business for squeezing the balls of the rest of the eco movement....oops errata thay are out of business...they failed.. as they were charlatans, too....and 'divided' those few actually dedicated to your shitcreek of a planet... on chemical castration The Nutzis would have rubbed their hands at - curiously i have never heard any man eulogising upon such frankly evil stuff

https://www.bbc.co.uk/sounds/play/m002rq5x

American curiosities, even though I'm far more curious about the reality of Europe

 and last summer's ideas on exploring FACT, there...fine thoughts

nobody - no pipsqueak British writer or journaliser,  dares even have

( do European whorespittles communicate fully through the hierarchy layers that exist in UK - funny that...from the horsey's gob.. you wouldn't think UK was stuck in Victorian times unless you do hear it from one, unable to actually go and DO that fine questioning as querying is what civilisation is

and a few others, splendid things to attempt to query)

so can any American actually live better - FAR better, without a vehicle and i don't mean metropolitan metros  sufficin', i mean in the booneys.... old bike wjhatever the weather and you just don't go out in the worst theres always some excuse you can muster..

like does America have a fatal (it is as bookreading is the only way you actually grow up)  pandemic of dyslexia such that any somewhat more privileged region - as The Source lot arrived at Horrorford Steiner funny that how the infection crept in like sepsis - we never even heard mentioned in public 25 ish years ago, all became parrots - Green ones please! " my little boygirl has so totally debilitating dyslexia don't you know..."  

 

and plenty more to come, maybe..i hope

Nobody else ever asks such actually real questions in the 'public conversation'  - i know ive bored myself to death listening to it...

Furthermore lots in the can from the last month or two...

One is even the 'answer' ... i know and a fine woman  - well and truly in her 65 year old no more bullshit prime, also said so... 

who's trying to get 'in' with her half time mayor..in Italy...

"there's simply no way I am staying in this madhouse i made the mistake of letting my six kids be born into.."

" go for it girl!!!!" 

And he will be very happy too as only truth talkers (to be cont shetoo ehh sees through something...) are ten times sexier than their years 

thats a point is THAT known of in Youessay...?? 

even if i do believe there are only about three of us here i do share my opinions in person oft enough, and learned to say the right things to all of them...

all very magnanimous  and not at all Miss Anne Thrope..

BUt i know they're beyond ANYthing ...working

ever....

good job its 'taking part' just trying..

But no more

(at least she agreed " god so so many extremely lonely 60ish year old [ well ypou can't use real words like 'sybarite' to the faery class - 99% of em]  yes mainly women... bought their 'dream' after years of slogging away in the SE whipping at the the lanyards under their level.....   and.... well.... they were sold a very expensive pup, too..." ... problem is you can't actually talk to/with them...give advice, as you only GET to be top sybarite by never for a second ever having pondered other's knowings or livings.... and i guess dont even really notice how someone else isnt as lined and wan ... and only ever moaning...  between compulsory 'have  a nice day' kindof  utterly baseless affirmations  even the ST Trinnians teachers wouldnt have been quite so cruel as to have spanked into themas compulsory behaviour. and it aint stiff upper lip,  as sadly your Kisin-Lowe-Starkey-ALL OF THEM!  types dont understand, the 'Utopians' like Stalin or even Adolf were a long long long time ago.... we had this rather wonderful thing called modernity and some semblance of real advanced liberalism and universal human rightsism... and a t least a nod to egalitarianism.... the counter culture wasnt some aberration it was proper  enlightenment+ modernism+ a few other modern things.. not one of them CAN believe in as they were the miserable little overspanked boys who could only ever hide behind their toys...  )

righty ho.... so get OUT of here.....

 

having thieved the night, 

night after night I only sleep well, always

And i know most of the rest do not

And almost do consider my zen  a crime. 

no more reluctant conversationalism...

Even she - years no real roof to her name

 cannot even begin to understand the 'common good'

(maybe " you love him so one day you'll find succor in knowing no more choice, if you don'

t take part you will be part of the prob.." might one day work) 

But it's the 75% third sentence, just when one is about to pass on some splendid useful information, for the one not even one at her tit

 " I may not be able to read your reference...i'm dyslexic.."

Funny that, 4 or 5 million in a region, I must have heard at least half a mil of them displaying so rather proudly their label... or it feels like it... 

Wonder if it'll sink in by the time he's seven... it's not innate

 its dan 'n mum failing to inculcate

some things take a while but you just gotta keep plugging on

no idea what the rules are, just get your eyes and head out into the sun

("and don't trust the performative ' wow ive a woodland school..' brigade,   unless they get em out from under the trendy trees... and day after day too... as one little session here and there will never do")

especially months like these

All that matters in life is a February or March sun trap....

Perhaps will wake me up to grabbing what i need

merely to pass on some things from time, back there..

not here here's just hilarious theme park Disney bear...

And now i know why  'twas almost as if they  back then had their heads in his grip

 ill, sick... all that cash and the opposite of free

impossible to keep track of whats up and whatnot but i will soon

 

gosh i didnt see that!

 1000 readers 19 feb...

well bloody well pay up!

perfectly good buymeacoffee in the link at top thing that steals 10% or more..paypal less creaming a bit off, ...bank account numbers in link above which remarkably steals no percent

 some silly chaps did a few months ago and went and made me think i was onto something.....really did bugger me up that one as i ended up putting a bit too much energy into attempting to really get under the bonnet of it all and went and bleedin well wasted time on all that rather than looking for the next (DEFAULT except for one no-nagger infact she proved ehhh just how thieving all the rest are ) landowner to be illusionista...  so its starvation time soon if i were a yank i would sue those donors for false hope or false something or other or just being known to me ...

yes GROOMING!  (do they have that one there ?)  grooming one to be their little dancin' lapdog forever just cos they donored 185 quid in total ...and then lose the leash... 

but what i REALLY want to know is would an American know (one is being consulted as i speak -  one formally connected to British terrible art) that NOT being in any way appreciated at all ever is THE very very  best thing ever for ones....  creative energy

though ive had enough of that now such a 15 year expert i could write that book and it would be real unlike every book on Wintering or MCFarlane's Rivers are Alive 

but i think you need to be in 50s ..to truly get full nuclear fusion effect i.e. something very much more than your nothing much at all....

..when you know your bloody well right

especially seeing how everyone in the 2020s went utterly Stepford Wives/ Huxley Somatic... indeed as good as metaphorically Cormac's The Road... 

And that BAFTA movie....to think, one scene only of any elegance when the young brown woman elegantly creates a car crash otherwise bang bang and car chases and stupid ex army morons ... thats what its come to....

and cos of the Teapots i can't even google " can a british person seek assylum in some EU country " or ok you can but to find actual useful info all you are going to get is this as the AI KNOWS you are Teapot stir crazy 

Asylum applications in the UK hit record highs, with 89,500 applications (110,100 people) in the year ending September 2025. The system

And doesnt know people with a brain, even if they wish every immo in the world to come and have coffee here KNOWS that immigration is unacceptable to the majority,  and thus is over ... electorally a liability as they say...

And nobody has mentioned it either ehh Nige/Rupe... Tommy... THE TORYGRAPH THE TIMES THE GUARDIAN 

 something HAPPENED a few months ago....  EU borders, far far easier to police than say USA due lots of ocean went and put in electronic visa / identity stations for EVERYone who aint EU...

And it's surely clear to even a Teapotist that this rather large investment is for a ...reason.... to gradually fairly swiftly indeed one must assume make it rather harder for those economically migrating or even the mad ones who think they may be happier for other reasons in UK or safer  ..here or anywhere else in the EU, which is between those other countries and this one..gradually harder and harder to transit on the way to get your rubber dinghy

I mean you can't get a dinghy over to Malaga and then hop on a plane over to London just like that no papers...  especially when the EU border forces gradually actually make their investment actually work which obviously they will have to or they look rather stupid... and EU borders become far less porous...

how....ever....soon a few days ago an audio made that io know nobody dare even mention why the Teapots have no chance...

soon

and i wouldnt have the time free to meander muttering pure thought if i had to do the roughly ten minutes per payment inbound it takes figuring when on earth one clears and checking endlessly as you cat trust any tech bro or sis... or any of it...so i win

"permacrisis"

 SO when all we ever hear from the so called intelligentsia is "permacrisis" there's only one crisis in my world which is when i for the first time in three years i slightly lose track of a few themes bobbing around for a few months, that get into my videographic dictaphone,  and i cant get a quiet desk for long enough to sit down and methodically write out each video timestamp that is up on the waffletube  so as to keep methodical track of what is up and whatnot

But one day i shall.

Especially as .... 

saudades have to be worked at getting back

++++++++

like i want to know is ONEKEY life known of in Yankland? as the  key to life 

zen in a bit = live on no matter what

and prove you feel like it to yourself 

on your terms

which is tidily

especially as its all very well Henry living 'deliberately to show off with all that erudite grand thought, when it's in fact the super SMALL miniscule thoughtful stuff that no matter what makes you actually 'happy' and tells you why bother living on..

Anywya to be continued symbolised by 

oops i am so out of sequence gotta go back a month but there we go zen is showing your very worse side and not carfing a bit even if i do care as a message is all there is 

when one is utterly drowning in this Utter bullshit EVERYwhere 

 in fact that chat three years and a bit ago ...  affinity is only one thing:  " god and my ohh my they spend all their time at workshops to show off they can afford them.... do you.? ..no i thought not.."  ohh well there we go but i had no idea just how OCD they are about it, which also became something only to make money from.... if one gets one's 'send' certificate ... i bet my van they won't any more cos they spent all the cash on sends  and theres no more cash left

and the SUPERB lovely honest teacher i met in Lorna's gaff a week back she said..." i have two in my class... nobody tells the thick media.... they dont actually get any extra teaching ..!!" 

so sunday afternoon although ..

 i shall ever again talk with a chret

( what he said 6 weeks ago proves my  purest zen ever! as i speak with him still as if the only one to be do madly cruel ..never said it ...a yank would have defo pulled out her revolver and gone and had a word...or 99% of em...i think... i would like yo know)

is for walking and no devices ever...

especially as the only app i use The camera and voice recorder 

and most carefully take a pic perpendicular ..

since they put in their'ai' the stupid yankthing thinks it knows better

( even if final  10 years experimentalism, states all brits lost in space...

just poss one or two yanks just maybe can think...and know how to spell constant ( values) and affinity around em if nowt else

though theres one last domestic experiment underway  

and i known jow to not care just be ...

There never was any hope

 

'

now the problem is is that 'language' doesn't really travel.

THE one great tragedy of the UK is in fact this business of definate mental 'illness' that causes the ill one to have hoarding disease

a great book - novel!  i read over 30 years ago about a hoarding man, so its not entirely new, but has SO exploded... some suggest 10% are enthral to it and if you once had a seemingly sane neighbour who's girlfriend  was really quite damaged by his illness too even if due welfare state gaming they pretended to live apart.... and he really was the most 'intelligent' chap you had met for decades - could quote long tracts of  true genius Rich Hall could never equal, ALEXEI, VERBATIM

thing is what word do you use about him... the hoarder ... over time we settled on 'princess' infact even he wisely agreed he had it in spades  - all the ones he hoarded including the very rusty old ones impossible ever to fix, even by me pretty good at fixing almost all...

'twas a word that worked. Of its time and place ....

But will never i guess travel unless in a good book. 

And one thing is for sure Eckhart Tolle would never understand the actual power of NOW i shall fix the poor princesse's sticking door despite her being a mad liar who slightly takes public money (which became also false love-clicks on fakebook for transactional reasons)   because the sticking door annoys her showoff very expensive 5000 year old dog...

And i can...

And even if she ends up predictably stealing (by actual legal definition)  ones property, all that matters is her job got done....

and princesses cant be fixed...of either sex

now all is private 

as i have ONLY one interesting question i have to at least write something half true about

but i know exactly where the line of incogniting it is...

so, for now....

Well, i never.....

 On the VERY VERY Last bloody day....

Even if her taste wasn't quite as true-SOULful as ...Ove represented so magically....

Now, this is merely notes for the next decade:

If she the official paid 'shaman' can take the worst kind of personal offense directly sent into her transactional, inbox....

And phone-message me a smiley.... MY SMILEY THE ONLY ONE I RECOGNISE!!

stupid Oggle doesn't even have it the upside downy smiley one who knows it's all an absurdist joke

... well..... 

lets just say even if it is NO interest of mine whatsoever... zero...

And i am so happy to see they also kindof realised that voodoo just gets in the way 

Anyway knowing how ridiculously fragile all these (yesteraft walking with my audio  - new level of sageliness, yes i was wrong!... there is summit worse than the lanyardists ..their bosses... who are above wearing one..... and most semi early-retired down...ear.... god it's even more of a hell than Belfasrrst in the 70s ... at least there you knew ONE at least still had a soul....and was god of it.... racist blacksupremacist that i am,  i always forget poor old VAn...  

and i always forget even if a bit of a regular wake up tune....

The get the fuck up, song....

they of course hate you for as it means they too may have to every day, at dawn ...and surf the inspiration that always is there no matter what...

perraps the first equal in the 'soul' stakes

and bugger me if you do get up at dawn you can still do it almost as good thirty years on why didnt i go and see them... the ones that got away

but better not clog the screen up with too much Americana... spesh as i am not sure i would dare ever again -  i mean it was 100% normal and accepted in them 80s and nineties the LAW was even if you fall in love with one, you overstay your visa by even one second, youre likely to get shot infact just to get IN the third time in a year that one near 40 back,  frig trying to convince some ranty bloke  in sunglasses to protect his eyes against the burning fluorescent in his Hartsfield-Jackson dungeon, you werent going to transcendentally stay there and wasn't going to work or even pinch one of their rarest,  fine babes,  god talk about third degree...... with menaces,  even as a most unassuming limey 

(this is INTERESTING....so here i am sat in THE warm rain  - a gang of military types turn up at their motor, two motors down, all military camouflage sleeping bags... pretending to be in the SAS out on manoeuvres on the most underwhelming hills in history....  and ten minutes into their fussy packing up their motor, suddenly i am actually overwhelmed, smashed in the nazal area... poisoned.... by the smell of the chemicals they spray all over themselves  ...wafting across even here! ) 

Anyway back to the point i have so little battery to make.... so wont

REAL soul keeps you bopping around actually as if not much time had passed

The Black Crowes-Thorn In My Pride Live at the Hammersmith Apollo London 15/05/2024 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eriGXtroKE4

And i am better than them at that...

yes so this transcendental thing.. the buzz the rapture the problem with it is its always or usually connected with some search for 'meaning' 

meaning the chubbies who havent any, as they stay in their suburban flats up all night grifting the online 'space', have simply no idea that it is a neutral thing...  if you learned to enjoy chopping your logs age 11 aside a great man, who could have been a woman, too as potentially they have just as much potential ....wow hang on

Pornhub blocked in the uk 

so they say ('free speech' ehh ... controlled?) 

 why on earth didn't it occur to me

the land of the free

porn sites that have ruined the world

may also have MY kind of porn...

wow the ultimate

even on Fakebook, this you can't fake!

https://www.facebook.com/watch/?v=1181030432854601

Anyway ehhh sadly though in the land everything has to be smiley showbiz... (and i would STILL like to know if there is anything real, in the heads that lasts Forever)  most run away ... eventually so when you are left chopping your wood alone, ahhahhh if you were taught well as a young man such that you don't have to show off chopping it and can pass the time - being its second nature,  with a splendid bit of marching music in your, then Walkman,  but it MUST have soul and gypsyish soul at that... 

even  one could never condone such pants and talk about traumatising and THE reason why one ran away

with just the right soul on in the ears.... the grooves, the accurasee...

 are even truer than back then....

and even a back support belt, I'm sure most of YAnkland may showoff with.....

Misses the point....

Its purest ever joy if you can do ANYthing ... unadorned, unsupported just pure cavewo/man

well, now...

Even now you can be transcendentally transported to the truly lovely rapturous feeling then... 

As long as you don't believe in Now...

here

nihil, only..

which is what visitorism always did, good writers figured that centuries ago

 

  

lots of really very interesting photos go with this one about JUST how cruelly around 10 thousand American prisoners of war were treated here...i had no idea i think The big Orange  should tarifise on that too..  

Anyway back to... well 

I didnt expect THAT

ps and last word via email as its always just walking on broken glass if one wishes to communicate ANYthing beyond bimbo pleasantries (not a sexist term 'twas infact first coined for male dandies in QE1's court) probably too forward... 
context, i actually don't go 'out' at night* so shall not encounter you in that manner....

Though i am a 100% rugged real outdoors Heathcliff -  he would be jealous of my an actually authentic one,  for a decade, longer really, all i 'live' for is to attempt to write engagingly, but i also believe in other media - film and audio especially  - about .. the bullshit society is drowning in but in a positive way trying to describe what it is firstly and how one can live well, aside it...

good for me

though i do believe in 'grass roots' avant garde theatre and 'events'  - well thats the thing when we went to see avant garde modern experimental theatre in the 80s 90s nobody called them 'event's ...  they were too important - psychospiritually ,  to be given a silly little word like 'event'..

I do think the 'social'  'eventing' is almost the enemy of coming up with actually useful things to say about society (funnily enough even if 100% 'alternative' culture in young man years, i 100% believe in formally splicing babes n blokes together in ceremony so all power to your elbow)

 In fact almost randomly (meaning maybe the faeries are in charge but me i know its impossible to know if thats so)  

the last week for the first time in 20 years i have been back in touch with the woman most important in my 20s a yank  - beautiful utterly princessly (though from true HICKSVILLE) and we were best mates for years and we would send back and forth across the Atlantic 'our book' 

https://www.rockmywedding.co.uk/wedding-planning/readings/the-bridge-across-forever-wedding-reading

" is it time?....do you need it...[ getting stuck with life].... ok its your turn i shall put it in the post tomorrow..."

talk about ultra romantic!!!

even if i nowadays really wonder about the word 'soulmates' (thats a longer essay) that book indeed did guide my whole life  - still does, stupidly...

why i believe in as full-as-poss couplings..marriage or handfisting [deliberate typo play on words]  and bloody MEAN IT!

i.e. Bach and Mary Moviestar Parish after fully merging, ONLY then,  were then able to fight the  big nasty  environment destroying  beast about to destroy the wilderness they moved to live by..

i.e. 1+1 = 3..

(and i hate ALL Greens even if i was a leader of some as they simply refuse to point this out - " GET IT ON [as Marvin sang] as you will be more effective IN A COUPLE.." 

that to me is THE main reason all your rivers and beaches are polluted cesspools - they are by the way... i photograph them which is WHY i must stay incognito god the bourgeoisie of Dartmoor Nat Park HATE anyone saying their underwhelming hills are a cess pool of cess......why, cos it would affect the truly absurd house prices

*anyway yes me i'm all the way babe but i dont go out at night as i am never miserable even when i cant get a valentine date, even, and every day always awake 0530 and attempt to rev up and get groovy with words....

for very serious reasons, as above, but .... yes i think formal coupling is so important so i celebrate you  the celebrant

though think its also overdue for some comedic action.... 

serious - i have meandered the SWnear 3 years as a writerly philosopher and one of my gigs is enquiring of higher up  Christian bigots  their thoughts on marriage and i find it extraordinary ALL they can ever speak of is homosexual marriage (f lasts 6 yrs average m lasts 7 ...whereas hetro almost double)  which i find extraordinary as the whole tax system inheritance legal is still posited on formal coupling  and homo is only 3% ....  and yet nobody EVER seems to have anything good and philosophical about hetro formal couplings...

i was full on punk age 17 no prude...  anyway yes although you havent met me i have been actually your sales agent for the last 3 years here - and 7 years meandering sage and George Borrow style writerly gypsy soul, 10 in total...  so you owe me a coffee