So, now I understand...

 That's a  profound 'understand'

 How their "two face" (to quote the strong-handed German)

 conned even metoo; ten years ago their cultural apropriation, 

Now i know,  'mystical' monetised masturbation

Did indeed have even me sucked into dreamy discombobulation.

Nothing to do with fairies.

Rather those who mean what they say in environmentalese.

Existed just as reality as "them"

Made up merely to fill the void and avoid, 

bein' cleanin' lady. 

Now its all so clear the made up  mysteries

(did she mean it, her look when i said "people please"?)

 

None of which gets to me

Thing is that inner angsty rather sweary 

other face.

Entirely out of place 

In theme park central, here.

This one though, has it made them mental?

Funny thing though  wandering their hills several days, 

 i don't see many getting out, and all  "elemental".

And then the first landlopey passing the time of a lovely day

"any good paths up that way?"

 

"  only up here for the medicine, and only  found one little 'shroom .....I'm having a bad day"

 

Anyway right excuse me for living.

Never mind wasting my time, even with fountain pen.

Now i REALLY do understand....

The lifestyle.

Twenty years' almost ago. 

The first arrived in rural sorty-of-pleasantly

aside.

Her big fat 'healer' 

"healing hands"  (today would be dotcom)

And as history then did relate rather funnily

 All on stolen ebezzled coerced ...money.

But i didn't know ... really, why twenty years i had absolutely no hope.

Just how much an industry they all are 

No different to that other one

JP (Mister Diamond's charm offensive week)

 "the largest employer in Dorsetshire.."

Of course they have to have somewhere to  'entertain..'

'Hospitality'

play

Why there's none left  

Anyway worst,

 not even verse

merely due bein' averse to all their bad nature book words

(even if at LAST one made me laugh a few days ago

off we go)

All i know 

is twenty years of all this i really didnt know

Amd now i do.

Nothing to do 

with this fake 'walk'

my reader will have to go to youtube channel if theyre curious

This phase takes, time.

 

At least mine

is almost always abundantly well rested

From actually being able to sleep.

That abundantly normal life-is-sweet

understanding the key, even when bittersweet

Unlike almpost everyone Ive bothered talking with ...

here there everywhere

Ever since they began to arriove twenty years ago in the actual rural hinterlands...

But i didn't understand how deep

it all went

So of course one must always go to the source

(ribbed anoracks and performative horse)

So, now i understand...

 

......... Endlich.........

(a seemingly perfect ending soundin' word i would like more in depth research on actual lived usage even if its best word for death perraps)

especially when as if on cue, 

even here in ok natural spaces

walks past walking person painted on smile on their right Charlie faces

seemingly now almost everywhere never off their

as good for you 

as intravenous  dogpoo 

devices

everywhere

me nobody ever 'connects' with me on mine

which is why i live in this 'moment' 

the only one there is

just fine

(and the end as i do 'get' it now researching what made them, this

only back to the start now, soon)

Ohh i forgot ! talk about how life can spin on a dime

All of it

There i was listening to the one in front,

("it seems to be on strike")

" what are these mum?"

" they're to stop you getting overwhelmed ...

"one a day before you head out to school ...you know how you get overwhelmed.."

And i knew i was dead

thoughbubble " i should tell her how underwhelmed i am

"and how underwhelming all of life has been, may as well have been also only airhead

' ehh luv..... shes got more lippy on than awful Waller Bridge..

'nails, i see ...ehh dont the teachers get rather on edge   .... 

' bit of a... maybe not quite  school attire

' and not even yet an official preteen... ' 

'maybe thats the "overwhlming" disordered  clue

what it may indeed meen

'she's a young child  ..... not you ...

'not sure any magnesium supplement 

can bring her innocent childhood from a seemingly enforced retirement' 

'but you know best of course just my ... advice' ..."

And one turning away

Is the exact opposite end to a curiously 

All.....  is nothing

(closest suposedly untranslatable translation) 

(as "them" philosophical  Greeks once said) 

 day

Now... if i wanted to be a writer

 ...there is only one tune, that like the best art, doesn't tell you what to think...or even help in any way understand what on earth they may really mean

which is why 'twas always the most beautiful genius once, and reminds me how they latterly  even collonised  for clicks and cash, the non word

'feminine'

And when North America was indeed 'Great' 

But then....  it just occurred, having wasted a few weeks - even if i started 7 or 8 years ago, knowing what 'it' will do to 'thought' as it hoovers up wikkipedia,  pondering as i relayed lasternacht even really....just how does one screw ith its head

Blow its fuse

If only everyone who understands the 'common good' would write essays on their Fakebook about how  after all "them" fourty odd years of developing  the best modern Enlightenment  culture, afterall the Queen of it all was always 

the one whom even if every 'superintelligence' in every 'Many Worlds' universe  and mix in all of magnificent Don The Hoff's Conscious Agent theory.....ever extant,  were rigged up in parrallel and the pedal was put fully to the mettle - a wordplay on the so hardship of the Glandy language 

 (ideally two per van at least so as to peddle  less oily stuff per per...or perp..yet again demonstrating even Miss Mensa of all of Serbia aint ever gonna get all the rich headfuckery  of the English language)

It is impossible to deconstruct her into 'tokens' or meaning or predictting what word may come next

But it's impossible not to just ...know.....   perfect  meaning and communication....no so called 'I' could ever tokenise in all the copied Fakebookese and WikiAuschwitz  death to all real artful actual best of ever "human" 

when you meet it

I did ask it once " ehh up Chat, luv chat with me  about what The Sublime is..."

And you may as well have asked a 3 year old with her teacher stood over her clucking like a goggleyed hen whith its head chopped off... they still keep clucking even when head disconnected from body... 

I know it would take another whole lifetime to even begin to gather what on earth planet Catharina was even 'on'....   and as it's already a bit 'mental' maybe she indeed is the final solution, if people would just ask it the right questions... which are unanswerable, such as why are all these smiley mermaids from places like HAtesville just so unhappy in real life that never gets onto their FAkebooks or even in their workshopped half life ...   

Even if i do know the answer as Herman with his Sid  had it down  so beautifully and bang on ...   

They just didnt believe in the right hard working wiser ones who went before....  which is very very very  something or other... 'ist'... 

 

 

So, never ever ever ....

 

 but

THEN 😍

" i do like the way you use a fountain pen.." But we shall come back to that ....

 now, the blue book.

Someone else saw

but it'

s what's "innit" (did she steal my wordplay?  wot sin nit ...is a whole adult lifetime of grapplin with why the fuck bother with Herman, Thomas the Mann, but far far moreso Wendy,  and of course Ethan's mum (i told the stunningly goffish one in her bookshop yestermorn - and she agreed at least the Rachel didn't have any pity innit " we don't learn from pity and thus i learned from her 'terrible' tale... "  even if she was maybe in a bad phase as the beautiful poetry of it grabbed me even at my worst phase ).

A picture that is the definition of  from a weekago of hahhh hahhh well she may've been a "fickle friend"   whom i used to do propper 'nature' filmin with.... 

but talk about being actual a friend with 'benefits'

And an 'intermittant fault' which was impossible in this universe and even Douglas's fabulous other where one may hitchhike in and out of on an old Raleigh bike...

It being impossible to, having pulled your central lockin' fuse several years ago, and as she was so 'lookin' for a babe's never been born',  good at "clickin'" the battery.... so as to save battery power,  even if the whole of Mordor was against one (not that agree with any of this fantasticalism nonsense REAL life bein' about another universe more unpredictably well-i-neverish

"ehhhhh..... that is impossible, now what....."

hahh hahhhhhh..... those little plans made just in case...... i smiled... as she saved at least my window 

  

   

Righty ho now three years of gobbledygook ....  deliberately obfuscatin' the 'entitled' sybaritism which denies the most disgusting swamp in history

Because they 'bought in' ... and theres a price more,

 than mere dady's money

But i have to go back ten years, specsh i hear it's now her big day in the High Court.....

Ten years (thirty really)  of ....

Now if i say to a hillwalker " there is honour as one meets walker women unless they're English and embezzlers and even that's not her fault as BPD is more endemic than the prozac piss that began around 20 years ago dribblin' into MY daughter's river as they all knew.... 

Especially Baroness Helena.... (who's yuppie moving boxes i still have)

as once she even commented years ago just how totally at ease she was in nature all day Pied Pipering all the other kids into her magical REAL world of ferrits ... upon the riverbank or rather Hay Beach 

Which NOT ONE of these incommer plum-in-the-mouth " ohh my new wonderful [nowadays they would get in 'abundant' ] friend is a nature writer ..."

liars EVER EVER did one thing to protect EVER in any way ....  or ever in any way suggest ANY way we could lower our impact...

metoo

wetoo

thotoo even if yer all the meanest ferkin AI bottiebots in history

well make it herstory as i found THE answer...

once

but herstory shes not shy but Charlie made her ill .... 

hist story

is merely 

hysteria

i saw it with mine own all seeing eye 

Rigfht thus far gobbledygook

But all i know is that unless you have two using up a gallon or so of the vile stuff

And even then as she saw

I am that hatefilled asbergers riddled adhd dyslexic self pityin fragile x syndrome cunt who never ever ever ever drives at more than 52mph   even away from their vilest meanest most drug addled fake peaople pleasin' meanest unfriendly bought-bohemian   region of "them" sybarines ...that even turned a valiant mountain woman from the higher Balkans, into one of "them" ...right Charlies......

ive ever known....

Anyway the lawfare mad 'green's especially their head man wouldnt understand, what real environmental awareness is...

If you must toodle around in an oily one...

at least try and do it two per ....

Otr if one has been on that splendid 'political' crusade for a couple of  decades and failed at EVERYthing always 

Then develop the gentlest foot always forever that never twitches nor goes over i-need-a-seatbelt speed

Ever, because if you actually like kids thirty five  years ago, at that moment one goes from the selfish atomised my-peddle-is-my identity, to i can't ever even dream of drivin' at can't-stop-speed just in case there's someone elese's kid  not strapped in who comes through the windscreen and ends up splatted on mine...

And it's great for fuel economy too which in a whole peninsula of Glandy people pleasers is one partial solution as my ohh my they don't half steal your time..   

 yestermorn

Yesteraft 

This decade, 

thisterday

at lasterness

Just when there's no more neediness

For six months my broken (by my neglect) snazzycam phone thats only usable as camphone so in fact is just a cam

used its 'AI' to go and endlessly upgrade itself and as it did it improved itself in one rather fundamental way bein' no matter what the fake 'activist' cohort may say (we shall REALLY come to them, soon) , Mickeysoft is still the ubiquitous platform, and  to review a bit of film quickly grabbed as performance arts ironic attempt at something...

Just in case there's naughty bits in otherwise known as reality they would as sure as ferrits are ferrits at least run you out of their sybarine theme park, no parking here unless you do the same yoga as us... but not at dawn as the 'shrooms' havent worn off yet...

Anyway six months  - april if my memory serves me, plug in fancycam to so ill laptop it represents - artistic proxy for,  every single Glandy one ive met...

And one cannot look at bits-o'-films made  without starting up some other energy drainin' 'app' that doesnt even allow thumbnails

And so so kairosly just when you are finished forever (that fabulous kraut word)   almost randomly due another 'AI' upgrade which means you can't even plug the ferker into the same usb slot you have used a year and just copy and paste your 'camera' files onto desktop of laptop

(bein' cant view or review ANYthing on fancycam)

It wont even allow that any more as it has "enhanced" ones usage experience

But there it is even if in gobbledygook....

 (all usage of has to be  worked around and pondered for if it works landscapey or even upside down as only the lower 3cm of the screen works ) 

 at last just when you no longer need it at all as all is over 

oops fatal to go into "insert photo from 'blogger' which means the photos already put here as i LOVE my chronicles even if half must be hidden, for now....

 

 

HERE IT IS, THE END... in her so simpler than ours, language

I think

It means i am crawling off under a rock atop the hills to give up and die ...

BUt i would like to know fullest nuance 

All following many are a reprise but maybe from other pages you can't see

yet

such as the one where dogs are made to wear thick pullovers ...in JULY of the hottest summer ever

but even George wouldnt dare make it about "them" .. here now in we-are-dog county which of course is proxy for never DOing anything about tjhe doggies having to inhale eau-de-doggiedryrobe 

He would never bother knowing about

Just for now ... a sneak preview

And i have a perfect memory i know full well that there's a note three months ago saying " miust finish the  Ant interview soon..." born 'n bred  "ive never known such a mean vile dump im off.."

soon

i did do 'learnings' once

shame they get the dogs to learnem ..now

(lasteraft)

righty ho THE ultimate parable about actual 'nature' and the actual zen-mindfulness the real version 'learnings' you,  is in this end product film from 2018 ...soon

and all nature is just for finding clever cheap ways of living, with

poor chap no one helped him either

we shall come back to this piece of newage claptrap they ALL now display on their coffee tables ...soon

he should pay him copyright fees as Ralph the first knew and told it better fifty years ago

(the net result of all the chakra stuff  May 2023 one day her story does need telling)

The first of...oops second.... of the great Former Sovs May 2023  

(who was telling me yest about all this i  have too much going on sometimes curious for Siddartha who wants nothing goin' on ever)

Ahh hahhh i forgot i had riffed.... a fine Romania actual-environmentalist December 2017 in the Cochabamba cafe of women revolutionarties

 

" you are right Shhhimonn... i  am wasting rthe petrol economy with these silly pieces of plastic ... and thank you for saying how interesting my soul looks through the 'windows' once the silly things are up.."

" you are ..Europe.."

And a few of them took thw rong pathway up to Paulolands

ahh yes.....soon

the worst case of people pleasing ever 

2021

but its all still really about....him

I did love.

Maybe more now in a way now i know what so polluted his probably ok once soul

Dom and Steve's babe if only she knew how successful she was 

I think if i ever can be bothered call it "them" magpies... as known 1/4 of a decade ago, a whole county full of them....

which is an insult to fine very beautiful and graceful  oppourtunistic 'thieves'  the natural version 

I do hold accountable as a certain Burke said "all it takes is for..." but then they think Tolle or Eisenstein or ...

Now i need to know if Germania has an equivalent of maybe the one most beautifiul foreign lingo term a decade ago found, randomly, out of the mouth of the worse jerk ever met... 

i shall show her these ... there is always a way

Rather than being leaders like the Charlies they merely resent deep down they go and lead some other something or other all the way to the snake oil supermarkets

ahh there they are 

As she said yesters 

" we at least can still take the piss out of ourselves..." 

the queen of

Not just their Path

Now one day

The bookends

The beginning

And the END

(that German word which means final, all smothered out,  cot death...well thats my reading this far)

He helped too, bigtime

Righty ho now revenge of the actual countryman 

2021

if one must use petroleum products - sometimes it is best envirionmental bang for buck the modern fencepost for maybe 20 years from such poor wood and as for the 'treatment'...well if one uses illegal creosote  at https://illicitgirlsridingclub.blogspot.com/

it may actually be better for whole earth 'environmental'ism in the medium term...

especially if it means you can reuse second hand posts and make them last another 10 years  perhaps ..

as long as you treat the posts after days and days of careful dunk and dry dunk dry ...  etc

nobody EVER helps you with (20+ years) especially if they say " i moved here cos i love the nature.."

why in fact i am much stronger than i look, too

but the whole of life was wasted and a failure and in fact i was early morn musing just how beautifully nothing the whole of life was...

And when i say " I am Siddhartha.."

Well, i better prove it.....soon