The Sublime

 the last little section of reflection has had a bit of pictorial add in....

 hahh hahhhh.... now we're in trouble.....meaning the whole of civilisation which started with the first real book .. probably before in fireside stories

Anyway... Youtube seems to have a new neurosis in that you put up a few minutes of video as in that last one and it now spends 5 minutes checking 'content' which means of course their fancy new 'AI' will 'read' it....

Now i know there is NO hope when the only woman i  knew had a good mind goes and as usual FAkefriend-performs interest in 'AI' as if it is some cute little tool that even underttands basic intelligentish wellish read and do a bit of ones own sleuthing too as i BELIEVE in 'some'thing....in other words it can 'chat' ordinary post-enlightenment thoughtful   person speak...

 

only once " ok chat with me cunt...what is The Sublime" in fact i asked it that obvious question in as simple language as possible. No ambiguity...

The Sublime is something one so rarely sees. I saw it in someones artwork yesterday....   it 'elevates' you for REAL....no faux pretence of liking something as all the other vipers all cliquey like it too....

Nope... the chest heaves with emotion  - the right kind - 'awe' but not the awful English Public School boy version of 'awe' being something that's gonna whack you on the bottie if you are Mister great actor McDowell in IF... one cowers at - pretending stiff upper lip to take it like a man but you know that that kind of 'awe' will hurt you at some pointy if it can....

(as in the great storms Turner painted up in his log cabin)

Nope.... The Sublime is in fact (my hated word) kindof about juicy magic...maybe magic... it never quite reveals itself or purpose... but European languages and dictionaries are far more enlightened in suggesting it may be there, and  of 'lofty' intent.... maybe for goodness? one never really knows but that's the hope....

Even the Polish etymological dictionary them not exactly an honest or honourable peeps yea yea we know they had  a hard time but they just want the bling back they had 150 years ago... their etymological dic does speak of goodness...

The just maybe-magic just maybe of 'lofty intent.'..

unlike the English version of performing that whilst figuring how to stab you in the back when your dozing in your tent well away from any of them...

Even if they get a free pardon as they don't even KNOW that's what they're doing as they lost their simple philosophical cortex decades ago...

But you would have thought Mr GPT had some notion of The Sublime being a complext word and concept various scholars (as long as you dont include any of them except my many year customer Babb fellow of Oxford writing about...'it'...  THE Bible on it... a decade later " ughhhhh... i just cannot get there....volume three is what is IT??!!!....  but i do know one thing, it recreates itself every day..."

sadly the man i knew very well and had long engagements with over many years asking him please to share with the world what he was being paid to write thus far as he was dying.......who couldnt share anything despite being also Christian curate as he aged...

This is 15 years ago...

Anyway to the point Mr GPT not only had not one thought to share about the very subtle complexity in that world which DEFINES all art - the goodstuff... from the enlightenment...

it didnt even know what the simple (wrong) wikipedia version of the word was....

you aint got a HOPE in hell.....

when even ..... well

give up.

But i knew the future before even asking 'it' that test question.... and anyone who thinks that anything 'tech' can ever in any way have a fair mind is really stupid...

As it clearly was.....

(a decade of doing peace treaties between parents from 2006 - THE one group of persons who when you get their background one immediately knows they CANNOT compromise or listen or get over their own pathetic imnadequate arrogance was ALWAYS anyone in computing....  and then the very very close second place became any client i asked about their 'sprituality' if they said it was important and they only cared about manifestly good vibrations and healing all around...

infact errata they were as inhuman first equal as the geeks...no humanity in them...unable to understand that "sharing" a child means  with him/her too.... even if it was 95%  female child abductresses  with all those so so so c,lever even medical treatises on why mums brekky full of supplements and detoxins...

cant be replicated at dads and if Corro went there he would die immediately... but we still value dad as the beloved  equal spirit we prey to every day...

and thats no skit either...

funny things patterns.

Not funny when you find them to be templates for absolutely every copy cat

But nobody dare join the dots ....

maybe they cant see them.... good job i have a magnificent library of references blahh do blahh....

about the pasterregion...will keep me busy well beyond thisterone

I mean when you say to EVERY single landowner you work for witha  smile " if i die of a heart attack nobody helps us rural workin chaps  and most just nag and undermine as they clearly hate men i mean its been like this 20 years its not like any are original.......chuck me on the compost but i ask ONLY one thing you find Ralphs sickle and pass it on to lass.... " and you  just know that not one will have remembered your ONLY request of them.. even the next day

Anyway great art thats got a bit of Sublime sprinkled over it ... its still alive in my minds eye now and will be for a long time  as if i had been invited up to see the actual original 'etchings'

ohh yes thats a point maybe the 7.5% are honest.... i mean TRB a rare hero.... chief Gayman sing if you're glad to be.... cos of his superb War Baby

well it clearly  was a phase.....

as i hope his children have learned to make GREAT jokes about...

jokes cure all..... eventually

(but not being a Green under ZAc you will find when his first words in power were 'he should be locked up for his  kick it in the balls ...joke!" which is over my own line however as example to the peeps...only FREE SPEECH will save your planet....

pissin' on the polluters parade

and if Mister ZAc doesnt know that.... 

you havent a hope  even when hell boils away and your just left with a hard planet sized  ball of oxidised bathroom products 

(wow what a GREAT bit of imagery perhaps she can use but nobody ever ever ever believes they can really change and become even more sublime...) 

The Last Walk (as the one enjoyed talker couldnt be ... theres a word that rhymes with that ...but SHE told me to REMEMBER to prowl in HER woods!)

now...ALL literally ALL i care about is some beauty

but if one trudges through item two here, that rteally is THE one and only thing that therapises anyone even me....

All my words vids and audios have actually rather fine quickshot photos (from 15 years ago!) that quite poignantly also tell stories even if as i rarely emailed perhaps yes a few paras of poetical explanation makes them..understandable

 in my case that is rather not so interested in the 'mythical'

bullshit

But the real esteem - thats what its all about the endless for 15 years fat lanyardists bragging about how they are esteeming (or the ubiquitous Big Sisterspeak of 'empowering') people via their lanyards when it not only doesnt work like that

Its the exact opposite. As the only thing for many years i liked was being shyly pretty quietly unesteemed to bother saying much....

And even their endless 'empowered' will fall into the boggy mire at some point and being 'empowered' is the exact opposite of your rope ladder out

In fact the rope ladder to.... 'centredness' or whatever word is merely knowing over time that the you you ARE ...nobody can even imagine as you had to kindof pump the self up to become what you didnt become as deep down you are what you are...

but everyone will assume the exact opposite

and 'giving away' ones wish to do it in the beautiful version with lovely pictures is just as much the cure, to being human...

(as the battery wont last and that mode takes far far longer )

which everybody wants, but nobody dare ponder

The Third Sector (includes churches and all the slightly public cash funded). And The Source is their 'retreat', too. Poor Nigel won't have a HOPE of even understanding as they are clever unlike him

https://open.substack.com/pub/ralphschism/p/the-third-sector-includes-churches?r=2jdt8a&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web&showWelcomeOnShare=true

For the 'shy'; and true "centredness" for the brasher. The best real therapeutic 'work' of all the Jordans, Eckhearts, Gabors even Martíns and especially McGillchrists wont tell you, as they can't.

https://open.substack.com/pub/ralphschism/p/for-the-shy-and-true-centredness?r=2jdt8a&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web&showWelcomeOnShare=true

just a smattering i think they live with the above audios sort of even if every word for 3 years is all about oner same subject

sexist piggery

 yes him the once god,

a true once-poet

implyin that women are dilettante  foodies and care if their rice burns...

rather than care about  a good Montaignin' bitto nourishment over the aga

or on the floor if its clean as any American would demand will kill her if theres even half a germ left

anyway errata homopiscine...

Now the funniest thing ever was when a certain BBC VERY VERY  common as muck, everywhere, presenter polemicist, read out the data a few years ago:

" gosh well that rather surprising i thought it was far more maybe ten percent ...than the 1.5% gay/lesbian...." when reading out the 2021 sexuality census data

words to that effect OBVIOUSLY.. but unquestionable in that you could hear his tight bumfucked butt  - as he is CONSTANTLY reminding us, squeek on his seat.... [ a real man Douglas Murray even if he went very very wonky, when gaza hit the fan,  nevertheless i would listen to his material on freedom of speech for at least 3 years and had no idea he was 'gay' as a real man doesnt have to ever mention it..].."

so in fact it isnt the homopiscine 

causing extinction in more ways than one, with all them poppers and ky as they were always a statistical minority

(of COURSE if one looks at the data ["7.5% did not answer the sexual orientation question"]  one could theorise well maybe they were too scared but when the bbc has been  for years bringing out shows about the only gay in tghe welsh valleys being all happily out.... and anyway the first Tranny April Ashley moved to even HAy in old days VERY VERY bigot redneck and nobody actually ever mentioned herhimher whatever the latest nomneculture is...  

and anyway on his own BBC maybe 7 or 8 years ago a superb scientist who had lived 30 years with the rather randy 'if it moves fuckit if it dioesnt fuckit til it does' bonobos...  actually with them.... said " well as we know they do  do it up the back alley plenty but....every single one i got to know well meaning all my local triube at some point or other had a girlfriend too....  and bonobos dont believe in a lovely bucolic meander up the hills...its all or nuthin with them!"

furthermore surely by 2021 it became so so popular to try and join in with everyone else in every play and poem and drama and everything on the BBC demanding one is in this huge homo-gay (i though fine lovely lezzies were officially gaytoo? even i cant keep up even if it was wonderful seeing theior theme park around the toe clearly a getaway retreat to... perform everywhere holding hands... blessem but you cant ask a fat incomer clearly VERY unhappy woman being plenished sat oon the bencjh overlooking lezzie-central if its a thing as one ios hissed at " thats a very SEPARATIST  thing to ask.." all we were doing was figuring if the walking companion could blurt out something direct as she was pondering scientific 'experimentation' fuck they assume ... no man can ever even ask a nice  gentle question about reality - but i have a plan!!!)  tribe...

Anyway now 

for the last year (book ten) well in fact the next ten volumes

splendid many month chats witha  woman

recorded as we were 'working'

i mean not me i wouldnt for a second express my factual opinions on thge reality of anything wo/man....  her, she said " cripes not ANOTHER wrecking ball of a childless [middle aged] woman..."

her filmed expression told it all - scars, spear and arrow..

and also digital

and she is 'of' this land/tribe at least 20 years.. they are her so called 'friends'.

I am not interested in negativity even if its funny

only positivity

And.... even i was shocked when after we are deliberating several weeks how yes MALE dominated foodieism...

has wrecking balled once saneish society....

and as her business was being a foodie for hire despite also being on the dole...

(as her childless wrecking ball landlady SO SO officially eco worthy witch [the tennants words not mine or maybe that one was... yes it made my friend the tennat laugh]  landlady renting out substandard accomodation at an 'eco' retreat would have known as the dole paid her rent...to her.... (as was so so many times seen in Horrorfordshire from 2006ish) 

Anyway NO sins in the SW in any way interest me

(except the two new ones i have discovered regarding the only real woman i have known 100% glowing with total womanliness as she knows as she meanders the marketplaces of Northern PAstyland... pimpin her ghood book and splendid glossy broshure on SUNSHINE makes you live longer so you can go indoors to worship MY god on saturday even longer..."

"ehh Claudia isnt there a small contradiction in message ...well a bit of it...how about you repurpose your Hall for Tramps and you fat load of bourgeois moaners do your god thing outdoors... even better naked..as you are right with that doctrine in brochure number two...."

Only made her gorgeous Christian Soldier eyes widen furrther unblinkingly and smile even more the only real smile i guess i have encountered in all of here...

even if i am open to being proven wrong.

Anyway forget lost religious nutjobs even if the one lastereve was superb for real.... or maybe she wasnt maybe she just took their 'alms' 

well she did, only 3 quid but maybe was just the cleaner...

though a  superbly educated one.

i test

Anyway .... several spring months brainstorming topless on the most glorious even if polluted beach of all....

and i knew from day 1 when " i dont shop in supermarkets " was the usual lostgirl sad attack

(when you see later on a house packed full of WAitrose finest... nope Waiotrose of course isnt a supermarket...

in fact as i sat in jallopy in the lanes  errata byways of hidden Horrorfordshire early 2021  

i remeber exactly the moment

The first ever Waitrose van was spied meandering in....

even there, utter pestilent drug addled alcy shithole, of redneck mafia,  my nearest coop, Kington... (the ones who couldnt afford  smartdrugs addled Hay or  Presteigne   had to make do with from about 2015 or 16...  yes i must get to her soon.... what a pickup line AND she laughed!

(it was a test)

But all of that is irrelevent 

all i care about is quietly SHYLY being myself

(she sure wont believe)

and the utter miracle spiritual or  straight from the Holy Ghoster....

one cannot know

It is literally in the can just like that

the next day:

" god Babs.... this stuff on foodie bullshit taking over even sadman MAverick a bob the beefy oligarch's shitpipe builder brownosing to them with his so sexy brown smiley face....  he sneers at behind their backs... you have his number and my script how to lure him the one only man worth luring so you get the good seeing to you are clearly  well in need of too....[ this isnt made up real stories can't even be slightly sanitised or bowdlerised]...

"babs... i CANNOT in this universe of your stupid Oracle Girls frequency off the scale of sanity or any other write a whole film  script and paint word pictures of all the scenes crystal clear...just like that, or ever.... its NOT me.... i am a ponderous wistful poetical type named his lass out of Hooky's first equal Up To Me....

" i love Poliakoff the beautiful quietitude in his one about poignant pictures...a slow build..... and you did too....at least then listen to me....  arft takes years of being in the cauldron whilst the fake witches are trying to get you arrested for questioning their recipe...

" but it just came from nowhere  a whole film script whole thing characters you are in it as you want and need to be.... 

 its perfect...fully formed just like that when i woke yestermorn at 530 as usual and as usual waiting for 4 hrs for you to even get out of bed and get to work an hour later or hours if its a detox or supplement research day despite you lying about being 'au naturelle..' all of it....you are heroine who ...changes

its beautiful

right let me spend a day recording writing it up see what you think..."

response: basically "its genius..." 

in Cheltenham ladies speak which is  never say so but immediately make pages of notes on my script  about how we can bring it straight to screen as its brilliant and maybe her sucking up to Mister rich "blue ensign" yachtie those years and his actual oldman dick, ..not in Shitcreek-on-"Hateful"-drugs but where the real yachties pollute the seas, Cannes...

could be networked into something real 

Anyway yes all i care about is past material about past places...

And whatdyerknow some is really good - especially the foodie one 

which is far more fabulously Poliakoff or even dodgy Tom Stoppard than the two of them put together inb a fringe minority irrelevent movie about those so so many millions of gay men roaming the land being abused...

(perhaps they have had their 'turn' law is meant to be about proportionality.... even if an insignificant minority...and yes when the Queen - EVERYones favourite wine bar owner of Leominster with MANY gay men clientelle..... heard that her boys school had extended 'pride' week to 'pride month' very very very comp[ulsorily like ebven in assembly...even she said " ive now had enough this is much to far even here theres about three gay within 30km and they all come to my winebar  the only others we get are the lost ones from HAy where it seems they were lured...dragged in almost... "

" ehh so as you CARE...and as ALL of Leo loves you....why not stand for the council so you can become maYOR OR SOMETHING ADULT..... acc cap but... i know the Green party town and county councillors.... THEY nobody else THEY did this... its how they lure in Jerry and meander his arse all over the place for THEIR benefit only pretending he doesnt like the little whippings he will pay for rather a lot in London....in fact is victimised by them....    )

Anyway one can't even write her exact words or describe her expression which said  "i am a VERY reasonable pro homo woman  but this is far far too faR AND WILL hurt MY KIDS... i HAVE HAD ENOUGH"

OOPS ACC CAP

HURT

CAPPED ALL THE REST DOESNT MATTER 

But one cannot have all this cookery nonsense real men call food " fuck do i have to tell you one more time BAbs food is FUEL only.... brain food or JOBfood.... "

 even she couldnt listen the way they nag " but do you want the seasalt or ordinaruy ohh no i dont have ordinary... salt or anything.... ohh i see your cheap nasty coffee is there you must be mad to say that tastes nicer than my WAitrose as ...blahh blahh..."  which turned all Britishers into pathetic little private schoolboys who can only get 'love' via the spotted dick  they were forcefed at boarding school...as mummy couldnt handle being their nurse so Shipmanned them off ... away from any humanity
to board

(as Oliver JAmes alluded to but living so close to Oxford had to downplay) 

without blaming who really started it

even if one of a handful

 (so hated by my absurd little Cosa Nostran ex drug dealer bro in law, once business partner of, cofounder of.... as he didnt get the  same media attention as his once partner, money can't quite buy you..... especially in UK media run by jolly good  and quite ferocious, sex deprived... Cheltenhamates behind the scenes...as sure as ferrits are... )

still i am quite sure  playing footsie under the Olivo..or Olivetta... tables with the bbc media journos who lapped every drop of greasy olive oil falling of his sweaty brow (cocaine fuelled so often) making their sweat even more profusely

twas ever thus

But i dont think there is only ever one 'victim' in this world 

even if this first fallen Empire near 2 millennia on are Cosa Nostraing themselves almost as if in revenge

under the hem of even my lass 

so sneakily

such that you never ever know why .. the introductions

as of course really you can't have the one person who saw through the scheme 

at the same funeral or even in the will

(so glad i never had THAT poison chalice )

None of which matters really the only thing i knew 20+ years ago that mattered is if even a once ok Blackbusheist

hetoo never does anything

never means the words we knew quite well 45 years ago

as he's too busy sourcing the lastest foodie ingredients

Of course he never had time...to ever care about HIS PAstine

 seas all not very

clean

or in fact even care

But dont blame the women for starting this decades long 

all engulfin' latest addiction

all about the rice burnin' in the  kitchen

 

Now..

 there is nothing worse than going into a Proustian

stream-of-consciousness

stab, unthinkingly

 at the keys faux-poetically

even if its merely the greatest of all failures

("i want to meet a hunky poet " said she..

guess he must be strung out on shmaniac  

monetised bullshitto

unfortunately

never mind all the "second sight" 

as here and now is the real fright!

all metaphysics mere evasion

... avoidance, of the necessity to now, DO something

 - yes it can be 'saved' from him this bolshy nation)

And there is nothing better -  yes SO SO much you wont guess

energising powering this 

and the pondcasting, mess,

than at least one finest witness

on the same page.

One actually groomed and  manipulated into reading rather a lot of

"them" - the correct usage

other usages warm and loving vibrations of her loveliness

even if my ohh my some bits something of a mess

Nowt to do with me as i know the solution.

Its "care"-DO...

the  solution for being, you.

 But yes you wont find it in the liars' (thats plural, postrofixed after the s means both of them)  book

who's absurd publishers would have said

"nobody will give a fuck.."

And anyway don't frighten away the lovely tourists

(me middle of nowhere, on her hills

AMERICAN stars and stripes jeans walk on by...

no way do i even say, hi..)

"if you think their pongy chemicals are polluting muck"

But yes one fine woman

At least a  week between even showers first time thisteryear we met

did in fact and we smiled

Irrelevent.

One person's pong is another mans lolipop

(fuck i hope she reads thats funny

you had to be there

and it just came literally as i was at 'man's the next word manifested itself nowt to do with me

as i learned, errata was MADE to.." let the fuck go.."

anyway yes a walking companion

all one wants 30 years!

But at last someone to also share opinion

95% of walkers passed upon their PAstine pestilent 'PAth'

10 m after we passed them

" god did you smell that!?..... in fact i smelled her/ him as this is no longer sexed

30 m downwind 

s/he upwind ahead ...

how is it that nobody can even go for a walk even in full India/na Jones kit suggesting theyre here for the big one

without dousing themselves with loadsa bathroom products 

to come out here the main purpose being mainly to avoid other people..."

and most if not all ARE xenobiotics

meaning, nature does not know HOW to break down the molecules in many of our molecular concoctions

theyre all addicted to except her... 

And yes.... even a smallest droplet of your 'benign' deodorant

blowin on the wind

is not the 'answer' even if one

of all them

which are the only conceivable, solution

infact that's a point that first encounter

probably so pongy due still addicted to her deodorant

and all the other 'products' in her bag

my ohh my what some will do for some fantasy shag

pant pant

And then there is Ms worked in Superdrug

told me of her bees murdered by sprayers nearby her perfect acre

of course being polite and scaredy cat

i never did muster the actual courage

to say " Candy ....ehhmmm. that inch upon your skin

well..... one bit of that fizzin into the .... "

ahh yes thats the real point the scientists (still arguing about 

 ) are STILL arguing about a showoff newword  whatever it is the homopiscene  [fuck me trebble entendre in THAT one!] or whatever it is...

and that may be the wrong Sabine-porn clip as there was one around 2 mths ago where she wonderfully rants on about whether its the Anthropocene or not and in fact if my memory serves rather contradicts this one.. she saying NOT!.

....... THE PROBLEM!

the peeps are thick, political messages need to be repeated ad nausuem in a simple way...as science became politics decades ago... as is ALL human activity in a world where never mind climate change the mass extinction  due xenobiotics and oliveoil slicks.. gets worse by the day ...and your real problem is even senior YUMMIES of XR - the incomer one who would man the market place stand into my chronicling device actually said " ehhhhwww.. we dont do..[are FAR too good to do in humanspeak]...politics.."

in response to the simplest question:

"that Horrorfordshire council emergency climate motion last week.... maybe a start....but i wasnt there and been busy actually saving solo a wildlife refuge... so ehhh.... was it 'binding' or nonbinding' do you happen to know by any chance ....as Little Miss sexy XR i see you often performing in public here in Horrorfordshire......"

This recording when i get it out is the definition of why your 'Western' ..ie uk usa... planet has no hope...

if you ever ever believe any 'green' person you need a head transplant

Get a Bolivian one instead.

They know rteality... and thus women are 100% respected there always forever...as the women of Bolivia actually sacraficed

their real lives

to stand up to the yankee corps in 2003 trying to tax the rainfall on their tin roofs... hundreds died...

for taking a stand

and thus are the happiest women on the planet by far ive ever had the pleasure of.. just sitting for hours observing...

.

and XR can only bitch, about the correct question, ased regarding their brandname "Extinction"

why you will go extinct too

 

but nobody will DARE ever state maybe your bodily chemicals are creating in fact a 'smellyscene'  (i am intellectual and if i meet a scientist immediately can state hi from the anthroposcene  but we only iuse big words with them paid to uneducate kids via them)

in fact even Sabine who dooesnt know the science of desirability is prior to her hiding her age behind very very red lippy only recently she was so so so supersexy it was daft...now just looks ugly and sad

but yes the scientists  cant say " maybe my buddies too are using too much chemical stuff to just get off their couch.."  so they cant even decide if its the anthroposcene never mind waste another 50 years on is it in fact the smelly one...

 (one microdot of smellies even smaller than a microdot of Gweekian psycho drugs... will exterminate a fly as it tries to go and eat up some raw sewerage in her creek....  which also will exterminate it poor thing as there is no 'raw sewerage' its mixed in with prozac fatpil fatjab periodpain pills all of it.... nobody will ever speak about.... which is bizarre as sewerage per se is good for everyone especially the flies its what theyve evolved to  munch for din dins ...as long as its organic or should that be vegan poo....  one lost track decades ago of their neuroses.... one and all...)

Now...it won't make much sense ... for now

 100 nosey parkers

 doubtless so still pretending to be forever young wearing parakas 

purchased in some Ssswestern 'flea market'

where even the fleas run away crying at all the potions 

and fake emotions

never mind " fuck this for a game of soldier ants

fifty quid for a moth eaten pair of old pants.."

And poisoned by the doggie powders

(EVEN SOUTHERN WATER SAID a few months ago, quite rightly

" we cant cope.... your doggie [toxic fleapowder] 'dope'

ends up down the drains and can be scientifically discovered

right out at sea!...

you have to take some responsibility too...

what's goin down your draains and 

prozac pissin down YOUR loo!"

But of course whatever is the next 'formation'

of these 

(even if its hilarious 

the 'doctors' now rolled out

(bet theyve been paid a commission 

by the department of work n pension

" ... all these labels and little hissy fits, nefarious

labels and other normal life-sucks-then-you-die stresses 

[ i mean the poetic skill as i never have a second to think

a though bubbles up catch it before its in the sink

hole, of all the other lost thoughts,  

all of which i still have even from

pierces posts half rit 3 years ago

still active  alive, nonghosts

but rhymin hilarious and the exact right word nefarious

i never even use in real life

meanderin the hills ten years just to run into some 

just about acceptable two-per-woodburner Missus Wife..

But you cant use big words to their face

i aint stupid, 

fist job, find out if there are two stuck in place

where real rural peeps know that the meaning of life

is take down your mask, and if two visages

well at least  coordinate the messages

one hand writes and the other  seems to blow cold water innit]

shut up and get a job...

or else its hunger time

even if the Tourette's interferes with functionality of said gob ..."

ehh wahat was i gonna ramble on about

At least nobody can call me

ADHD

as evben the ministress of it

says " get a life"

but theyll never say due health and safety (their Yank insurer's ts and cs) backlash

two per cooker never mind motor, saves your cash

you can then spend on overpriced vintage

and carry on perpetuatin' the mintage

mint age....

of breath smelling 'nice'

due some sweetie

or very very aromatic  rice

and well the latterday vice

Im amazed he himself aint removed it

THE story of this pathetically precious century

only a truest ever genius  (century ends)

can get spatula, broccoli.... and clearly alliteration of what theyre up to

down and dirty under the 'hem of the night' as the rice is burnin 

their whole bourgeois castle of a house

down

And then..... domnt blame anyone else!

They casteratti'd him

Toned him down " or else dave..."

so yes it wont make much sense

but in fact the one lie i HUMBLY mutter over the last decade

was... " well im kindof writing about ten books, concurrently

which was sort of true but not exactly organisatedly

but then.... even if ONLY about lasterregion i wouldnt return to if you paid me

the necessary security costs of protection from badger exterminator

MAccurachs' ex SAS buddies 

(him vic to them twelve years if memory serves)

even if they were seen in them hills, these

But thats not the point

As in fact when you have nine books to finish about there

and then....

a last dull quarter decade here makes it ten

 Thing is my non existent ADHD

as even Starmerstan  wants to roll out default

" your ferkin parents FAULT"

but thats not inclusive of the 'looked after'

mentally murdered by Local Authority

only really  'manifests' symptomatically,

cos i aint got a socket just an old battery!

And in the meanest region ive ever known

all quarter of a decade even the bishop my supposed buddy

and her extremely expensively renovated home

never mind deny

my walkin companion

a ferkin address to which  can be delivereth a parcel  she needed from fuckin Amazon

(that was mine in fact ... 

but thats a more subtle mutual aid tract

being i donated 200 hours to her for free

attemnpting to save her from the doctors and  healers who never fixed her

by expletivating " if you wanna live another XMAS tart, 

see the kids afront your apron,  as your apron

 y'all endlessly hiding bihind.. next year

silly Jesus time,  too

well get walkin that fat arse

up and down The Track you live near....

even with...me"

(plus one or other of the very nice women also sourced as walking companion... why bother a death wish is a deathwish....)

Anyway..... every second though, of their gibbing (last ever usage of that obscure PAstine 

word as all they do is pine

 for something they never were

(EXACTLY like all 'Celtic' peoples everywhere

precisely Asterix was a real GAul

he wouldnt have gone cap in hand to Whitehall

" aww guv we need more cash as were all so so  to be...pitied.. got a mil to spare")

 has worked..

Because in my landloping

(ohh i do hope The Daughter may find it useful...it really is the solution:

the words do matter.. their harmony frequency and vibration

that one just says in fact its a word that whistles its own tune:

meanderin hill 

(i dont recognise the  showoff word 'moor'  theres just dry bits and

boggy... 

its either clear

or foggy

it really does say just whistle whilst you walk

or in my case talk to substack

sometimes

And the funny thing is in a load of waffles there are chapters - some extremely good 

i never for a moment thought i could

  that one day need tearing limb from limb

branch from poisoned tree

And put in the right order

collection

edition

and somehow bring back the gentle art of

sedition

all mountainmen farmers where  i was raised

knew that cheeky jabbin

scurrilous  word stabbin

is how you make new FRIENDS..

never mind learn to smile at

those bonkers lot that will be themselves to the bitterest end

anyway yes i have never in my whole life encountered such mean pouty peeps who  even if ladyBish, never even ask you if you the 'traveller' 

need anything, practical

and the one time you ask

you find out the real key to their horrid kingdom

of litteraly nothing but PR

spin... 

 hiding genuine sorrow and angst

wityhin

them all

oops thats great  - the keything.... only one on my keyring

to Segway now back to the beginning

thats already in audio a day or so ago

 

But i have a BETTER theory.. thats just bubbled up

 

René Girard: The Catholic thinker influencing .. the sad 'tech bros' who couldnt get a girlfriend in their teens

or ever get Lesley U (the sex bomb of the whole Vale of Clywyd and hills) up into the hills alone that one time .. especially after she gets HERself in the papers as  winning the 'Beauty of The Vale' competition to self-objectify her amazing ones... which us alternative actual counterculturals  decried..

unless said 'melons' were available... up there in the bracken that day (after 5 years of dull Cider Rosying foreplay )

So, theory from 20 years of practice.. the practice of, ...

(observing the REAL behaviours of many especially female incomers  to the actually real rural aside lands.... the DSW being merely all a  suburb theme park  and thus a great martyring sacrifice to meander here for... FAILURE... which in times is the only actual mindful zen and esteemy thing (audio soon from lasteraft)

observing just how really unhappy they all are by any reasonable measure...

so the 'mimetic's are the devils tools .... as the ACTUAL newculture of the late 70s knew even in the bleedin sixties...

but hotdam i have forgotten my link its bubbled back down... not popped..it will come back, as i need nothing...well,  except one thing

and the only things my dull boring mission of 20 years  things...sss. i cared to influence a bit, and failed are both linked:  ONLY psychologically healthy youngsters can  future protect their 'environment'  .. FACT ...some bearded Tarquin who was fucked up it by Edward St Aubyn's dad as his splendid memoirs speak truth of... or just ordinary pigeon fancier type of humble one,  whos drunk mum back in Hull tortured her for her kicks... cannot ever do the HARD many year consistent work of politicking the powers that be or ...come...to the environment, to make cash from it,  into behaving as per the CURRENT LORE...

only psych healthy kids become just about effective nature stewards,,,, (eg all of Surfers Against Sewerage clearly were abused or kiddyfiddled with as they fail in everything except luring a  deviant younger St Aubyn  heiress to their barbies... all they really ever wanted)

simple fact.

And thats the real reason theres simply no hope for them hills them rivers them birds...none of it

its a simplest possible one way circular economy

called they cant get out of that used bathwater flow that drains down the plug..

a whirlpool of them (i know who should pain it my ohh my her glorious funny art is still bubblin' up in me today)

thats not the theory!

i have zero interest in  any of the above, all failed....

merely to discover a few little cutesy new yogi teabag worthy  aphorisms ... but the real ones we actually did need...

As their first edition really did fuck it all up bigtime..

(i have arty mounds of them i saved over the years one day to turn into art )

the first simple sayings included my only commandment say what you mean mean what you say, and a few others as  wise..

But then as they expanded, became successful ... god the desperate need to perpetuate their cash register ..ping... almost the exact opposite of their first slightly wise sayings started to bubble up everywhere.... . that would be a great arty image too)

this is NOT my new theory as i have still forgot it..

for now

Escape the goat...ee bearded "victim"

 Righty ho nobody scapegoats me as ...

The thing is i know I am average (even if almost everyone my age group is way below average in respect of what we can do rambling up into the hills three times a week, no stupid wanky walking sticks, nor unnecessary wellies or walking boots unless  - yesteraft -  one is to enter at last her rather magical woods...  almost come what may  - illness bugs whatever  just walk on....)

But average what? 

I think io have it.

As it is quite simple their supposed trendy new philosopher  and his 'mimetic' this that and the other, is TOWNY!

The fat London priest of course we have had to tolerate for several decades since he said one thing at London 'Occupy' of course is too fat and towny-wobbly to THINK...

"maybe.. this so called genotype .. mimetic innateness... is innate in US townies..[only]. cos the townies learned how to suck up the oxygen all of it decades ago... well in fact at least a  century ago... and get to write crap DeBotty type books..... as the publishers are too fat and fearful of a walk in the countryside so they only like their 'type' they also don't like.."

Which one cannot theorise as innately all sociology is done by students living in towns many from towns... by professors living in towns...all by choice.

Whereas some of us  age 10-18 living lonely lost landloping the hills even if at times meaning a flock next to a very highup range of hills we had grazing rights to  -  a REAL shepherd  (my flock had thousands of 'common' acres upon which to roam before quads made it just a joyride ) 

.... i have never wanted ANYthing that any other person i have encountered has... nothing ever...

And my famous theory the 'tech bros' can have for free is all one ever wanted was their crap to work and stop updating into nothing new ever...

And all this 'desire' of what others have in the third person...is a towny neurosis NOT innate human attribute,...as if one is in ones formative years in nowhere places one learns to be a real human and not need anything...

(except the usual,  innate

mate) 

thister morn a first ever awoken by a bee buzzin around my head at 5.20 when i wanted a sleep in ...bastard nature should all be exterminated and... anyway  

René Girard: The Catholic thinker influencing Silicon Valley

https://www.bbc.co.uk/sounds/play/m002n10g

And the one thing above all you dont desire or need..is to be ANY towny persons victim or escaped goat or anything ever in their poor Eastenders infected ..heads...

And at last i met my very very favourite maybe-religious babe or rather old bag...

wow we had a chat lastereve talk about a 'romantic' setting... just her and i in the bigjob... " so cmon whats the heating bill?" 

It would be extremely inappropriate for me to even George Borrow her words as she was extremely rude about her own.... gang

So i turned it onto 'positive' language rahh rahh happy clappy

And all my materrial is a life-cult rather than the death cults all around sadly especially in Hatesville all i wanted was to do ... was just do a rescue mission and then head to the High Mts of serbia well not really ehhh high Mts of Portugal far safer when it comes to roaming bands of homoerotic marching singers 

" whatever the rest may say and i love it you think they can schism the fuck off and die in hell.....  i think its lovely you have a babe arch pointy hat....i really do and hopefiully she can whack some botties as as a bloke every time i put the wireless on and hear of yet more lost sheep gone pervy it makes me feel ashamed to be a bloke ....[ she agreed!]..   how interesting you say that ' of course the bible doesnt want a babe in the high seat...cos 'it was rit by a load of blokes..'. what a wonderful insight...! such a shame i have never met any Christian except you who can ever think outside their little death cult of a black box...  and isnt such a fanatic they can actually have a real equal discussion between equal humans...wow.."

 

  

Hmmm The Source

(FAR too many typos today the whole week organised around the next socket thistermorn but....not available.... fucking religion ... and their imaginary 'birth's mean i cant get quietly to my socket.... so no battery... what about all the other nutcase schemas that have OTHER schemas that dont involve virgins birthin..

...no christian seems to even want to call them human or saveable...i know i ask them....)

 So there's me all smug saying i am "complete" and know all i ever needed to know

(ONLY about my past region...that's the thing with jotting openly people assume immediately it's about THEM.... nope... no interest. And in fact i would wander the SW Coastal path two years and almost never give anyone my url or name....  so anyone i have, thats a big  big ...as i said to her The Daughter.. " what we say on the hill stays on the hill.."

It's known as honour as for well over a decade in the actual environment - 10% pop density of the SW, thirty years my roamahome region ....    where nature and clean rivers should have had a CHANCE, nope...you cannot say ANYthing real to any even local coffeeshop  owner who pretends as he did to be all super-eco, until it comes to  his whistlestop tours all over Europe not giving a fig about unnecessary travel or leotards on his bicycle (all man made fabrics in reality harbingering doom...yes we know about primark and TK Max pondweed murdering synthetics... - AT LAST i heard a speaker yestereve rigjhtly attempt to get 'class' back into it..)

Anyway if back then i had said to some suposed "Environmental" organisation cjhappie i had known some years " Gordon do NOT tell anyone or i will be HURT by my faliling neighbouring farmers...but its quite obviously deliberate.. the moment Jezza gets in with his allotment and bicycle.. the way the farmers of remote W herefordshire that autumn quite deliberately and against clearcut law...  all cut their hedges in the summer....  early august still being summer and illegal.... but no they have done this deliberately and never mind the early puncture season me cycling no leotard or unnecessary plastic helmet 30km to Ludlow Green FAir.... i filmed it all as i came here thistermorn but DO NOT TELL anyone... i dont know what to DO with this film of reality but atleast someone with a brain for what the simple LAW we need enforcing  went out and captured like he did in his RAgged Trousered.. the real version....  "

" simon you are making a mistake... Kington Local Environment and Energy Network [ which gets round the back door charitable funding, a big audio made this morn on the reality of the dodgy '3rd sector'  - what it IS] ... we arent an 'environmental' organisation.."

Funny that as i had wasted enough evenings of pour lives going to their meetings about how to improve 'the' environment... (im sure they had some secret ones in 2018 when XR started to have meetings in the same town with the same peeps going...who incidentally lasted a whole year before.. the 'volunteer' main touchstone...ran away crying .... "my hair isn't blonde enough lets get the bottle out, again...almost everyother week one could see on her old woman FAkebook..." and as i knew where they lived i knew they wont have been on the extremely badly maintained dodgy town sewer system...

of course the need to use less didnt apply to her bathroom chemical quotient...

Anyway never mind not being able to speak of farmer Charlie the neighbour - an inteligent intense middle aged man quite able to read the instructions on the chemical bottles, as her also drew up the contracts to hive off his Flintsham pol to a syndicate of a dozen paying £600 a year ... to fish, the reason why the two local otters i knew...were killed one night,  but noone dare even go and suggest down their pub it just may have been good ole boy Charlies henchmen out lamping late one eve... a few hundred quid behind  the bar 's next time they are in his village pub.... after a  day deliberately spraying right next to The Arrow...  (project UNDERway if i can get one ally!) 

So it was....still is (even worse) the 100% dysfunction within the so called Green movement  of Englaneds most BBC covered bucolic rural paradise... which on their watch became only a Wasteland....  which inspires me always to ponder comical language or other ways os somehow posteriorising them...as Noonan did in his RAgged... because it - that book, DID change things even if change takes a long time and can be reversed if the next baton grabbers dont ALSO work fuckhardhard to protect the small gain one may have made...

That is the story but it has to be fun.... even 'sexed up' a phrase i decry...

to reach as many as Ragged Trousered did reach long after the writer was a dead parrot...

But the weird thing is as stated i couldnt understand the behaviour of the smallish trickle of Jenny came latelies who styarted to colonise near 20 years ago and as there were so fewer of them pro rata to the SW  they were far meeker... yet still did really fuck up the so fragile small environmental movement back in lasterregion...

I didnt understand them talking the talk for show...but so much of the rest of the time showing..

well the artist i remeber her name but wouldnt write it who was so so so XR... thats where i first met her.... but then just two years later i'm cycling past her place strimmers chainsaws newbuild garages for ...just her and her old hubby...

And then seeing her 'art' studio ....

 Its as if simple metooo wasnt invented... if my art is not exactyly brilliant what gives metoo the right to use SO much of the resources painting such dull 300 quid dull paintings that the whole Wye Valley is clogged up with...

and then pop to a meeting about using less or the planet is fucked...

Anyway ... that pasterregion i had to leave to begin to write up or play with words in prep for writing it up...even if its excruciatingly boring every word of it....

It got MUCh more interesting when Little Miss 'Case study' in the audio here a few weeks ago arrived... as she really was a lethal force from close (to this Source) ... 

but how does one put into words first time i said to her, or anyoneelse, as i am loyal if i say so... the words " Suzi the stupidf Greens my once friends can't even manage one simple slogan ABOUT THEMSELVES... being most are lonely middle aged or older cranky things... TWO per fireplace is 50% better for the environment than one...  never mind if HMG could somehow give tax insentive to start to get two or three back together into the SO SO many single households around...fussy old birds read too much Tolle and think perfection is just around the corner  theyll be saying that until the day they're with the coroner ' she died 5 years ago and nobody found her corpse because her many millions of friends she endlessly bragged of, werent really and she had scarred off all the blokes who may have popped their noses in for a bit of Italian Poetry 

[only they can make me smile today 

]

and ended up givin err one over the Aga... who may have taken an interest in the REAL footrot which ended up going sepsis  not her endless ,made up illnesses for attention that didnt work...

and they lived together two per woodburner happily ever after...  even if you have to WORK on it every day....' " 

"Simon  [Farage loving part of the prob] thats  really BRILLIANT and a bit funny even...two per woodburner...I'm going to use it myself.... " 

 but the true far more intelligent European absurdist surrealist Borges real version ...is that i somehow knew that there's no was she could ever apply this to herself as she moved into her fine antique 2 bed cottage on the river...

she then spends every day  still now... solo...complaing about as the source of all her endless misery... due floods and pollution. (even in her v West Horrorfordshire midsized village) ...both of which have only got worse....both alleviated by more  peoples per biurner stove cooking pot ...vehicle...... even if its say 25% ... get that in as policy and you get  an immediate return rather than the ENDLESS total lies about UK being ahead of emissions targets... 

Because we cleverly offshored even the statiticians who  daren t tell the truth " yes but.... we USE much more still than we ever did,....but its made with Chinese dirty coal or far worse Indonesian or Vietnamese ...as theyll never have the cash to go fully offgrid....

Anyway all this preachiness the standard formula for centuries has been to weave in history around a love story perhaps or....

some other vehicle...

But here where almost everyone is one per vehicle  i guess thats not only not going to work but a REAL 'agression' up[on them personally....

so i only give ralpschism.com to ...qwell i hope she is honourable..

Not that it matters i have no real life  and dont want one..other than a walking companion, unpaid...

But...hmmm... i had forgotten The Daughter exists...

 wow.... and she can't tell tales or i shall tell them the truth " she said  you all fucked her rivers she was driving past thistermorn and they were all foaming .... " and of course nobody CAn say all that matters is too many people ..

(the science not done though i jabbed a bit into The Wye the chemicals from diabetes meds to dog flea POISON... and thats a propper big river tested last autumn after a VERY wet summer ....is because take 2020 far far more people 'working' from home conning tne taxpayer their 'third sector' Mother Theresan operation is good value...

(the audio later) which means relative to 30ish years ago FAR FAR more - i bet about 500% ...  bottom-on-seat hours to piss out prozac fatjab meds and even menstuarls.... 

take the around 50% extra beds built into the region all those barns converted  - Hilary murdering the bats first... despite later hosting Monbiot con talks  at his 'venue' ......  and then multiply by twice as much time maybe three times as long spent at home post pandemique...

= the only reason is too many people using too many chemicals and UNLIKE every so called green middle aged man i meet - but these are the professional classes hunting shooting fishing managing it all by 100 grnd suv if you include the monogram on  the front  which would have paid for a few years fish restocking...... i do not believe its the people thats the problem meaning they want genocide..of you... the land can deal with the people on it im no  send em backist...

but they have to use so so much less stuff which includes every other day waxing their rangerover or campervan... so much less in theior bathrooms... NO Dryrobes ever in fact he the 'saviour ' of the planet inventing them according to radio 4 should be sent to The HAgue and left there to drown i n a dock full of his own Robey sludge...

Anyway PAstyshirte one had to be even more careful not knowing how many organised crime had bought up the  seaside millionares pads...

no way does one get spoken of THERE as caring about ALL their seas ruined ... (most having sewerage poutlets not even that far from the coast) 

or not strimming the butterfly plants...

nope you get hurt ...  and also reasise that the  3 or 4 over two years i thought could be asked to shut up...read my stuff if we have solidarity and i know you will never do anything despite upour bumper stickers but its not for anyone else...

catch them with their knickers really down - not prozac pissing raw food into the waters but justy lying about work offered or othersuch... wasting SO much time...

And i am quite sure these viscious south easterners one and all deliberately go to the local henchemns Fisherman cafe and tell the local thug in a MAd MAxomobile paarked using half the pavement in G**** Haven of very narrow streets  ... " ohh look its him...hewrites nasty things about peoplelike you...actually am sure about you in person.."
even if you have told them its never ever about anyone here un less they are EXTREME versions of eco hippos and take public cash... but they have tyo join the long queue as The Marches lot take priority SO much more fun tales about them... never mind every sad woman with inherited land up that region fucks you for your wages ...oops that could be misinterpreted better keep to e for embezzlement... as i wouldnt touch any with a barge pole as nervy lying women are so unattractive ... or the just as bad version " ohh we will be doing that part of the land next yes definately... " so you block out a few months for them or relax " ok ideal few days a week being a toughguy in the bag...." and it turned out always..it was theirmania talking ... and the next day their other Hiding side of not understanding what say what you mean.... is the real them... they forgot to leave behind at the door of their Brighton PR org or Monsanto HQ  that they stole the cash frpom to recreate themselves in pasterreion..

so much surrealcomedy its daft

Anyway.... i only like shy people or those who complain about their rivers... and in respect of the former  i know one must shut entirely her out of ones mind sadly...  and her shyness enjoyed.... 

Even if my ohh my ...i can't lie...     my heart was truly touched.... truly... i still see in my minds eye her so lovely arty farty stuff... nope... big-herself up takes herself so seriously Rima ... really couldnt do that...

right just oin time for.... the one decent afternoon...means back up to..... her dad's Moor...

sadly i shan't meet her again no doubt but....

(if she  could be twinned with THE great artist whom i have been grooming to do great art about her foaming river forex... my my that really WOULD be a worthwhile project...   between them i think thney are sincere but i learned from  quarter of a decade here simply  never ever ever believe the smile of the SWesterner...no idea what they are thinking in reality thats not part of the Anrniac looking glass  theyre all addicted to...i wish io could meet one whom isnt.... well i though i had but there we go a fools errand but rather a long one three damn years.... ...)

ALL next week i shall be attempting to work on only this and make it mjust a bit more...engaging' unless any of my hundreds of readers like it how it is... 

so fuckin pay up then....

entertaining you for me is ...dangerous...

seriously.... parked near their richmen pubs (blokes in those shooting jackets thats their garb..) frig i get such dirty looks....  really nasty.. and i am so 'stealth' its daft

its NOT in any way at all a happy place ANYwhere in the whole SW....

But back to HAtesville - or the first story of there soon..its in the can

  

Mass 'formation' psychosis*

 Gosh it works even after not enough sleep due a windy night.

That's good.

Between last night mister " i formed Extinction Rebellion and it was good.." and Ms lives by The Slad Valley on the wireless now...with her  'Climate Change Committee' (Stroud being 40 years ago the first Source of The Sourceistes)

Not one of these younger "holistic" (to quote her, live) people would even be able to accept a fully formed 30 year knowings....  

That almost every one of them, forms something, worthy pious eco... gets on the wireless... then we never hear from them again.  As all they wanted to form was a 'network' of peeps who ... heard them being praised on the wireless...

And ALL these so many 'formations' of so so many worthy little eco causes. Rather than the one we needed to succeed for real, or if one must FOE and Greenpeace, would have done.... if they worked together.

Of course their narcissistic personality disorder (the only label worth repeating) means that if one, ten years ago, had said " all these atomised little formations of forming new groups every other day, rather than fixing the relationships in the one yesterday you ran away crying from.."  they would have said ...nothing and hissed from behind their phone..

whilst doubling down on their new formings...

  

And all sorts of bits and bobs pinpointing to where the not very fully formed so called grown ups... are rather childlike.  And when you have patterns over years  that prove its always, its worth passing on... even the tragic Misslead of the Abramic religions had one thing right (in Uttermost Ends of the Earth in that the bongo bongo drummers discovered it without any good book or Mass..

pharisee and Sadducee disorderism ... that the elders of 'indigenous' uncontacted peeps except by Mister Bridges, who needed them as his equal allies and landrovers ... allies-equals,  in the harsh climate of Patagonia......need to mentor the youngers,  no sky faery needed as it was known that widow elder would be far more fiery in the sac and 'mentor' her younger adopted gardener  from next door in that art, and when he was ready to breed with his own age group, he would pay her back over the rest of life by tending her veg or beehives ... mutually benefitting... )  

* a fair dinkum theory by the Belgian 2020... not perfect but a working thesis.

So, it is launched....

 The last 'cause' that can't be mine, because i didn't cause it.

And i am beyond ever being effected by anything.

Except .... bad art just bores.

It would be nice to seed, some, good....

The Job

 Now in an age where i could write a hilarious book - in facts a series almost as long as Mister Herriot's... 

Obviously if it were called, The Job...all that ever matters is the job...

ohh there are loads more bits of vid to weave into something longer, later..

Anyway in one dimensional YUK where nobody is able to think laterally or round the back, perhaps few would even understand that 20 years of jobs... 

As Primo Levi so beautifully described in his books about his non death-camp, work....  where he used his work as a chemist and chemical factory rigger, as vehicle..

to describe people...

twenty years of jobs like this....   (the most predictable, perhaps something to do with the face overlooking - real Christians know i tell it like it is always of their hypocrisy.. their missdeeds... their ...well theres a whole new page soon ... )

So so many gibberings...( a full job expose soon as example of what it is " ohh we will be doing that part of the job next week.. that one in 3 months...." so you book out future bits of weeks to them...and then you discover by a text  - the last few years mode ...funny old world as your personal handyman person well... you would have thought they desrved it to their face....that maybe they couldn't actually afford what was crystal clearly the daily rate or the like... never mind maybe even pay a contractual handshake or "Christian" "let your yea mean yea.."

on "you are doing it - the rest of the job"  fee... as you didnt look for other work their work being "guaranteed" )

But it's so boring to even think of what became the norm - each one pumped her chest up - it always is... often neglected to pay remainder of monies owed...

One even didnt repay her groceries i had picked up in Knighton for her place 30km away, 4 years ago...

They always find a reason... their feelings when of course the reason they are single and canty do it themselves is because they can't man-manage...

I do only mean once tough country girls, now... i don't seek to work for neurotic townies as they are even more boring...

Anyway a book of one job per chapter... as my diaries are perfect.... one day may be a worthy way of not wasting time...

And the last paragraph would be, i don't think one would even understand, that it is ONLY satisfying for me a worker ion the land...to finish THE JOB.. despite them...

That is all that mattered .. thing is their embezzlement (actually against modern slavery act) / downright lies causing genuine fiscal hardship.... they think they got me! .I am fully aware of their gloating having cheated stole lied " well that sorts him out hahh hahh" ..nope...

poor things what a cheap way of getting kicks...

 all that ever mattered was DOing the job...  that is the only satisfaction there ever is..

I am only interested in pleasure and centred zen .off doing some rural work always well enough... and of course these thieves (once one always one)  half of them stole money one way or other to get their rural semi retirement so you do expect it... yet each one in turn over well in fact 19 years acts as if they alone invented getting one over on you... subtly

or....well.... thing is that that WAS the first commandment of the land from ancient yorey times...be straight with the slave...

and a book on how not one ever could be any more...

I know is a real Salty Dog tail...

worth telling

But its only about number 5 in the to do list so.... it may take a bit of time..

But i do know what justice means..it's figurative its ...

its even three dimensional

And it should be fun

to be cont

she, works in mysterious ways....

 ...all i know is that you have to be prepared....for any weird kairosy games and  nonsense keeps coming up.

Mt kairos is always, good.

Now...

 so so many reflections - interwoven with real Non-DeBot

philosophy

sadly is incomplete and my  "constellation therapy" (i made a Miss Stake through my heart seeing his pictures littering telegraph poles of late)  of sick mind solutions....  scatterbrains here and there and often before getting to the solution - loopin in loopy-like back to a point

the battery runs out

Anyway proof of how being a junky can be so so good for you..

(and as nobody will tell the yoof the trend of the younger trendies being offered gongs began maybe eighties and a real man would say " fuck off and go and kill some badgers with your metal gong.."  but no not any more..)

Even a great songwriter lapped up his...

to be cont battery

So, there's no point pondering the 'young' ...

 especially now their ...

(real journalism you won't find on your main 'stream' of dead pondlife:18 mths ago even if i couldn't release it as Pastyland utterly hates ANYthing real... such as a real opinion or real encounter that doesn't fit in with the brand..( strange in fact as their main thing is brainwashing themselves to brainwash everyone else with "we're so so poor and underwashed.." when the data is that there are more vehicles per person in Pastyshire than in any other shire in the whole land... )

Anyway 18 mths ago this fat couple  whop had set up their van and awning and barbie a few days (harbibngering the lovely reality:The Nutzy Trust sent so so much third sector cash on uniforms and unnecessary strimming for the Londoners to think their 'donations' are going to some use and they wont get their Hunter Boots wet walking the paths in summer, ... that as of about last autumn no more 'secuwwwity..'  coming around the my-bedroom carparks being nosey ...  no power to actually fine or move you on but still being so so at 10pmish - never me as i am ultra stealth never even been approached i know how to not BE... " well move on only if you are ..safe..." so of course the correct answer is i am pissed...  although if they tell tales to the boys in blue - the two in the whole county that may be problematical if they Miss Interpret lore...

Anyway a whole pemninsula of paradise parkups none on 'park4night'  no longer patrolled as The Nutzi Trust spent all their cash eckersnot on some junior making falsies about their elder  and getting a payoff to shut up..as happens daily in your NHS...

where was i....ohh yes couple boozing in van in Cot Valley technically off road (as i know my territories like back of my hand in respect of the folk-lore) but i bet the boys in blue would disagree... 

But as they were utra third sector - she paid to lanyard around and make policy and give the best contracts to her Wooly Polly yeargroup mates (its extraordinary how mostof the DWP is now done for years by 'non profits' as they say in Yooessay which is an incorrect geographical load of nonsense as uk for 15+ years became youessaytoo...... so so fizzed  up  'contractorsd' - who would never use that word, as they  only see themselves as Mother Theresas despite never ever doing ANYthing except say " you will see we have  large array here of computers for you to use as we so so care and spread the love  that will mentor you applying for jobs to get you back to work even with your bad back.."   that are never used

as nobody ever believes a word and most dont like logging into things when theres cctv all around when the love goes wrong...

Anyway the 'love'  - and i express no opinion as definitely work - the 1% that is actually valuable to humanity, is good.. for the soul and esteem and certainly 'mental health'. As long as its proper work. As i have never met a 'disabled' person who has not some really great talent they put into SOME compulsion or fanaticism even if its just being as so many 100 thou re in this bonkers land, a world champion 'hoarder'  who manages to work out clever ways of preserving their own faeces for posterity in hoarded jars (this is not untrue and a great novel 30+ years ago i always forget the title ohh well i cant hoard all the info forever, highlighted this tragic new nutjobbery) 

so yes roadside boozers and she possibly worked for the DWP more likely some very profitable 'not for profit' i have recorded " ...ehh all thats over regardless of which government gets in very soon like in a few months we are stopping anxiety and depression...cos we will tell new claimants to fuck off and get a job.."

Unless of course in lanyardspeak there is some extreme version, provable by say a certificate saying they had the shock treatment...

As per GREAT art...

if i had a bit of artistic support i would have time to weave in this great art by loggin in downloading and whatdyerknow 

https://clip.cafe/the-rocky-horror-picture-show-1975/throw-open-the-switches-on-the-sonic-oscillator/

Anyway real comedy (never mind The Hague - hers, she wont even know was extant): you should see inside my box of moaning..

As something began

15ish years ago...

That will be tomorrow" well if you want to get your label and attention-seekin' condition... make sure its so 'bad' that you have that certificate, too... [i dont believe how they STILL love their ECT or whatever zapping the brain is with the river of electrons flowing through it, in the latest acronym...approved by a man to my face lastersummer  who still cant appreciate maybe hetoo was a maybe just a bit responsible for his now grown up daughter's many year anorexia...because he is ...so so so 'educated'.... ] .."

Now as without any doubt if i were a teen  - the teen i was,then when i was one,  even 10 years ago i would have qualified for some labels so i can say this being without any doubt in the few percent who were rather 'social anxiety' and all that...  we knew who they were, not many!

But thats just bona fides i wouldnt have one second of my life any different. (except that interview error  mentioned on othersite) ...

And even if so so pained and tortuous a box of court statements and legal representations so painfully worked on on behalf of parents maybe facing child loss even 15 years ago they couldnt listen " luv..i am on YOUR side...  whether or not they believe you that your little ....wow that looks funny free speach doth continue!

(i have a far funnier one to feature soon... )

... but it would be incorrect as for every 'Chelsea' or ...i cant think of names out of Neighbours or Big Sister... ehh for every one of them, there are far more Phoebes or Ruperts or James es.. 

whos mummy (it ALWAYS is, sorry, merely a FACT of  ... just the phenotype... genes+environment meaning words are ten times more powerful so  just environment = culture) decided a decade ago that my little thing is so so special they need a label...

And when the 'middle' classes or as every incomer to HAy or Presteigne or Clun loves to secretly label THEMselves just a tad above middle... 

By dint of their special education that their little Sophie has some special 'neurodivergent' brain...

when if one observes these children they are superb, and TEN times more confident and engaged and courageous than i could dream of being as a youngun...

Anyway real comedy better than the great comedy of Rocky  being really snarky with YAnks...

who started ALL this as i heard from the nags gob decades ago

whom ONLY a fine Englishman whether or not his stockings and suspenders were inate or not....could the second he saw them through the cctv...know...only he can save her...from herself..and him.

Anyway having heard it from the drunk old bags gob 18mths ago... " no more cash for the sad bad n wonky ..."

she boasted as cruelly intentional as Frank 

Anyway listening to the comedy of Starmerstan one day sayin " the data is ADHD is overdiagnoised 600% and the next well maybe we need to ponder why so many are wonked up...... but were not picking on any particular label...." 

Is better than the wonkies of weirdo art the rich say they like 

proving theyre all in need of the injection.. 

of proper counter culture great culture

But your mums wont be doin' that any time soon even if say 

well this i9s the problem if you Oggled "best movie about universal narcissism" you would get yet cleverer nonsense when the true genius of Reggie was a whole series about just that

all of it..if you have the attention span to sit still long enough to have watched it... and even MADE your youngsters, too...

As education requires ways to chain them to the sofa ...metaphorically figuratively even if you BRIBE them to read a lot... 

nope the mermaids dont ever even pay them to shut up and do something educational like read many good little books unless Moonchild 'manifests' her inner serene frequency that will mystically find her way to the bookshelf.. they cant be bothered to make for Moonie so busy on fakebook*

Anyway... i can guarantee one thing: a whole new generation of 'activists' ...  lead by them upper middles... 

As nothing really changed since Reggie's time...

There will be some token ruffians rantin from the sidelined...  however the slightly uppermids will as usual have the larger part of the footie pitch as over the next few years they come up with all sorts of higher production-value online material PROVING that their little one in fact does suffer so terribly from all the labels the government cannot as they COULD NEVER afford to dish out...

especially as the actual remedy is sending their parents en masse to splendid Maoist style concentration camps: " CONCENTRATE on building Moonie's bookshelf or ferrit cage or whatever other bit of diy you may do WITH them even if it takes 5x longer its such a great way of causing actual 'growth' and a guaranteed remedy to all them labels... and sitting at the kitchen table with merely a bottle of glitter or stick on stars... isnt... what works.. even if a cheap band aid.."

Anyway it will be such comedy infact Woman's Hour should employ a whole new department of badly educated mass produced 'media studies' grads who werent sat on a chair for days on end and eloctroprodded if they didnt read all of Pilger or Tariq... to deal with the next decade of interviews (so cheap to find 'activists' online as their job is to be FOUND)  " ohh my i had to dedicate every second of the last decade campaigning and activisting to get  mt pressious his/her rightful loadsa extra government cash for all those taxis...  back and forth to school, as the label meants s/he was too nervy to get the bus with the rest...  and as for free school breakfasts well of curse i never had time to make a nice sustaining porridge as i was heroically always out of the door by 530 so i could earn our lifestyle....  and all those so stylish £700 prams that s/he would have so so labelled as scummy chav if i hadnt sacrificed myself so to go out and work 90 hrs a week to provide... but in the end .. 90 hrs a week campaigning also...we are safe...we have our label back the nasty government stole... "

 

But this is real...inside journalism... from inside their 'files' of course one must never hint at who...when .. 

even if its extraordinary as i would say " well i asked them if they had some money to pay me £5/hr expenses for the days i would spend with them..on repeat about some made up condition or medical assessment.. the judge i told them would not want to hear a word about ever again... s/hes already said so and if you continue its curtains... so for now how about we  - me as scribe helping, write your statements about what is GREAT about your day with your kid...why they in fact are successful at many things... as you phoned me to get me to help you WIN your case... and thats how i am telling you from loads of experience that happens... "

amazing thing how in reality it was only ever £2 (free if genuinely poor) 

as they would always say " yes of course i understand you are bringing your own kid up alone DOing loads of activities endlessly with her so havent a dime to spare ..of course i agree to your modest  expenses coverage..for diverting time to us..." 

And as sure as ferrits are ferrits every single one welshed on the deal...

your last few weeks of their paperwork  - simple stuff just based on telling a REAL story...one did for them and they always found a reason to have a hissy fit and end up stomping off....without paying those last few agreed weeks...always

Err...go

But i have a far better 'vehicle' to tell that true tale of twenty years -  95% of my paid work-work bosses doing exactly the same...