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The business of The Source...
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Now i've lost track around a place with no map meaning forgot which utterly nothing clips i've put up, for no fun, but one is ace birdwatchery
Now he was always a bit of a showoff....
Berlin was somewhere the flâneur *....
Jesus feckin .... I mean to say, as one felt, that the flanning was always akin to landlopeing in that the laller the bouncy version, the former the meandering seeking a deeper meaningful, thingummy, before they ruined the language with their 'vibe'
And now they really ruined the language with their deep mine down to nothing but faery language
*A flâneur (noun) is an idle urban stroller.
Being you had to be flânnish... in response to them
As you defo didn't wish to be them. And you sought, lolloped, aimlessly smelled it like a hawk from ten km away, feeling, that made sense of their lack of it.
But as to why.....
Several decades later several decades before, infact almost exactly 15ish years....
they started their silence.
And the stupideratti chattering away in the latest vibe have only just discovered it.
All i know is actions are far more authoritatively constant and unchanging quiet if action words, than words...
I know that i havent picked up the current book at 0600 and, n ever, 100 pages to go, and gobble them up before the rest, of, they infact will have to wait it's turn.
He really was quite astonishingly writerly, honourable and i doubt there are that many falsities.
And Rachel K i know copied from himtoo - which is a true acolade.
But i know what country lore is
And who breaks it
So, never!.... let them die alone, they earned it
All they care about.... earning their for their 'space' in Bubblelands....
But only she seems to get out in it...regularly
But values are ALWAYS
now yes.... if i were to pass on one nugget its how truly atrocious all 'nature' writing is.
Being you have to use every second of the day to hurry the fuck up and get into it, firstly...
And every wasted second is a bad act even if there aren't any bad actors just arrogant
Anyway what do i know except all digital was always useless and unable to get inside the heart .. but so called 'nature writing' is even worse than digital especially now i know - well a year ago ... exactly what their real nature is... and of course if they have a Yank tutor, monetising her inability to know even nature folk, law... which is honourable, always, and requires a "no thanks" even teenagers knew that, well how does one expect anyone to know that even rural 'management' must be based on rural honour which was always only ever mean what you say...
The ultimate absurdism is peeps who know nothing of how the countryside must function, i mean even master Hardy who rightly disowned himself in later life, as frippery, managed to get that bit right, you meander on ignoring what slight ewas yesterday
Anyway where did i get to, Anne... she is such a media tart with nothing to say except maybe you should spend a few grand on a Hardy first edition; she certainly let the sisterhood down.
But then i always knew none of them knew what books were for... even then, thirty years ago... and my my i was right
So yes we have 'romantasy' and other miscellaneous Ffordian bourgeois (thats all it is foodie nonsense) colour supplement puke..
But what matters is that a year back when you have someone who actually LIKES the magical real film script treatment and indeed whole fabulous subtly satirical film arising in my head, written down carefully even by her...
That among other things (the main one being her english dad) attacks quite rightly foodyism as the cheroot of all modern day avoidance behaviour indeed the nanny state of mindful of nothing
And..of course she couldn't mean anything as she could never get over the worst person - ok first equal ...
19th into 20th C English man, and his cousin the almost as cruel Frog
All that really matters is that one's handwriting is better than ever
Flows like their silly showoff dancin' without even having to think about it..
Now as before it's just about territories
And almost all of errs Pauline, genuinely propitious
And ok Nat and her fabriquer une vantardise rédemptrice
frank, ly we could have left it at that
Thing is now i know I've been lying for a decade...,.
The god-line, used as TEST..EM!!!!! " as Neruda once said a conversation does not begin until weve been sharing for an hour as one isnt allowed to say shut the fuck up and listen to wisdom, speak.... cos you're told if you tell em you spoke
theyll say well thats where youve been getting it wrong.... especially there ar The Source of the source that would get you zarrested for being saucy...
Thing is how do i know speak when i know it was all along a non vegan porkie
(ITS ALLOWED AS I AM INFORMED FROM WOKE CENTRAL DOWNTOWN THEY SAID SO AND I BET THEY WERE ALL GAY TOO) I was retarded and so was Neruda...
whats the opposite of to be retarded to....
come forth so so fabulously energised and with great esteem that you don't need an hour to suss out....
So even Pablo will have to be updated or rather all one liners are inadequate. Needing at least another line or even two.... the fourth being where it was IMPOSSIBLE....
now
Even if ....
It was a harsh word, too pumped up ...
far too Inhuman when only a true one, happy in her skintoo could so back-straight brighteyed be so just supremely cheeky
And unhesitant about ittoo
unlike the rest who hesitate so as to rear up and bite your head off knowing you'll give them indigestion sharing any wise guruwords..
and i MUST finish something
On how they stole the words
what a fool I is
It's gorgeous....
so truly sighted the second you see it
And Exactly even in the hottest foul swamplands of The 1930s way before the patinated bohemians shat in GweekCreek... and then performed bullshit for the tourists who day they are as mindful of bullshit as them.... already 1930s!the shababes were doing a number, on the tourists....
oh yes and how progressive when peeps knew what it meant
Except real retreating is going forward into what your real values really are... most of the time. No matter what the price. My reflections always free.Right 6 mths of wonky gobbledygook to attempt to bring order to, soon...
And the heroine is already in my handwritten version... I've never met anyone so totally confident in her superb unarrogant unhubrisy, humble take on life...
which is real giving of course, and having something worth receiving...
And the three year old, is right.
To think otherwise is merely cants and vanities.
now i have seen it ALL!...even if my picture is far more arty farty
As is the variant i saw justernow... so virtuously earnest-arty...
All that so precious hamster wheel time spent being a 'maker'...
rather than even writing Paul (sadly he expired, not the big one but alcoholism)
a letter " PAulie... our river really is getting a bit buggered as we knew decades ago before Justine-come-lately wants to make money out of what she never bothered to do...the WORK, then, twenty years ago ohh now radio 4chan glory awaited for
her as a payout for WORK not done, then i know as i was one of the only two in the whole region who did a bit of work....my ONLY interest in painting that picture about there, then...
I thought it couldn't get any more apt or cheesy - handmade only of course
all of which takes up so so much time to earn the extra cash for..
Never mind build the ultimate virtuous time machine back to 'saudade'* when in fact they wouldnt have a first clue what it was....and STILL can be if one fights for it
unlike dead hiraeth which is just moaning about a fake version of heritage gone
*
Anyway back to the point ....
Never mind a decade of Miss Andrea....
As exemplified by Chloe off on 'err Hadj, as if she actually had a brain she would have blamed HIM, equally
Oops wrong way around, blaming a babe, only, is the Miss version
except it's aversion to the truth in that HEtoo had the responsibility to say " luv...ehh.... really....you pinched, nicked, stole, embezzled, some old telly addoict's dosh .... maybe it's best not to draw attention, to a wander down the coast plotting how to be a glorious bigbucks fake... "
Thing is......she got away with it!
Like so many have for several decades
oops they ...them...
got away; cos the ones who used to be trained to at least notice the fakes are of course so busy overworking on some new word for their PR or saving up to pay for the expensive, must have! new word....
And there's no point as nobody can ever ever be consistent..
I mean the point is all is just dull 'politics' even spreading a GREAT piece of 'work', which has to be replicated, breed, have offsprings that are as pure as it... and one needs a few on the same page who stay there... so as to have solidarity and even do some dull boring grooming/pimping, together.... which is all politics ever was, as the makers of Glyphosate know...
And laugh at their so called opposition
Now ...i don't any more....
But long ago Thomas Bernhard taught me all photography is sociopathic...
So all photos are a skit as good as Millie's That Was The Week That Was
Except in three dimensions
and also find the loads of film on all those blokes they all look the same and smell of Glastonbury angst ..
selling fifty quid tinctures of the very best mushroom and cures ...i have hours of film for the public record nobody else ever dare collect as fine chronicle of the REALITY of all the nonsense.... perfect archetype who invaded Clun Green Man piggybacking a heritage that doesnt even exist ..that woukld make a superb documentary as they are far far far more ashram smiley than me...
Even if every single one should be reported to trading standards especially when they hit the now default middler class Crowdfunding grift page..
i have hours of themtoo...
i like THIS 'history' - the real one...nobody ever tells.
And why bother?
because THE 'environment' requires people to spend their limited time ("cultural capital") protecting...yes going to the dull planning meetings telling the MP even if our lovely one was a homo Paul Keetch my very very good friend.. as he was a real man... meant what he said "Paul if you do NOT do what you say you will to my daughter, in PArliament we took tghe trouble to go and have a cuppa as citizen enquiring of their powerman.... well we will find a way of tellin' your Andy we saw you down the sauna with someone cuter than him... "
But all the time spent on Green Woman costumes.. never mind making dreamcatchers and various voodoo dolls... and finding the most righteous recipe for facepaint
Meant of COURSE they never had any time free to go and find a way of makking so called 'power' do what it said it will...
and going back.... when it doesnt
activism - should be a banned word, is dull..its just figure what works, make your point....repeat...
and find a better way as you do of repeating in a way that makes people laugh a BIT
As earnestness and piety never ever worked...as Joan of Arc or whoever they burned at the steak 'n chips...
ONLY laughter makes us like people .... and i say that being not very good at it
until...i truly let go and became what i entirely disrespect and know is good for nothing, occasionally able to make someone laugh
Now... there is no hope in that for a decade I meandered and 99% baulked
As that's their hamster wheel gearing
" as Neruda said a conversation does not begin until we have been speaking at least a good hour.."
And only extremely rarely is that true insight, 'learnings', personal space bubble extremely violent and vicious attack, unnecessary....as just occasionally you know within one minute when you have a pukka one who has a strong core..
And my radar is perfected to purest unperfectability.
That said still it takes such a long time to explain for example a decade, told, informed (one gets complaints by default at those words, thus "look you mad bi*ch who has ruined the environment via ruining environmentalISM by YOUR arguing about personality and gender, which doesnt really exist nor does the correct word 'sex' in your fake little eco world where you are too busy dying your ever in sympathgy with the latest rainbow colourings for the next XR gathering and your Fakebook, and of course you have dyes that are now 100% emission/ xenobiotic free please share with us......and havent had sex since Mika was in the charts...... i dont argue by default, performatively to succour your soulless little darkened bedroom all day hiding from the sun, of a life ... infact i even have compromised and taught myself the mad bitches immediately bite your nose off the second you hint you are 'telling' them something, so wated SO much time learning to modify MYself humanistically, to always say 'sharing' ..ok ... right...."
One did need ideally ten minutes just for the big one which does take some sharing or telling i know she wouldnt tell me off for telling something based on a DECADE of personal learnings in a jolly hollistic way - from the point of view of a young babe indeed, my only setting:
"ladies... woman... the other sex.....or just one, in fact... your sex has the FLOOR... only women's voices have had real traction in Anglo-US society for the last decade.... a decade where passion is mistaken for anger especially if male.... could go on forever with a superb analyses ... but from Patsy and her Gurkhas and the very occasional other pukka politicking, women sometimes are listened to by 'The Man' as 45 years ago we called merely corporations, until stupid KAe Tempestuous ones came along and monetised their FAKE passion, who still entirely rule the world nothing changed.... only women...Rachel Kushner used the nastiest main in the world's manifesto in her beautiful book...even stupid AI has worked that one out
....Rachel Kushner incorporated excerpts from Ted Kaczynski’s (the Unabomber) journals into her 2018 novel, The Mars Room. She used these entries to draw thematic parallels between Kaczynski's extreme isolation and the manufactured, dehumanizing environment of the American prison system....
so why does no woman know this and the OBVIOUS that no man would have ever been allowed, by her agent, publisher, and the toilet cleaner, to include such scurrilous evil lines and be put up for a Booker, and WRONGLY be denied it as best book this century
Only babes have the voice ... HArvey whatsis name MAx kicked overa Cliffedge... etc etc Wayne... [his, my one last friend] Russell soon...only women
i do not have an opinion as to whether that is a good or bad thing but only a fool fights against the tide... and thus one should encourage support bolster LICENSE [oops thats intrusive]... whoop whoop.... 'groom' [ she loved that i think] .... ONLY women's art and art can save us as The Greens all drowned in the river they entirely failed to even save at The Source Central....likely full of runoff from all the actual Extinction babes hairdye that isnt quite as nature friendly as the bottle cons themtoo... I accept one hunder percent only women have the voice.. the floor.. the real one the one that just may cut through more quickly into 'public' opinion ..... and thats going to be so for some years to come...
Now.... me i like quiet non showoff books ...even Rachel's superb poetical one and fair dinkum she does pick out the few nice sweet Unaman tracts.... and non showoff film such as rather lovely, Columbus 2017... and i laughed at the Fawlties for real even if a bit traumatised as a kiddo by something worse than being gang ra*ed by all of the eco migrants put together....FALSE self pity....
false self pity or performative pity grabbing stupid morons like Mate will never understand is evil as he is king of it as its a great earner and earner of false love...
Anyway blahh blah i could and will write the bible on that especially about the fake chrets...
So maybe only true satire works...
I dont know unlike every woman Swestershire i know nobody can alchemically shamanise the future...
But i did know it was IMPOSSIBLE that great satire, on them.... would ever be again allowed ... ever
never
impossible...
never mind, they may make me laugh....
At themtoo
They know was the only ever hope there was..... the auty-dote
to us, if we do care
about them (next gens)
https://www.bbc.co.uk/sounds/play/m002wkjf
Until they did DO it even better than ever not imagined....
And awake every morn remembering any small outstanding wistful iconoclastic (uwww one of their words, but as there are so few of them - real ones.... well ...ohh yes thats a point ..uhhhhh the 'message' must be alive, kicking, engaging and yes include real love rather than the Nanrniac-pixie version of 'radical' for crowdfunded monetisation, and as for Orange flavouring - never ever! but it's so hard unless one does ponder the real 'politics'
And despite pretending to be all revolutionary goody goody it seems even Mister Kennedy failed, Atrazine and Glyphosate increasing in usage https://open.spotify.com/episode/1rqZ8kqdzZgTCtyhyFd1sn?si=7Dp3dHh8RByWckRhEE3kCA
Thing is.... to meet her eve before last - if only women knew that they musn't leave it until they are very old - Eileen (i only identify anyone who has gone all the way which means be proud of ones authentic integrity - the real version) must be eighty five...
How truly wonderful with her Kruger hat ... in the place of showoff hats, " i used to work for the gov, nationally, most of my career on the environment and we knew then glyphosate a complete scam definitely carcinogenic.... there is no hope... "
Honesty, no performative pretence, makes you look SO much more attractive and even younger
And... well it's only ever about face to face human rhetoric: " are you ok i saw you alone struggling there.... just like all the others round here so so 'individualated' self realised bullshitters they love their solitude as its trendy.. but it takes two to clean the motor when you get older..... [ff 10 mins].... ahh you get it... the important bit of the story is that its EXTREMELY rare for journals to withdraw papers especially after twenty years... they normally just ignore past miss judgements and forget them but no this one which the legal beagles relied on as their main blocker when it comes to payouts was ACTIVELY withdrawn https://www.science.org/content/article/journal-retracts-weed-killer-study-backed-monsanto-citing-serious-ethical-concerns ..... which is the active ingredient when it comes to the biggest scam since thalidomide... "
An old bird has a smile which is real even if .....
And as for Atrazine... whilst not a pure xenobiotic ..one part per billion gets the Axolotls in the balls! ..if they have them... and as good as chops em off